Jayugi

The Furthest Distance

2009-02-22T23:01:00.001+08:00

世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　　　——张小娴

世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死的距离
而是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the distance between life and death
But you don't know I love you when I stand in front of you

世界上最遥远的距离
不是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你
而是爱到痴迷却不能说我爱你
The farthest distance in the world
Is not you don't know I love you when I stand in front of you
But I cannot say I love you when I love you so madly

世界上最遥远的距离
不是爱到痴迷却不能说我爱你
而是想你痛彻心扉却只能深埋心底
The farthest distance in the world
Is not I cannot say I love you when I love you so madly
But I can only bury it in my heart despite the unbearable yearning

世界上最遥远的距离
不是想你痛彻心扉却只能深埋心底
而是彼此相爱却不能够在一起
The farthest distance in the world
Is not I can only bury it in my heart despite the unbearable yearning
But we cannot be together when we love each other

世界上最遥远的距离
不是彼此相爱却不能够在一起
而是明知道真爱无敌却装作毫不在意
The farthest distance in the world
Is not we cannot be together when we love each other
But we pretend caring nothing even we know love is unconquerable

世界上最遥远的距离
不是树与树的距离
而是同根生长的树枝却无法在风中相依
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the distance between two trees
But the branches cannot depend on each other in wind
even they grow from the same root

世界上最遥远的距离
不是树枝无法相依
而是相互了望的星星却没有交汇的轨迹
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the braches cannot depend on each other
But two stars cannot meet even they watch each other

世界上最遥远的距离
不是星星之间的轨迹
而是纵然轨迹交汇却在转瞬间无处寻觅
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the track between two stars
But nowhere to search in a tick after two tracks join

世界上最遥远的距离
不是瞬间便无处寻觅
而是尚未相遇便注定无法相聚
The farthest distance in the world
Is not nowhere to search in a tick
But doomed not to be together before they meet

世界上最遥远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天一个却深潜海底
The farthest distance in the world
Is the distance between fish and bird
One is in the sky, another is in the sea

世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死的距离
而是我站在你面前你不知道我爱你
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the distance between life and death
But you don't know I love you when I stand in front of you

☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆

世界上最遥远的距离
　　　　　　　——泰戈尔《飞鸟集》

The furthest distance in the world
Is not between life and death
But when I stand in front of you
Yet you don't know that I love you
世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你

The furthest distance in the world
Is not when I stand in front of you
Yet you can't see my love
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
Yet cannot be together
世界上最遥远的距离
不是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起

The furthest distance in the world
Is not being apart while being in love
But when painfully can not resist the yearning
Yet pretending you have never been in my heart
世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明知道彼此相爱却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股思念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

The furthest distance in world
Is not but using one's different heart
To dig an uncrossable river
For the one who loves you
世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这股思念却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

How much is enough?

2008-08-28T01:58:00.002+08:00

Standing at Raffles Place for hours is interesting. The white-collared will say they don't have enough to spend, while the blue-collared will say they don't have enough to save.

Both refer to money, but how much is 'enough'? If there's no exact/approx value to this 'enough', the 'not enough' problem will forever exist, or at least for that lifetime.

Some CBDians are just so interesting, they pretend to be mentally disabled/deaf/blind just to get past financial consultants from any insurance company. Very entertaining!!

The uncertain tide

2008-08-25T00:19:00.006+08:00

It seems to me that the four of you have moved on, and I'm very glad for you all.

Who will see if I'm still on the same spot, moving backward or forward?

Things seem to change a lot for the past 3 months, I learned to feel, learned to understand, learned to listen, learned to nag. I am happy at least for now, but how long more?

ICT 2 Treats

2008-06-30T21:39:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to Medical Officer Dr Kon for 434 SAR ICT 2

Sports :)

2007-09-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

You scored as Basketball, You should play basketball- you're athletic enough (and most likely tall enough) to play the most popluar winter sport.

Track

100%

Basketball

100%

Soccer

100%

Football

67%

Tennis

67%

Volleyball

67%

Golf

33%

Field hockey

33%

Lacrosse

33%

Ice Hockey

Baseball

Softball

Swimming

What sport are you meant for??
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Response to a template CSO reply

2007-09-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

Hi CSO

Thanks for your reply. Anyway Chaosgreen is banned. I hope that there are sufficient GM to monitor reported players in "invisible mode" as normal players will not have any means to detect a hacker and screenshot a hacker in action. I do hope more logic is applied. We are normal maplers, not maplers who possess 3rd party programs to detect hackers for the MSEA community. FOr the 60 days ban period, I actually had to spend my training time to do all the screenshot, upload pictures to photobucket and post in hack report area.
Ultimately, it is the GM who decides to monitor/ban/condone. We can only report. Thanks for the template reply.

I appreciate the gratitude you had on my support towards MSEA. Let's make it a hack-free community

Matters of the Heart

2007-09-09T21:36:00.001+08:00

17 August- Black blazer (Words that touched my heart)
23 August- Yoshinoya (Food that touched the mouth)
24 August- Fido (Zombies that touched our hearts)
29 August- Dead Silence (Hands that touched hands)
01 Sept- Secret (Words that touched your heart)
07 Sept- Evans Almighty (Taste buds)
17 Sept- Champagne Roses

Secret At The Cathay

2007-08-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

Finally bought this Limited Edition CD at $21.50 (Cheap)

Secret Premiere at The Cathay

Where is the LAN?

2007-08-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

Get to know someone new, however we do not have much time left. 2 weeks left before I leave my comfort seat.

Been DotA-ing lately till late night with ST, YT and CL. Happen to see people fighting the big Zakum for the ugly helms which adds 15 to all stats. I got mine long ago, but something is missing.

My old friends are missing~ Where are those late night Zakum parties we used to have?

Transformation of Customer Service over the years

2007-07-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

July 01, 2007

Kenneth Tan
Managing Director of Golden Village
Dear Mr Tan

Re: Double ticketing error

On June 27, We wanted to watch the Saturday late night movie Transformers. We booked TWENTY cinema tickets for this screening at Golden Village Grand Theatre 6 via credit card.

Unfortunately, while we were at the ticketing counter, we were informed by the ticketing staff that the machine could not print the tickets for us due to some machine errors. Female ticketing staff Gin then signed on the internet print-out to verify that we can proceed to watch the movie WITHOUT the tickets.

However we did not get our seats when we walk into the theatre because TWENTY someone else were actually occupying our seats. Both parties verified the correctness of our tickets and found nothing wrong.

We did not make a fuss in the theatre to protect the Management's image and volunteered ourselves to verify with the counter staff. TWENTY someone else were left inside the theatre to enjoy the movie.
Below is a brief explanation by your Manager of GV Grand, Jacqueline, for our lack of seats (Duration: 90 minutes):

1. An error in the cinema's online system booking, it booked for us tickets for June 30, 0105HRS when we requested for July 01, 0105HRS.

2. The cinema Management in Golden Village Grand could not do anything except
2a) Propose to us that we can occupy the empty seats in the first few rows and give us TWENTY complimentary tickets for another movie.
2b) At 0200 HRS, she informed us that we are unable to get our refund as the movie had started screening and ticketing counter closed.
2c) Repeatedly insisted us to refer to the Customer Service department on July 02 if we cannot accept her offers

3. Theatres 3, 4 and 5 were unavailable for a private screening for TWENTY of us because they were still occupied for other movie screenings at 0105 HRS

4. She requested us to hand over the internet print-out which were signed by Ticketing staff Gin as she needs to to photocopy for the Customer Service department

Our explanation (Duration: 90 minutes):

1. This is not our fault that YOUR Online Booking system has an error.

2. Why is there no one in the Management that can provide onsite solution?
2a) Why are we given unwanted seats ie. 1st few rows which most patrons would not prefer?
2b) Why weren't we informed that we have to decide before the refund is not valid after movie started?
2b) Why do we need to refer to YOUR Customer Service department instead of THEM reverting back to us?

3. We need a verification that cinema 3, 4 and 5 were unavailable due to the fact that they were occupied for other movie screenings at 0105 HRS. She refused to provide any.

4. She returned us the photocopied print-out without Gin's signature. We requested for our original copy but she refused to give us back. After much insistence from our side, she returned us the original print-out with She did not seek for our permission before she amend things on our internet print-out. I deemed it as a dishonest act and a shame for the Management. Correction Fluid covering Gin's signature (WOW!). Where is the integrity?

We enquired why she have to do such things, Gin stepped forward and claimed her signature was not important at all, inferring that there is no point we get heated up over this signature issue.

From now onwards, we will definitely doubt the credibility of any signatures issued by any staff of Golden Village. Please take note that we are currently holding on to 4 original print-out with Manager Jacqueline's signature. Are those of any credibility? Once again, a bad image portrayed by your staff.

We were fans of Golden village Cineplex, this incident is not all about monetary refund but the quality of the Management's service recovery. GV Grand was the last cineplex opened in January 1999 before GV Vivocity was opened in Nov 2006 and we can see that GV Vivocity had indeed given the patrons/consumers a Good overall experience for Widescreen Entertainment.

Have all the goodness from GV Grand transferred to GV Vivocity? Is it the Management's Vision to provide good customer service only in the newest GV Cineplex ?

As we were all aware, Cathay Cineplexes Pte Ltd had recently opened a new cineplex at AMK hub in June 2007 with 8 screens and 1,800 seats. So why did we choose to watch a latenight movie in GV Grand on July 01, 2007? Definitely not hoping to return home with utter disappointment.

Some concerns which we wish to highlight to the Management:

1. Saturdays are working days for some of us. At least one of us took leave to attend this movie gathering and system error happened.

2. Great World City is not easily accessible for public transport, taxis' midnight charges apply after 2330 HRS.

3. One of our friends is currently 8-months pregnant and making this wasted trip for this system error.

4. For those driving personal cars, parking fees were paid for such system error.

5. So when are we going to watch Transformers with the same group of TWENTY people?

Lastly, this is a service failure and and we were voiced-over by your Manager, do we deserve such treatment?

To resolve the problem, we would demand the Management to refund our tickets immediately, and request a compensation of at least TWENTY premium seats in GV Gold Class on a date AND movie of our choice OR/AND a complimentary movie pass for a period of no less than 6 months. We request for separate apology letters from Ticketing Staff Gin and Manager Jacqueline for the attitude and behaviour. We will be more than glad if you can arrange a meet-up session to explain the whole incident in greater details.

I look forward to the Management's reply and a resolution to our problem, and will wait until July 02, 2007 1200HRS before seeking help from Consumers Association of Singapore (CASE) or put up an enquiry to the Management of Cathay Organisation on their compensation procedures for such cases.

Looking back at ATEC during NSF period

2007-05-26T17:43:00.001+08:00

guess wat? Its atec stage 2..aft tis..(hopefully) there wud b resting for mi! Hven reali been restin well since the dae i entered the Army..its either mental or physical stress..anytym..anywhere..

when there's no exercise, i can rest in bunk..but cun do anyting cos canot slp canot play.. EVRYTING oso canot..

ya..can stone lahx..tts ALL..haix..my feet is reali bu ting hua..kp gvin mi probs..tts y most of the tym is on excuse / status..

well..commanders seem to CARE n might excuse u for SOME saigang..ppl often luk at u with you se de yan jing bcos of ur :handicap"..

izit reali wrong to report sick?haix duno..

nw i hear of report sick i oso pa4 pa4 le..mayb report sick durin veri veri slack tyms den ppl wun sae u geng lorx..(aft atec?)ha~.. c hw..

2dae den i noe Alex gt a veri bad fall wound on his left knee..hmmmmmm...he watch ID too muc i tink..drift w his bicycle..

haha..if tis is the case den guess he cun replace mi do dismount role le bah..bt SUAY SUAY i oso fell dn 2dae..

shit man..it has been so0o0o0o0o0o0 lo0o0o0ng since my last fall..2dae suay suay kana tis fall is reali veri suay..

HA~

bleedin wound..abrasion i tink..bt it wun b serious if i gt it treated b4 gg off for ATEC..

bt well..if i go treat the wound..ppl will sae "GENG"freakin hell..wat to do?

b4 exercise fall dn is i suay lor.tink wait til atec over den treat it bah..

damn PAINFUL!!ARGHHHHHHH!!..

bt its nt as bad as Alex's..

bt either way..i've told Alex tt NONE of us gg to do dismount w tis kinda wound!!??

so no worries for mi n him..open wounds cun possibly gt contact w SWAMPS!!!

who noes tis tym wat kinda terrain we r walkin..beda nt risk..

i wun wana gt soil disease(melloisis, izit spelled liddat? cun b bothered to chk) for tis..

well our DEAR medical officer chris saes no dismount cfm plus CHOP so i guess it shd b fine for mi n Alex..

hmm...bt TT doesnt stop my feet fr rottin away..away.. n away..

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Day 1 - 16 05 2005
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moved out fr saigang camp @ 1400h..

tis tym is aft waitin for lyk FOUR freakin hours den we start to move..

INEFFICIENT, YES!no doubt..

we cun gt recon 1 (i hope we gt it though..)

den wil hv our "carrot"=5 daes off..

weather freakin HOT!!..had to std under the SUN for damn long..

doin sentry duty for a REDUNDANT purpose--> GUARD THE BCS BAGS.. WTF~OBVIOUSLY!! nobody wil steal em..

omg~.. can yak b MORE flexible??or he's jz out to tekan mi..ha~ watever the reason..I stil gota do it..

BECAUSE IM A MAN..
as in im nt a COMMANDER..

UNDERSTD??

A MAN HAS TO OBEY his COMMANDER.. (SUMTYMS)..

WELL THINGS GT BEDA AFT ALEX CAME..HE TOOK OVER THE SENTRY..DID HE?I 4GT..bt he's SUPPOSED to tk over lah..

anw i was perspirin all the way despite the idiot-proof method pEi taught mi..FANNING~!!!
ya fannin w a pc of paper..

the weather is too hot for mi to stop perspirin..

<ONCE START CUN STOP> is the 口诀 for fannin myself..

night falls fast.. nw waitin for movin out fr the conc area @ ONE am..wtf~..tokin abt flexibility here..ONE am wake up nx dae gt strength meh??

duno..pity those combat teams..bt anw if tts wat they wan..we gv lor..as long as they dun regret..

ha~..

when i was in my BV206..a thought came to my mind..31st may bu jiu shi ndp off-in-lieu lor..hmm.. oso 1st dae of NP classes..GOOD!

i shall mk a 2pid 1st move..go NP n c whether pEi there anot..

den mayb aft tt can redeem my aptril treat..

slim chances of findin her bt i've lost far too mani chances 2 yrs baq..cun afford another..

will fate has eyes to see n heart to feel..no idea at all..

will i see her tt dae??

do i WISH to see her tt dae..

no idea too..

nt too despo..

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Day 2 - 17 05 2005
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s|anx wat tym nia..i ald wake up liao..eh? actualli din slp at all..so there's no nd to wake up..HAHA..

movin out at 1 am..duno gg where bt anw oso hv to follow..no purpose journey..RAINED the whole dae..tis means the cbt teams have to suffer agnn..in the rain..while im in the vehicle..no beda..rain dripped thru the holes in the freakin old vehicle n most of my stuff were wet n slimy mixed w mud..

i CUN go out of the vehicle at all..shit!!..as usual..TD wasnt mannin his comms..n i've do his job..damn sian n irritatin when i've to double as 85S..omg~..

when will Alex stop gvin mi probs..lyk nt in the mood to ans the comms..wat the hell..as if im in the mood..hai..

been veri dulan w the MO n snr medic liao..hope my hatred for em doesnt fill my heart..else i reali will burst out in anger..

bth...is nt the siongness tt mk mi bth..is the mental stress when wkin under em..imaginin aft hvin a bad fall open wound n stil hv to go out n tolerate for 3-4 daes b4 gttin it treated??

hard to tolerate bt i choose tis way cos its the onli way..no one will pity weakilings..

tts for sure..most of em pretend to care bt deep dn "u're WEAK"

well for sum..yes..they do care..bt there's a limit to hw far they can hlp..

there's an incident when the MO came over to mi..

MO : hey wb hw's ur leg?

mi : okay lahx.. nt tt pain nw bt is qt itchy.. scared it worsen aft few daes..

MO :hmm... mz tk care ok? bt there's a cure lahx.. u noe wat izit?

mi :*curious n ignorant* WAT??

MO : aft ord lorx..sure will heal 1..

mi :* fuk* oic.. hahax (gvin the nt funnie laugh)

such sarcastic comments can kp to urself CHRIS GOH!!!!!!!!..i dun nd such comments at TIS pt in tym..hw to survive such commanders for few more daes..gg mad soon..dun wish to see him most of the tym..

knee gvin mi probs n more painful..ARGGGGGGGGHHHHH..where on earth did the pain came fr??tink its infected sia..shit man..hope tmr it heals more..

ya w/o medicine see can heal anot..ha~..jz pray pray pray..

tmr hopefully is the last dae le..bt its jz wishful tinkin..

haha..will onli end on thurs i tink..n a late 1..2 more daes n im out..quick quick quick..

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Day 3 - 18 05 2005
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no mood to write anymore..cos Alex is nt mannin his comms at all..

n i kana rush to do tings tt r nt impt..sianx..

yak tel mi comms S4..den walk away..wat the hell??!!!den i duno call him for wat..in the end..

"nth further"lame ryt??ask mi to call den nv sae wat ting..

shit~!pc of shit..arghhh..tmr..hmm tmr n im out..

wun see yak n chris GOH fr tmr onwds..YEA~..dun wish to see their face at all..shame to the army medical corp..hw can they do tt to their patients..do they owaz tink tt patients in the army r to b taken lightly??

hai..they r humans too..can they at least show sum concern for the sick??nt EVRYBODY who reported sick is geng..

well..actualli to my blif..none is geng..jz the degree of severity of each person..

light injuries shd oso b gven care ryt???????????????lucki vehicle brkdn halfway..tts y less mvmt..bt more of the craps fr em..

yak : hey wb.. cum eat ICE CREAM!!

mi : (*fuk* im here for outfield nt for picnic) errr... no thx u all go ahead..

yak : cum eat.. gt alot..

mi : i dun wan.. gv alex since he lyk it so muc..

yak : ok (sensin my dulanness w him for the veri 1st tym..)

nearly evrydae..they eating fresh rations..sardines..instant noodles..evryting tt is commercialise..wat the hell..n they kp offerin mi..I DUN WAN>>im wearin green hello?n im outfield ATEC..

siao..needa mk til lyk picnic meh..ha~..Alex, aft eatin my share of ice cream, saes tt im godlyk..haha..ya..

不食人间烟火。。true enuf..i dun wan to behave slack..cbt teams out there sufferin..duno wat they eatin bt definitely nt lyk em eatin fresh evrydae..

kua zhang bt true..evrybody might b eatin tis way bt i jz bu shuang yak n chris behving liddat when they wayang in front of higher ranks..omg~..

FAKE-KO~~~

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Day 4 - 19 05 2005
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yuhooo..last dae lohx..wat tym wil reach camp..nt sure at the start..n ppl might nw wonder..

hw cum i gt tym to write durin out field..well..its durin my slpin hrs den i write lor..反正 onli gv us 1 hr slp might as well stay awake n write sth to kill tym..

no pt slpin for an hour..phew..jz gt a news tt we gg baq soon bcos sndin a NO DUFF casualty to camp..so we'll lyk go baq half an hour earlier den the rest..

ha~..n guess wat..no duff casualty is onli a small cut on the finger..compared to the bigger wound on Alex's n my knees??omg~..

if they're jz using the small cut patient as an excuse to go baq early.. might as well tel mi..i b their no duff lor..reali bth their slackin style..reali is flawless mi..

bt anw..i oso gt to go baq early..n mayb go baq camp n let ppl sae i slack lor..cun hlp de lah..ppl owaz sae wat came to their minds..

few ppl wil actualli put emselves in ur shoes n feel for u..ha~..half an hr earlier onli n slackers, we are..

aiya dun care le lah..sae watever they wan n jz pray tt they finalli understd tt MO Signallers r nt tt gd life for mi..

AT LEAST..

for Alex..??

WELL . . . . . . . . . . .

Stress Life

2007-04-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

Life is stress, Omg since when im starting to feel the stress. What m i chasing after ALL THESE WHILE?

My Favourite Anime

2007-03-11T02:15:00.000+08:00

蛤蟆王子

2007-02-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-+*-

“只要你愿意把我的金球从水里捞出来，我什么都答应你。”

青蛙得到了小公主的许诺之后，就潜入了水潭，把金球交给小公主。小公主过后竟失信跑掉，不理青蛙。

国王得知后，觉得破坏了皇室的威信，下令昭青蛙入宫。

小公主不情愿地履行承诺，和青蛙共处，答应青蛙的每个要求。

一天，青蛙要求睡小公主的床，不再想睡冰冷的石地了。

小公主听了大怒，抓起青蛙，朝墙上摔去。青蛙这下一摔，就变成了一位王子。这就是小时候曾听过的《青蛙王子》

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之后，格林写了《蛤蟆王子》。

不远的过去，谷底赖着一只蛤蟆，人们都称癞蛤蟆。它每天寻找枫叶，因为据说，枫叶会在每个蓝月的出现，在蘑菇园掉落。蛤蟆也就这样等了四十几个蓝月。

在谷底的蘑菇园，旁边有怪水潭，常能看到昔日王子和公主的倒影。蛤蟆在蘑菇园等蓝月，常被怪水潭的影子吓倒。

月亮变蓝了！！！

缓缓飘落的枫叶落在水潭里。枫叶被水潭融化后，一对男女就从水潭里冒了出来。他们就是王子与小公主。

从那天起，二人一兽变成了很要好的朋友，每天风雨不改，在蘑菇园搜集枫叶。

蛤蟆有了朋友，搜集枫叶对他来说已经毫无意义。

王子对搜集枫叶非常疯狂，公主每天也陪着他一起搜集，过着满脑子只有枫叶的日子。

王子至今已搜集了159片枫叶，公主搜集了125片枫叶。蛤蟆呢？可怜的112片。王子每天只顾搜集枫叶，公主很生气。

蛤蟆看了十分内疚，毕竟搜集枫叶的无聊主意是它发明的。它建议公主把想对王子说的话写在枫叶上，等待王子搜集到那片有字的特别枫信，就能让他了解公主的心意。

Easier said than done，在谷底哪来的笔？

**蛤蟆只好使出蛤蟆功，从嘴里吐出了一把剑，要求公主用剑，划破蛤蟆的皮，提取血，在枫叶上写字。公主拔剑，利落地往蛤蟆的头皮割下去，鲜血淋漓，痛得蛤蟆不是滋味。** (公主’s preferred action-packed story)

流的血，洒在蘑菇园的菊花堆里，每朵菊花都残掉了，蛤蟆满头的伤，也使公主露出泛黄的苦笑。

枫信写好了，王子也捡到了枫信。读了后，青蛙王子便不告而别，不再回来。皇室的男子，有多少能够接受批评而为了你改变？这就是男士们的尊严。

在蛤蟆面前，公主也从没为王子的离开露出伤心的情绪。

蛤蟆的心情很糟糕！！“为什么每一次都是我？”“都是我害的！出的馊主意根本就是弄巧反拙。完了！”

现在只剩一人一兽在谷底，公主向往的是童话般的爱情，但蛤蟆不管怎么摔也不会变成王子。因为历史记载只有摔青蛙才能变王子。

沮丧，彷徨，无助。蛤蟆间接地把一个完美的童话故事给毁掉了，却无法写出另一篇完美的童话。不管它做什么stunts都没用。

有几次还为了撮合他们而撒谎。被公主识穿，蛤蟆吃了一个月的闭门羹。

够了，enough is enough, U’RE DRIVING ME NUTS!

听了公主的话后，蛤蟆打算停止任何的撮合点子，不再理会两人的结果是如何。

这几个月的相处，蛤蟆不经意地对公主产生了好感。这是不应该的，却又发生了。

如果能够让一切回到蘑菇园相遇之前，那该多好。至少青蛙王子的童话故事不会改变，就算不能happily ever after, 结果也完全不关蛤蟆的事。

到底蛤蟆对公主是因为愧疚而产生喜欢，还是由衷的爱慕？想了几个月，它自己也搞不清楚。想到累了，头还会痛（也可能是头上的刀伤还隐隐作痛）心很乱。

结果对蛤蟆来说并不重要，是那种欲言又止的感觉十分痛苦。

它清楚的知道，友谊是能一辈子，爱情故事却不能讲一辈子。但蛤蟆现在愿用一辈子的友谊，来讲一次爱情故事给公主听。

The Highest Peak

2007-01-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

许玮伦 died in an accident few days ago.Been feeling down for the whole day today. Sigh. 红颜薄命。

Watched Tv and learnt something new.

"When u are cycling, and there is fear of falling down, you will peddle slower. And slowr and slower, until a point when u cannot pick up the courage to peddle again."

"If you eliminate these fear of falling down, you can peddle faster and faster.Eventually ur destination is reached and the ride is smoother than slower peddling"

Perservere!

A Life Cycle

2007-01-30T01:27:00.000+08:00

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Its really okay when u dont think about it :

6.30am - wakes, dolling up

8.00am - sets off to work

8.05am - hail cab, BECAUSE BUS RAN!

8.11am - latest time to take the AMK twds Somerset train, otherwise > LATE

8.29am - reach Somerset! 1 minute to run fr station to SP Building, YES I RAN WITH MY SHIRT AND PANTS

8.30am - Punched card reader states 830!! ZOMG im not late

9.30am - Shirt still damp due to 100m Sprint, coffee break.

1.00pm - total 3 cups coffee from 9.30am to 1.00pm to kp myself awake.Lunch time~

2.00pm- Coffee every hour + Work.

6.01pm - Evryone knocks off for work, i still have reluctance to leave. (cos i got nothing to do after work). Wanted to stay, but even the centralised Aircon dont like me.

7.00pm - No dinner! Have to go down again to buy. Bathe

8.00pm - TV seems interesting, but its actually an excuse to tell myself: "HEY i got sth to do! Im watching TV"

10.00pm - x2 EXP starts, cant train alone. <<<>

WeiNi*g (priest lvl 140) <<<>

Fooldybl*r (priest lvl 109) <<<>

t3rrydit*z (ch. dit 105) <<<>

5ma*l (ranger 157) <<<>160?)

xxMih0*x (firemage 125) <<<>

2.00am - x2 EXP ends, no increment in EXP level. LOL? Bedtime~

6.30am - wakes and cycle continues again

Weekends - An evaluation of how lifeless i have been.

Saturday - A Roadtard Story

Sunday - nothing to do at all

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Whats my Future? I want to be a doctor, a lawyer, a scientist. Talk is cheap, its FREE if u are using blogspot.com

~Just for Laughs~

One fine day, a mother ask her son what he wants to be in future. Son replied that he wants to be everything possible, but there's no motivation at all. The mother understands her son well, its because of an unforgotten relationship thats drags her son behind.

Mother: I dont understand why u worry so much, given ur looks, u wont have to worry about gf. They will come after you.

Son: My looks? Are you mocking at me? So far no girls come after me.

Mother: NO! Even ur brother and sister said so.

Son: (Being an inquisitive boy) Asked bro and sis regarding the matter and found out mother was lying o.0.

Just when i thought

2007-01-30T00:32:00.000+08:00

27 Jan 2007 - Rainy afternoon
Was on the way to this Korean BBQ restaurant near West Coast highway. Hell knows where West Coast Highway is, still thinking that i can follow my friends around without needing to recognise roads.Yes, in the past i always do that. 'cos wherever my frens go, i will just follow.They wont do mi harm i guess=/ But now all have grown up, have our own lives, less contact. What worst, is im the ODD ONE OUT!!.. the "black tape" holder

I can still remember when i was in primary school, those outcaste [poor results/defiant students] are issued with a black colour tape to tape the right hand corner of their exercise books to identify them. Yes currently im holding that kind of tape now. All studying for their degrees, where am i?
Flashback 26 jan 2007 - Midnight 2am
Still figuring out how to get to Yess centre, decided to seek help.

Jayugi to Helper : .............................
Helper to Jayugi : ........................................
Jayugi to Helper : .........................
Helper to Jayugi : ...............
Jayugi to Helper : .......................................
Helper to Jayugi : ................................
In the end 'cos Jayugi tries to be funny. This happens:

Helper to Jayugi : OMG U'RE DRIVING ME NUTS(Appears to be offlined)
27 Jan 2007 - In the train
7pm and phone didnt ring - Either everyone was late, or dinner cancelled due to unhappy incident the night before

7.05pm, phone rang - Luckily it wasnt cancelled, but i thought too pissed off w me last night to call mi ever, i hesitated before i pick up, am i gonna kana scolding again?

27 Jan 2007 - At the restaurant
The usual discussion of Maplestory, of course with more mockery of how roadtard i am.. In real life, i dont really mind mockery and such. Cos eventually i will think to myself:

"Why did i do something for others to mock at?"
"Why did i not do something for ppl to mock at?"
Fault will never lies with the ones i treasured, it has been like that all the time, all the while, all these years.
Maybe its really true that i only know how to play games, and that will be the saddest thing becos i achieved the LEAST in games. So now, someone tell mi whats my value on Earth? Nono im not going to jump the tracks or die, its just miserable when u do not have a purpose in Life.

Adapted from KUCINTA

2007-01-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

One will never treasure what one has, until he/she realise that he/she is going to lose that person forever. So folks, let's treasure and love our loved ones from today, and tell them we love them everyday, instead of concealing our real thoughts! 随心所遇吧!

This is how much KUCINTA hates xxMih0xx
I caught 4 females (educated, in their 20s) flicking off their cigarette butts onto the floor as if it's the normal thing to do. I see already feel very hot. Such callous behaviours. Ought to be punished! Say goodbye to your $200.

Yes, litterbugs piss me off, especially female litterbugs! Girls look bad enough when they smoke, even worse when they litter! (Please don't flame me.) Come on, you guys are already polluting the air we are breathing, so please refrain from polluting the environment we are living as well. So many years of education, and yet such uncivilised actions. What an irony.

Just when I thought girls are always the gentler, more considerate, civic-minded, etc etc etc.... species.

Platonic Love

2007-01-22T07:38:00.000+08:00

You meet a girl who is everything you ever wanted in a life-partner: attractive, funny, smart, great personality, laughs at your jokes, understands who you are as a human being, etc. You talk to her briefly, and find out that she is even more attractive now that you've spoken to her. You ask her out. She says to you:
"I JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS"
You meet someone: a neighbor, schoolmate, co-worker, in the same club, on the same bus. You become fast friends. One day, you realize that, in addition to being a close friend, this person is an attractive woman. You ask her out. She says to you:
"I DON'T WANT TO RISK OUR FRIENDSHIP"
You meet a girl who you know could be the one. She makes your toes curl, your stomach knot, your mouth dry -- you become even more of a gibbering idiot then you usually are. You're so incapacitated in her presence that you can't ask her out. You decide that things will be better once you get to know her better, so you become friends. You become best friends -- so good, in fact, that you can't bring yourself to ask her out. Yet there is this nagging voice in the back of your mind that says you could be more than friends. You swear that you will tell her how you really feel. Right before you can do this, she tells you:

"I'VE MET THIS REALLY GREAT GUY"

Definition: Platonic relationships is a deep, non-sexual friendship between two heterosexual people of the opposite sexes.

As long as it's in a non-sexual sense of liking, it means platonic love?

Dear Plato, please dont create ambiguous words to confuse.

My Handphone!!!!!!! Nooooooooooooo~

2007-01-21T16:09:00.000+08:00

My handphone is SPOILT!! And its a Sunday, where am i going to fix it?

Yesterday went out with boss, WQ Sim, KQ Zhuang, CC Tay, CH Chew, MZ Kang.
Watched Pan's Labyrinth, thought it was some fantasy show.Turns out to be some spanish warfare show. Its not entertaining but educational ba. The advertising poster for the movie is so misleading.

Well, advertising plays an important role in selling/introducing something i guess. Likewise if we dont present ourselves or make ourselves known to others, others will never know how u feel about them.

Soon, im going to make myself clear. No matter what turns out. * It might mean losing a very good fren* Sigh

23 Twenty-Three

2006-07-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

23 is an impt number, last time is michael jordan de number..haa

also my fever day.. long time no fever..and its really terrible.. highest went to 39 degree celcius.. 1 more degree i think needa go hospital liao..

mum sae no nd see doctor, just eat panadol and sleep and drink water enough liao.. i doubt so as its not recovering..

If memory hasnt fail mi

2006-06-11T07:20:00.000+08:00

its been long since i pen my thoughts here.. i nearly forgotten my password and ID.. but luckily my memory didnt fail me..

yes my memory haven fail me yet cos i stil type a space in between 1-2 sentences. to make u read it easily ( if u ever do so now )

as always i will refresh ur blog ( altho its supposed to be closed ) to see if i can spot any of ur new entries inside. yes everyday i do it twice.. even if its futile..

if memory didnt fail me, my last entry is filled with hope , which is reciprocated in the end.. i haven forgotten how glad and grateful i was then.. its more den heaving a sigh of relief..

i've forgotten what happen but i remember its was a small unhappy incident..

i think for now, memory has failed mi. i dont even know whats the main cause of this SAD incident.. yes its sad if tearing while typing every sms is considered sad..maybe its this maybe its that.. too many maybes.. i dont wanna guess..

feelings do fade.. but there's a cause for it which is unknown to mi now..

i dont wanna stay at home all day.. i wanna go for movies, go for lunch / dinner or both, i wanna work, staying at home to be a passive smoker isnt sth enjoyable at all..

hais, i think i gota slp soon. reading alot and thinking alot, i stil cant find an answer to my questions..

"if u dont know, just ask" my teacher owaz use to tell our class

ask le you zen me yang?

the way u are saying things, realli doesnt sound you anymore..im harmless, why do u sound as if im going to eat u up with every sms send? have i turned into an irritating person that u cant hold a nice conversation with..?

imagine this : one day u asked ur loved one

" nan dao my love is not genuine meh?"

and this sentence somehow caused everyting

u meant to say it in a humorous way, but ppl interprets it as a doubt..

i realli duno..all i know is that i asked this and everyting started..

genuinity comes from the heart, not from my words or actions

if these months or years, i haven been able to capture a place in ur heart

i really gave up..yes gave up.. easier said than done

how can u expect mi to give up when u have taken up a place in my heart?

playing too much games =(

2006-04-04T06:02:00.000+08:00

these few daes i been playing too much games.. but few hours later i wil be out to collect my pressie..wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

i wanna watch movie as well

Saturdays =(

2006-01-27T15:31:00.000+08:00

i guess tis is the oni way tt i can mk u hear mi out more effectively =(

saturdays are meant to b hv alot of ppl..crowds u dun lyk i dun blame..tts y most of the tym..i stopped askin u out on saturdays..nevertheless i stil continue to ask occasionally during the holis n stuff..24/7 to u might seem to b jz a sudden feeling..but to mi..its sth near there when i 1st heard of it..i try to achieve more..

i harped n get pissed n questions ppl lyk criminal( not on purpose):

the way i sae tings
owaz hv xtra flavor of sarcasm jz to mk it sound interesting..> my fault

even u hv to sae tings lyk act lyk a saint..jz wan sumone to go out with..

n stuff lyk tt ..
but its stil okay..
cos ald alot of ppl sae i act lyk a saint

i needa go ald..

buy clothes..

i didnt wan to go today
bcos u were onlined

dear bloggie..
can u tell/call ah ling to read this pls?

FAT PIG STORY

2005-12-26T20:32:00.000+08:00

binnie is a pig.!!

A Weekend Without You

2005-12-11T20:58:00.000+08:00

certainly, tis wkend was tough for mi..
i struggled not to msg u so muc, not to online msn bcos i wan u to do well for the coming exam..i dun wan u to be lyk last semester..where u did badly for ur subjects
although managed passes..but i noe they werent gd enuf for u..u shd expect better grades tis tym..i reali dun wana hai u tis tym..at least for tis exam
cos i can see tt u worked doubly hard for ur subj and i wan u to get gd grades..
pls ah jin..
promise mi u wun fumble for tis examelse my efforts wud b wasted
hais..its ok tt u're pissed w mi bcos i act as though i dun care abt u at all.
u shd noe ttim not liddat by now..
keep readin "mr.maybe" til veri tired..n keep sleeping as well..
ha sounds lyk drowning myself in sorrows
but nvm la
u better do well or else u wun get wat u want for xmas tis year
muahahahaha..are u studying now anot? i duno la..i wana noe i wana noe
but i dun wana sms u..
cos i noe i wud sms ge bu ting..i cant stop..most of the tym..
i duno my limits one la..
so better not play stunt b4 ur exams
aft tmr..u gona get sms bombings fr mi liao
exams over le ryt?
HOPEFULY lor
u nv tel mi got other dates anot leh
slap~pls tel mi if u happen to noe im typing tis
too long nv update le
cos i dun needa update as most of the tym im tokin to u
only for tis wkend
i made an exception =) hope u're doing fine now
duno u'll gimme a call b4 i slp tonite anot

haha
praying......hard..oni call aft ur revision hor?!!
anw
i wana sae " still missing you n loving u too"

ps: nx thurs if free..we go for "Pride and Prejudice" ok?

2005-10-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

ya
tt dae
aft the phone call
stil sae online jian de
ytd nite
sae alot
hai
the usual wds i normalli hear fr u
i tot those were the wds u wud nv ever speak agn..
cos its reali speculations..
tt tings is nt the way we wan it to be..
i dun bliv in no risk no gain too..
bt its nt abt risking
if i think its risking
i wun even try
wats the risk? if i was overrated ( lyk wat alot of ppl sae)
if i was underrated?
of cos i understd there's tis risk
so m i underrated or overrated
i wud leave tt to u..
evrytym
sae diff tings
i hate msn now
cos onli msn tt i hear those wds
on the phone
on the bus
n the mrt
i dun hear all these fr u
nt tt i expect us to hv any ending
bt at least try to let nature tks its course
a plant is growing
n u deny it of sunlight n water bcos its stem is yellow?
omg~
even though the little poor plant noes tt it's gg to die
bt it cu kill himslef
all he can do is wait for death
n hopin tt its owner wil try to c tt the stems r yellow bcos its supposed to b beansprout
unless the owner dun eat beansprout..
den of cos shd jz let it die off n reincarnate to its nx life la
but if u eat beansprout sumtyms..
den u jz let it die off?
tts qt sad
cos it might b the best beannsprout u ever grew
it might nt b the best
bt at least
sumone said its abv average rite?
abv average de beansprout
i wud eat la
unless u jz tryin to mk the sprout taste nicer tts y u tel it tt its abv average bah
no hard feeling
abv average anot
the bean sprout no nd to noe
the bean sprout is jz there to provide food n energy
who cares if its nice anot
no one wil care
onli the owner
cos bad sprout shd b thrown n gd ones kept
it doesnt tk alot of hard work to grow a bean sprout
neither does it tk alot of work to destroy it
but if it does u no harm
den dun destroy it la
jz let it grow n die..
kelian?
NO
the beansprout isnt kelian!!
cos it chose to grow out of the green bean..
its fault leh
blame no one

ya finaally the owner responded to the sprout's distress!!
she replied the sprout!!
bt actualli its nt for the sprout
its for sth else
cos she tot the sprout died ald!!
but little did she realise tt she miscalculated!
hai
she tot the sprout wil die at 930pm
but actualli
it struggled to stay alive
til the veri last min..
ok la
at the veri veri last min
the owner came baq!!
but duno izit too late liao
cos the hell gatekeepers callin the sprout le
hai..
den wat the owner told little sprout
"sproutty, i wun come hme so often nx tym..cos i dun wana c u alive agn..evrytym i c u alive
i feel so stress!! cos i cudnt tk care of u
cos i dun owaz lyk to eat bean sprout..i feel tt i let u dn..
so i rather nt come hme often to stresss myself bah"
bt sproutty have no mouth!!
it cun tok!!!
all it cud do is to suffer in silence..
all listen to owner jiu dui le la..
wat else can it do
no more sun light
no more water liao
but du care la
can live on ald veri happi liao
jz wait for the dae tt the hell gatekeepers bu nai fan den cum n arrest him baq to Hades lor
haa..
ltr c how la
mayb sproutty can try to call the owner using the plant language
c the owner unsderstd anot lor
hai..
the owner din come hme bcos of sproutty de la
tts so sad for sproutty la..
hai
bt nvm la
at least got c wner
nt tt bad..aft all..
wat wil happen to owner n sproutty nx?
tt wil depends on whether owner wans to rply to the plant language of sproutty anot bah..
such an impromtu story may sound incoherent..
bt thinking baq
i iddnt actualli edit it
it was typed fr the start to end w/o stoppin n deleting..
hope the readers lyk it
tel tis to ur offspring nx tym..
its meaningful =D

We say "Online jian" de and stil υм ! υм ! υм !, now " i dun wan go out becos i dun wan tt little to become deeper ! "

2005-10-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

just another continuation of the bhb man!!

2005-10-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

bought sth..
wasnt reali appreciated i guess..
cos i nv ask
den i go buy le
sumtyms
ppl might ask
"y spend the money when u noe tings might turn out worse?"
duno y?
i rather gv la
since it mks mi feel happi gving
n the rcving end is happi bcos she got sth she lyks ( of cos nt happi w the person gving)
so i chose to gift..
even if the outcome is bad..
i oso bobian le
as long as she's happi
ha
watever la..

msn problems agn..
nt the server
is the converasation..
duno hw..
sum one added mi..
i think he play maple..
bt duno hw he got my email..
den he ask mi hw to get in..
cos sum patch probs la
hai
duno hw to explain..
den aft tt..
duno y add so mani ppl inside..
all msians..
sian
fr then
i noe
the person
duno up to wat
hai
long story..

all xmm n xdd..

tok de tings all is bf gf..
haa!!
got one more power
ask " tis sat u free?"
haha
they tot im a gal
cos weibin weibin
sounds lyk gal name mah..
liddat lor
ha
i c liao oso duno wana smile or luff..
hahaha
den she was on the phone
tokin abt clubbing stuff..
ha
gg clubbing bt hen i ask
sae no..
duno leh
haha
mayb im stil considered nt shou bah..
anw
oso nt veri gian the clubbing la
jz tt duno y got sum weird feelings when ppl ask u go den u go den i ask u sae no bah..
hahahaha
sry la
i noe qt ye man..
ur own tings
shdnt care so muc oso..
else ltr u think bcos of one shu shu tingy den u mz go out w mi evrytym liao
hahah
OF COS nt liddat de k?
cos kp thinking the prev tings qt cheapo
so better gv sth gd la
else i seem so cheapo as a person mah
duno y leh
u online alot of tings dare to sae de leh
owaz so piss w mi online
bt u nv piss w mi offline
y liddat?
rather u iss offline
at least i stil can try to salvage the situation
if u piss online
a simple offline status jz blocks mi out le
nth can b said
mayb hv to snd an sms to explain
bt nt owaz wil work de la
dun mind snding hundreds of sms jz for the explanation
bt there mz b a person to acknowledge the sms bah
hai
staring
im qt free
so when online

is i wait for ur reply..
den aft tt
when u're done tokin for the 3rd or 4th tym..
i was invited to mass conver le
1st my campmates
den the duno-is-who personmy comp sux
mass conver = lag le
duno y liddat
nt enuf ram i think
sian la
r u piss now?
pls dun piss le la
luv to c u luff c u smile owaz
the way u luff in cine
hahaha
can u stay tt way?
dun scare wat puo huai xing xiang ting la
siao de lor
hmm
anw
sry for replying late
i tot u dun wana tok to mi at 1st
cos u reali reply veri slow at the start
so sumhw ald feel tt u might b pss w mi le
hai
no matter wat
im sorrie..
abt the wednesday ting
i think i asked too muc le oso..
enjoy ur clubbing..
=]

hai evryting seems low for mi now

2005-10-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

fri nite
came to noe the real truth..
and wasnt able to accept it al..
even til now..hai..
hw m i gg to accept it when it came so sudden..
mayb its jz a trick to lure the imspiration for tis blog entry
or its mayb..
its jz tt i think too muc..
evryting seems so wonderful b4 tt..
bt i didnt noe tt ONLI mi n myself think tt the world is wonderful
ha
reali hard to bliv
tt actualli
im causing sumone's misery at the sametym when im feeling gd
feeling glad
aiya
jz feeel eri glad jiu dui le bah
nv had tis feeling b4
bt til ytd..
the feeling is denied
nt gone
jz denied
cos i was been told tt..
i was rejected the 2nd tym..
haha/sob..
i duno
i reali duno whether i shd luff or cry
cause a 2nd tym is reali hard to bliv
wat actualli happened/
i duno either
i jz noe tt its for sum personal reason
tt is nt supposedto b said to mi..
so all in all..
to readers ot there
or does tis even has a reader
god noes
isnt it all my fault all the while?
nt tryin to act pitiful act kelian..
act act act or act la
mayb all the while was acting
bt i duno hw nt to act
so if im acting to u
pls forgive mi lor
kp refreshing thw blog jz now
i duno y either
i tot when i finally refresh til there's update
u mz b AO le bah
so fina;;y
AO at 545..
hai
i duno its meant to b an avoid or izit reali feeling sian ald..
lyk wat u told mi last tym..
if iots gg to continue for few more mths
i think i will feel sian of it de leh
i tk ur wds for real
but u didnt kp ur wds
u saiod few mths
so i tot at least
i got tt few mths to prove myself
prove myself to b one of the BoA song..
as for the BoA song
hai
i shall leave it to u to decipher bah
clue here: samurai warriors theme song
haha
dun hv to play the game to noe
ujz hv to google it..
ha
aiya anw
watever i said here
might seem last min type de
cos i reali dun hv tym
dun hv tym to write dn all the wds i hv to sae..
too muc ald..
too muc ganxiang to sae
n i dun hv a diary
onli a dumb blog
tt other ppl see liao
wil sae..
"omg~~ NOT ANOTHER LOVESICKO BLOG"
YA
sounds lyk sum lovesicko blog
bt nvm la
its all in ppl's mind
if u ald hv the thinking in the 1st place
no matter hw mani tyms i sae u're worthy..
u wun bliv
cos might b bcos
im nt even worthy
haah
n ya of cos
im nt feeling low confi
or act kelian
all these yrs
i nv achieve anyting tt i shd b proud of..
cos evryting abt mi si so common..
nth special
i dun hv a gd brain
dun hv a gd figure
dun hv a gd personality
im simply a AP freak..
to sungei gedong mates
im AP bah
cos i chose it tis way
last tym
if any1 cud rmb..
AP n jayugi nv link w each other
tryin to search for my own individuality
resulting in a bad search
bt nvm la
if u noe mi
u wud noe wat a person i am..
whether im being myself anot u noe urself..
i dun hv to chg to suit ppl needs
bt when i do chg
i chg willingly..
n most likely
its chgin for gd le
its nth bad
being flexible bah..
ppl wil lyk to hv their ways of cos
so there mz b sumbody to gv in isnt it..
hai..
k la
all the nagging start le..
shall cont tis sad entry nx week..
bt if tings gona b different aft tis..
i wun cont liao..
bt if its stil the same answer
hai
den i think i better cont
to clear my bhb de behviour..
cya agn dear bloggie..

Path of a desperate NSF

2005-09-25T20:16:00.000+08:00

haha
tis topic luks lyk sum msea guides
path of the bandit
path of the mage
path of the archer n so on

tis is abt the path of a NSF

seriously
i dun understd wats with ppl outside
are NSF reali desperate or they jz tryin to create a topic?
hmm..
duno leh
shd they jz stereotype guys in NS liddat
onli 2 yrs reali wil chg their sexual desire so muc tt they r labelled desperadoes
hai
its ok
jz feelin bad abt tis-
ppl who doesnt SHOW OUT r the scary ones

i reali reali duno hw to improve the thinking of other ppl
sum may jz sae
"who cares abt ppl outside?"
we dun live for em.. as long as we're not we're not"
budden agn
its the same as living on an island alone
w no ppl ard u
u HAVE to noe wat ppl sae
to improve urself anot
its reali up to u..
for obstinate ppl who dun wish to chg for others
FINE of cos
its gd to hv individuality
lyk i wat i bliv in
if u wana mk sumone happie
den when thesumone tels u wat to do n u dun mind doing it
den go ahead
y mz u purposely show ur individuality out?
by showing out ur individuality
u want ppl to KNOW tt u're an INDIVIDUAL isnt it?
haha
so the outcome is stil living for others
isnt it
mayb i luv to twist words here n there
but do think twice abt my reasoning
if u dun live for others?
y wud u stil bother to show out ur individuality by actin as the "uncommon"?
came across a blog
--the sixth quarter--
haha
when i read it
it reali sounds so special
it diff fr other blogs
dun blog abt gf/bf
dun complain or watever
k
now
here's the qns..
then y is the person blogging abt tings tthe noes tt no one is reading anw?
cos ppl lyk to read abt the more common tings
hai
nvm mayb im jz too stubborn in my thinking
cun reali b that special one
but try to mk ppl understd u is alot better than being special
used alot of tym to find a song jz nw
hai
but in ythe end
b4 i cud find it n snd it to dbie
she iofflined
i tot she wud stay ard for qt long
so spend sum tym finding the song she lyk
but unexpectedly
dbie PC n went offline
hai
i assume too muc
assume evrybody oso wil wait awhile
but in the end
hai
nvm la
wil dl the song nx week
no tym le no tym le
actualli got alot of tings to type
budden
the "2pid blogger duno y hv to mk his song so secretive
omg~
blame it on flash!!
hate macromedia flash!!

1 whole week out of jail

2005-09-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

hmm the feelng is gd
whole week no camp woohoo..
but gt qt alot of piss ppl off the tings

1stly:
i duno y bozie wans to think we play punk
tel rajagopal to let us shoot more at the rifle range in order to hv direct fallout
omg!!
siao
we dun even dare leh
hai
wat to do
play punk den play punk lor
rajagopal too gd to us liao
dun wana mk him paisae oso..
hai
y our comdr jz cun hv tt lil trust in us..
sad case for the signal platoon..
but do luk fwd to ORD k?
u all wu hv a brighter future out there..
erm..
*u all..
ya excl mi..

2nd:
channie oso duno y..
dun hlp the platoon anymore
kp thinking we slack den refuse to do things..
tts y tgt w bozie..
think tt we play punk
suan le..
wang shi zhi neng hui wei..
care more i think life will shorten fast..

3rd:
i jz wana tel bao bao..
i miss u
we need u..
pls cum baq to us!!
heehee..
u're the nicest liao

4th:
PS duno y kana caught by rsm..
sae he nv enforce "gd" discipline..
so fr now onwds..
aft bvrkfast got 5 BX..
den i think the nx week..
SOC training wud b tough
oh man..
can sum1 save us..
y got things no things oso kana suay stuff.
HAI..

5th:
mum too naggy..
proj r nt meant to b done last minute..

6th:
pissed w myself..
y i nv ask jin out on wed/thurs/fri..
nv read blog..
slap myself..
hai
kp assuming
in the end..
ku de shi zi ji..
hai..
tian ahhhhhhh..
jiu jiu wo ba..
hen kelian de k?
evryting oso suay..
hai..
shd jz die off..
ha

well there r sum gd tings tt is worth to b happi abt..
FINALLY!!
i can feel it!!
woohoo..
y do i tk so long to feel it?
duno y..
mayb assume too muc in the past
IC too muc in the past
confi too low in the past
bad comments kana too muc in the past
bt since its all in the past..
shd luk fwd to a brighter beginning..
haha
courage lvl 79.876%..
stil got qt sum lvling to do..
hai wud it increase fast or slow
not too sure..
but hai
wait lor
wait more wil hv liao..
i start to wonder
kana so mani suay de things reali wil hv gd things happening..
hmm qt true qt true
but for my case..
i think the gd ting is more den enuf to compensate for the bad tings tts gg to happen tmr..
yeah
its too gd to b true..
RIGHT??
or m i wrong agn?
omg
i cun seem to get it right at the right tym..
need a guide here~

qt guilty..
i think i disturbed sumone too muc
till canot study properly for the test..
APOLOGIES!!
reali duno hw to compensate
hope u can reali do well for the test..
hmm
lyk wat u said..
is u choose one (lyk wat i said)
is reali bcos i sae den u sae de ar?
reali duno leh
HAI
*infer infer

last thurs..
my maternal grandpa bdae
had it at CJ..
luv the food there
shanghai noodles..
hongkong style dimsum..
n mani mani more..
took fotos there..
budden
my cousin lyk nv online at all..
she promised to snd mi
arhhhhhhhh!
bluffed
sian..
wun get the fotos liao
wanted the fotos to show tt im the IC-est
but no chance
shit!
nx tym nx tym
im gg to ask her agn..

im lyk free all the while..
or shd i sae the whole week..
hai
sian la
no one ask mi out
no one accept my asking out
too unpopular
bt nt veri anti leh
y leh y leh..
guess evryone got their own stuffs to do while im jz wasting my own life away..
doin nth..
bt wauiting waiting..
hai
+ve +VE..
dun hai liao

as if i got private tings to do..
ha!
tis is the pte stuff dbie!!
i think u guess so too..
cos i too no life
too expected liao..
gota get baq soon
else no tym to muacks liao..
o0ps
yet to get baq leh
hahahahahahahahahahahahaaa

Assured n unavailable

2005-08-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

assured n unavailable..

im assured(if i dun rmb wrongly) bt doesnt mean tt its the reason for being unavailable..

haha..unavailable for so long..

so it doesnt reali matter when im assured..

felt glad

for a period of tym..

bt sumtyms..

wondered..

do i deserve to b assured?

ha..bt isnt it veri sad tt if i hv to assure a person for my whole life w/o askin for sum assurance back?

tts wat sum1 told mi..

mayb to mk mi feel better?

watever..

feeling low..

i think wat mks mi strong is wat i am in games..

tts all..

i can onli find sum confidence back in games..

hai..

til then..

nx week wil hv more mapling..

if i happen nt to gt any confidence back..

felt lyk sadako sumtyms..

bt i think he/she's better..

sadako gt 2 sexual organs..

so i duno is he/she..

sadako can climb out fr tv once in a while..

i cun..

i was pushed inside..

n will never b able to cum out..

worst..

is when ppl actualli saes..

more impt ting is the SUBSTANCE..

ha

ok..supposed to mk mi feel "BEtter"

bt i infer alot..

cos i owaz add an " AT LEAST" b4 tis phrase..

ok gt wat i mean now?

nvm..

gtg jail soon..

hai..

wat a boring wkend at hme!!

i miss u so (miss tis song fr BMT)

2005-08-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

-9th August 2005-

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its ndp '05, evrybody seems to lyk watchin the ndp..cos its a annual ting..so i assume All lyk to watch it "live"..bt not for sum ppl definitely..tv is stil better..hahaha..

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omg..the ndp was a success..evry year is oso success..
bt the main ting is tt im so shag aft the whole ting..
running here n there lyk sum mad omnkey..
feelin stress n stuff liddat..
damnit..
nw i noe wat its lyk w/o kai ard..
hai..shdnt hv slack too muc last tym..bt anw its over for so long..lukin fwd to nx yr..
when i wun b doin the backstage anymore..
yeaH~
who noes if i wud b alive by then?
haha..the ticket holder might die die the nx dae aft he strike lottery ryt?

-10th August 2005-

chalet chalet..wasnt reali veri fun with ppl living early..duno y they left early though..
i regreted nt leaving early too..
at least i can stil "studi" or can i?
o0ps..
no more inferences made..=x

was holdin my bloody ngage qd all the while..waiting n waiting for sum replies..
even tkin fotos..im stil holding it..
wat can b more lame den TT!!
tt was my hp in my left hand..OK?
bt anw..my hp gt prob..kp restartin n switching off by itself..
when's the LOA gg to b out?
im gg to buy a cam hp soon..
or mayb use sumone's 3230??
can i?
haha..nvm..wait til the LOA is out (letter of authorisation)
thx for the offer although u MIGHT nt mean it..
o0ps..too unbelievable..
haha..

3 daes chalet..

out on the 3rd morn..

-12 August 2005-

watched "Bewitched"
nicole kidman reali has the makings of a witch..lol..
nv watch the cartoon though..bt it was stil qt nice..
hai..
supposed to hv wedding crashers ltr on..
but.........dotdotdot
bookings hv to b made earlier..
dun tink gt nx tym..
cos losing interest in the movie..
haihaihai..
nvm..
nt reali veri keen to watch oso..
jz a neutral feelings twds movies..
mayb when u reali gt nth to do..
can onli tink of movies movies movies..
o0ps..nx week canot..
nx nx week oso canot
nx nx nx week MORE canot!!!
hahaha..
sch sux..
i agree..

-13 August 2005-

my granny's 100th day death anni..
quarrelled w my mum over the issue..
jz complained tt it is too early doesnt mean im nt gg!!
complaints r jz sae sae den hear liao 4gt de leh..
y tink too muc into it..
its nt as if u can force plp to go tis type of anni..
so sumtyms ppl reali shdnt jz assume tings..
assuming tt u r nt filial..
no heart or sth liddat la..
hai..anw..saw alot of amkss students askin gfor donations..
i jz walked past em w my sleepy eyes closed halfway..
my bro was sayin im acting weird..
ya..hw can u b normal when u onli slept for less den 5 hrs..
omg~he even sae i gv the dao face..
pls lor..i smiled n drifted away..
haha..
cos i noe hw they feel too..
hv to gt tt bloody can full of money is nt tt ez..
back hme..
was waiting on msn agn..
wkend routines..haha..
qt silly n boliao though..
bt wat else can a no life person lyk mi do?
hving to wait qt long..
til the evening..
bt anw played sum maple story(meant for kids)
qt okay la..
til late nite..
nt enuf slp agn..
haha..
bad sleeping habits..

-14 August 2005-

was sumhw awaken..
by an sms..bt anw oso qt weird..
*evryting feels weird when i dun hv tym, cun find a better word*bear w it*
its jz a soft vibration n im awake..
mayb kindda expected a reply tis morn ald..
so was qt conscious although im slping..heehee..
bt the reply wasnt veri wat la..
stil din mk mi smile alot..
bt the fact tt its a reply..
i tink i shd feel glad..
sms-saver reply a sms-spammer..
haha..contrasting nicks agn..
shdnt i b glad..
bt anw..sumtings no nd sae too mani tyms..
else ppl gt tired of it..then its GG(Good Game,we owaz use it to mark the END of a game)..
i hate ppl w such most quoted phrase..
hate it..
cos it mks mi tink..
WHY M I NOT AT HME ???PLAYING?

argh!!!no tym ald..
gota mit cc at lot1..
1030pm..
can i mk it..
i tink i shd goto the tele booth now..
n FLY there NOW!!
shit!!! taxi taxi~~

Miss u(bloggie) n gd nite~

I NEED AN "A" FOR MAEC!!hor!!

Good Morning sigh Starshine sigh .. The Earth sigh says Hello..sigh

2005-08-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka...
The Amazing Chocolatier.
Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka...
Everybody give a cheer!

He's modest, cleaver, and so smart,
He can barely restrain it.
With so much generosity,
There is no way to contain it...
To contain...to contain...to contain...to contain.

Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka...
He's the one that you're about to meet.
Willy Wonka, Willy Wonka...
He's a genius who just can't be beat.
The magician and the chocolate wiz...
The best darn guy who ever lived.
Willy Wonka here he is!

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Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
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watched the movie w that "special someone" on fri..nearly cancelled the whole meeting..cos of the @#$% CSM who wans the area inspection to be held aft office hour @ 6pm..pls..im gvin u ENUF respect writing ur appointment in CAPS..ha..pls pls pls b "lenient" w the inspection on monday..cos i noe u gt no life..haha..as if i wud beg!!fat hope..

for once..i tot im the most no-life-being on earth..din noe there's tis CSM tgt w mi to share tis TITLE!!how u spend ur wkends? tel mi tel mi?i wish to noe!!play pool w frens..go out n hv a drink w frens..play dota at hme..watch a movie in town/anywhere..shoppin ard..do saigang in padang for sum NDP personnel..hmm..so mani tings tt normal ppl wud do during wkends..y cun i find myself sth to do..playin dota at hme..i ald tried..bt seems to b qt sian..especially when u play w outside ppl..been trainin on terrorblade lately..owns others bt nt my own campmates..hai hai..i can sae my movie date on fri was the most pleasant one..w pleasant ppl ard..although i suffered muc "injustice when i was back in camp on fri..bt i feel tt evryting was worthwhile..

-----------------------injustice----------------------

1st incident :
BBK put my name in the frisbee competition..
he didnt tel mi b4hand..
i knew it onli last min..
kai cudnt play cos of knee pain..
so sum1 else sub him..i was sumhw left alone..
w tis minor knee pain..
which i cudnt reali complain more to others..
since its so minor..
ha~anw the pain went away aft the frisbee..
we din gt last..bt 2nd last..
shd b glad ald cos the team was a last min team..

2nd incident :
few weeks ago..
there was tis bball trial for choosing bball layers..
i din wana go..
cos i dun wana "show-off" my lousy skills..
dirty linens shd reali b wash at hme..
bt vic n gang told mi tt the bball game was onli "play play"
in the end mi n daniel went..
eventualli realised tt it was a trial..
both mi n daniel was in the team..
jz lyk tt..felt sabo-ed..bt wat can we do..
frens n commander owaz top priority..
we reali cudnt do muc abt it

1st day competition-i din play..jz went to support..
finals-gt to play..bt daniel din play..wasnt reali sure wats the reason cos no matter wat..we stil gt 2nd placing..shd hv let daniel play..

in the end..bball team gt SECOND..reali worth celebrating..
but i din do anyting at all..so shdnt gt too happie else ppl might tink im onli tryin to gain sum glory fr the nothingness tt i've done..in fact i conceded a point to the opponent..reali veri sry..72-36 the final score..was ald veri imbalanced game cos the opponents were too strong ald..one is fr the SEA games bball ting..omg..bt he's cocky!! can tel him go die!!

3rd incident :
2pid area inspection..
damn!!no life CSM..shant elaborate more since evrybody noes hw fucked up he is!!

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all in all the movie was nice..didnt reali laugh alot..bt i do smile when i saw hw the person beside mi laugh at the oompa loompa songs..lame songs they hv..was fidgetin cos the seats were uncomfy..a veri veri low back rest..even a person shorter den mi by a head finds it low so i guess its a flaw of the theatre lah..heard adrielle said tt lido hv nice seats..hmm shall go there n try nx tym..rocking seats i heard..

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NDP
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ndp nx tues lor..
hope evryting goes well..
else dimsum gg to gt it fr the brigade ppl agn..
haha..pity him man!!

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twisted tales
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shall start writing sum twisted tales nx tym..

1. how the frog didnt bcum the frog prince..n the toad DID!!

2. how cinderella end up with the shoemaker who made the glass shoe..

3. how the ugly duckling bcum the swan while the tadpole bcums a toad instead of frog..

etc..more to come..stay tune..

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last words b4 i go baq to jail
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i reali duno when wil b the next one..bt i tink it wun b soon unless u've finally unbusied urself..haha..bz w proj n all..seems lyk im the onli one who's so slack..ya slacker la..outside ppl wil sae tt of us..bt who cares..let em b inside to noe the feelin..how i wish there's charlie n the great glass elevator..witches,giant peach, matilda bla bla bla de movies..gvin mi more excuses..ha..excusessounds so wat..ok lah..its more of the fabulous shows tt tim burton created..when is the next one? lukin fwd..din noe tt even if i made myself free on wkdaes..i stil dun gt to go out..haha..ironic it seems..
its nt ur router causin the reply to slow..its mi updating tis lah..haha srysry..reali dun hv enuf tym even to update ald..tk care..n miss you..good bye~im sayin it 1st..when's ur turn? i wonder..

Inferiority Complex

2005-08-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

A Bad conversationist

jayugi never holds on to conversation well..tinkin tt he can spend hours n hours n hours tokin to the same person..without feelin sian..n yet..he pissed the person off..jz bcos he tried to reinforce strongly on his theory..sum dumb theory tt owaz tries to prove the whole world wrong!!haha..ironic isnt it?he noes its wrong n yet he lyks to mk it sound correct..

one of such incidents :
he went to mac at JP w sange n daniel n miz..
daniel took alot of chilli..
he din gt any cos he nv ask for it..
feelin abit dulan..
he commented tt daniel shdnt waste his chilli sauce(half packet left)..
cos there's alot of less fortunate ppl ard u see..
daniel luks at him w d'uh eyes..
knowin tt crap gg to cum out hr his mouth soon..
he knew sange is xtian..
heehee..so he ask sange whether its sinful to waste food..
sange n him hv a veri veri interestin conversation over tis chilli issue..
hahaha..reali veri lame..bcos of half a packet of chilli..
can mk him sae til he thirsty..
hai..guess tis is life of NSF..
boliao n lame..
owaz tryin to mk tings sound funnie..
he bites off 2 ends of the banana durin lunch n left w onli less den half of the banana left n he stil wana sae ppl waste chilli..
well..at least sange n gang continues to tok cork w him even though they noe tt its suppose to b lame..
nt evrybody can tk such jokes..
cos sum ppl jz find it too lame to even respond to ur jokes..
sum1 lyk alex.. YES!! he simply tinks too logically..mkin him owaz the target of other ppl..
bt being lame cud b dangerous too..
u nv noe when a knife will appear behind u n stab u hard at the back..
n u stil hv to cont puttin on ur smile ALWAYS!!
hmm..sange seems to b holdin tt knife..gota beware of him man..o0psY..

another incident :
tis is rather unhappi..so its better nt to tok abt it..

恶魔在身边

wow tis show is nice..here's the rough storyline..

once upon a tym..there was tis gal who lyks guy A alot alot..owaz luk at him in class..bt didnt dare to mk a confession tt she lyks him..
her frens were hlpin her owaz..her frens even encourage her to write a confession letter n pass it to guy A..

so the gal went to pass the letter..she reali used all of her courage to confess..bt sumhw..she failed..worse..she pass it to the guy B accidentalli n made a joke outa herself..

guy B is notorious in sch..he took the letter n threaten the gal..hopin tt the gal will b his slave, doin wat he wans w her n alot of redundant chores..hai..

gal gt qt pissed off..so in the end..she rather confess to A so tt B canot threaten her w the letter anymore..n she DID!!..A accepted her..cos they hv mutual feelings for each other actualli..so it was sum sort lyk a happily ever aft ending..

hmm..B,of cos, veri dulan..cos he din gt wat he wans..disturbed both of em evrytym when he sees em..even threaten to post the letter ard the sch so tt he can mk a joke out of gal..

few daes ltr..the letter was reali posted..bt nt by B..bt a gal who lyks B..cos B showed less attn twds her n all; the attn twds the once slavegal..hmm..den of cos...the slave gal wil tink tt B posted the letter n slap him HARD!!

B din retaliate..cos i oso duno y..mayb is 1st impression sux..so din reali bother to go explain more..when slavegal eventualli found out tt the letter wasntm posted by B..she starts to lyk him more n more..she was sry tt she malign him..n of cos..there's so muc story n gd deeds tt B did to mk him more likeable by slavegal la..mz watch den noe la..

A is pissed nw..he saw slavegal n B owaz walk tgt..A used to b a veri veri gentle n nice guy..bt nv did the slavegal expect him to forcefully tryin to kiss her in the library..all along..A is reali a mr nice guy..until B stole the slavegal 1st kiss..tt mk him feel tt he shd more courageous..bt evryting is too late when the gal u lyk no longer lyks u anymore..tis is wat he said..
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尚源伊(A)：

我该怎么做比较好呢？

虽然不是你亲手交给我的，但是我看到那封告白信。

当我知道我和我暗恋的女孩子原来是彼此喜欢，你知道我有多么的高兴吗？

可是我却看到我喜欢的女孩，跟别的男生接吻，你为什么不考虑到我的感觉？

我很生气，很嫉妒，也很难受，自己也变得好奇怪，你说我该怎么办呢？

好人也是会疲惫的！！

你应该是喜欢我的没错吧？

你以为我是怎样的人？

什么都不知道

就不要乱说

不要任意把你的理想

用在我的身上

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aft tt..the slavegal was disappointed w A..cos he tried to forcefully kiss her..den the followin dae..she went to find A..tis is wat she said..

齐悦(slavegal)：

我是个很过分的女生

我不能继续跟你交往了

都是我不好，把迷恋你的感觉当成喜欢

如果在继续下去，会对你造成更大的伤害

我喜欢上另一个人了

我喜欢上阿猛(B)了

对不起
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A walks away sadly bt carryin a forceful smile..said tis..

尚源伊(A)：

没关系我无所谓

反正我一点也不喜欢你

he smiled..n walked off..the way he walk is no longer as "cool" as b4..sumhw was draggin his feet..hai..wat is he tinkin actualli..i duno..the feelings were mutual..izit jz bcos he dun wana cause any problems for the slavegal anymore..tts y he said all those? nt sure..

ltr on.. A was cryin in the rain..hopin tt no one can reali see him cryin cos the rain wud wash away the tears..he was all alone on the field of the sch..i tink its shows tt he's stil 舍不得 la..

end of spoiler..any1 interested to watch tis nice drama..msn mi den i snd u the bittorrent file..bt 1st u hv to noe hw to use bittorrent..i will feel dulan (mood is bad) if u ask mi hw to use bittorrent..unless u hv a nick called ugly duckling aka ud aka swanie aka dbie..

hope the vcd or dvd cums out soon..den more n more ppl can b able to enjoy tis drama..typical 偶像剧..bt the concept is qt near to real life situation..

Charlie & the Chocolate Factory

sian leh..sneakin into s'pore on wednesday 3rd Aug..bt wasnt free to watch..ok im free..bt nt the one gg to watch wit mi..so settle it on a fri..guess wat?haha i onli noe tis RD story recently..as in few weeks ago when sum1 lend mi a bk..i read it..juicy story..nt to mention chocolatey!!haha..supposed to b sum childhood story bt i onli gt to noe abt it when im TWENTY??wtf.. haha bt nevertheless..i stil enjoy the bk alot..so watchin the movie is inevitable..nd a RD fan to b ard when watchin so i've found sum1 suitable..heehee..hope the date wun screw up by hvin no more tym slots for the movie..its a turn off lor..or rather leavin w onli front row seats..wthell..its bad enuf hvin to watch initial d 3 tyms sitting at the 1st few rows..i wun wana watch ccf in front agn..bt it depends on who u watchin w actualli..o0psY!! hope my inferiority complex dun appear agn..it sux realli..

complete failure..a rare wkdaY entry

2005-07-28T12:22:00.000+08:00

SOC failed..

sad case..

cun swing lyk a monkey..)=

这世界上的确有人，存心想让你难过，但是我想说的是 . . .

2005-07-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

这世界上的确有人

存心想让你难过

但是我想说的是 . . .

这世界上也会有人，因为你的难过而难过

hmm, came across this fr the drama “恶魔在身边”

hw interestin !! i thought..

y interesting..cos i HAPPEN to cum across such feelings..

mayb EVRYONE gt experience tis b4..

jz tt the drama director finalli used it in dramas to attract audience ba..

veri veri sadly..

my mum's at hme..

she din go to wk 2dae..

bro playin PS2 n she kp rantin.. n rantin..sayin she wana watch teevee..

omg~n kp tellin mi to use LESS of the computer n prep to bk in..

hai..evryting oso canot do.. feel reali restricted..

so hw? we dun hv to listen to her anyway..

cos she can do nth to us nw?

haha.. bt sumtyms jz gt sick n tired of her HIGH pitched rantin n mk mi veri dulan most of the tym..

walan aa.. reali is the same effect as smellin smoke fr a cigarrette..

damn dulan..

ask mi wat i wana eat oso lyk ask so mani tyms although i tel her liao..

wats happenin to mi/her?

do i reali hv to go out evrytym i bkout fr camp to avoid all these..

dun worry..

its stil a happy family..

jz tt im nt used to the naggin liao..

cos seldom at hme..

EXCESSIVE ranting is SERIOUSLY NOT for m own GOOD..

hai supposedly is to watch a movie 2dae..

mayb "THE Island"..

bt too bad nt EVRYONE is interested to watch such 2pid movies..

2fake liao..

so in the end i oso nv watch..

cos basically nth actualli reali interest mi at all..

nth to do is watch movie onli ma..

NSF stil wana go clubbing pubbing or where else to chiong meh??

nt interested oso..

dota dota dota..

evry wkend oso dota..

sumtyms ppl might ask..

"buey sian meh?"

actualli the ans is no la..

cos its different evrytym u play it..

its obviously nt EXACTLY the same evrytym u play (feihua)

nt lyk movies where u watch so mani tyms n the ending is owa the same..

endings dun chg..

1. Jay will stil join proj D n leave his "gf" to study..

2. Tom cruise WILL NEVER DIE even aft few blast of the martians' rays..

3. Christian bale (batman) wil stil win the scarecrow..

4. Dr.Doom will fall to the reali FANTASTIC FOUR..

etc etc..bla bla bla..

onli uncompleted stories by myself can chg..

the endings CAN chg..

*wat m i tokin..

n of cos..

dota games can chg too..

u can b losing lyk mad n suddenly those late games heroes u gt own opponents lyk mad..

turned the tables ard..

even my bro gf plays DoTa..

haha wat the..*toot*..

he teached her hw to play for all i noe..

wonder y she interested in playin dota..

is she forced or wat..

haha.. watever la..

nt evry GALS can accept their bf platin games..

cos they owaz tink tt they rather THEM spendin more tym on THEM..

haha who's the THEM.. u noe urself..

owaz..w/o failure..few frens wud nt join game cos needa tok on fone or other stuff..

sumtyms feel qt dulan ald..

so most of the tym oso dun feel lyk join the game..

den there was once i reali reali joined the game bcos with mi jz nice is 5 v 5..

den wat happen?

the game is so imbalance wit one quitter..den aft less den 1 hour one more quitter..

walan eh.. waste my tym nvm.. bt its lyk i stop my msn chat halfway to join one leh..

pity mi lor...

nvm la.. in the end jz hv an early slp stil nt too bad..

my bro jz told mi sth abt his fren, des..

was secretly lykin one of the person i happen to noe for 5 yrs..

i was lyk WOW!!..

five yrs ar!! damn long leh..den even gt off track abit sumtyms stil chao chao gt 3 yrs ryt?

hmm 3 yrs stil more den the 2pid 2 yrs(n counting) dream..

he reali deserve my utmost respect man..

haha..

all along i've been hearin tings lyk..

"u tink a couple can stay as loving n swt as b4 aft they r married for lyk 5 yrs or so..?"

"they sure feel sian of each other one!! the luv initially there is nt there anymore"

hmm all these are true to sum extent..

indeed true to a large extent..

bt do all human beings hv to tink tis way??

lyk nt necessary..

cos evryone noes..

so if they dun kp tinkin abt it..

den mz b nt worth tinkin..

im nt encouragin any love for short moment(zeng jing yong you) theory..

or neither m i endorsin the trend of hvin lots n lots of domestic partners(orbf/gf) sth liddat..

bt i dun reali understd y the WORLD(in general) wants to deceive emselves leh..

HA~..life is full of contradictions..

a normal being lyk us will nv b able o clear these contradictions even we spend our lifetime researchin it..

so all in all..

we reali hv to deceive ourselves to mk ourselves glad..

so the key ans to tis problem is : "WHATEVER!"

tts y we see so mani bf n gf tgt nw..

they stil as loving as b4..

even knowin the fact tt they wun b as lovin as b4 aft mani yrs of marriage..

shd they find NEW happiness aft their marriage since they dun luv each other anymore..

if no.. why nt??

if yes.. den does it mean tt the person is the wrong person fr the start..

haha.. no one noes who's for who even aft the end of their lives..

most impt ting is nt to find the correct one..

bt its more of findin sum1 tt u noe u wun regret.. n u cun regret hvin..

abt the ways n methods to do so.. im sry..

i oso duno hw to tel..

its diff for diff ppl..

for example..

u can spend alot of money buyin a wife fr vietnam or wherever u find those foreign brides..

den u can order em ard to do chores at hme..

bcos u tink tt u spend bucks on em..gvin u the authority to order em ard..

need money de noe?

so canot anyhw divorce oso..

in the end.. u wun regret hvin such wives..

cos its ur money wat..

divirce mz pay more money leh..

nt worth nt worth..

so its true luv.. AM I RIGHT??

cos dun regret ma..

haha..

sounds lame bt sum ppl do adopt such tinkin one la..

so mani ppl in tis world..

anyhw oso can find SUM1 tinkin tis way..

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ANT-DEE -PEE

gave jin n ju the 2 tix i gt fr the ballot..

bt in the end they din gt to go into the audience seat..

bcos of sum fucked up marshaller fr duno which unit..

wonder wat does a marshaller do when they block roads..

are they required to tel the ppl hw to gt into padang??

or are they onli there jz to tel the ppl.. "sry u cun gt in AT ALL!!"

wat the fuck?

ppl cum all the way fr hme..

jz to attend sum patriotic functions..

n the supposedly most loyal batch of ppl..(the NSFs)..tel ppl tt they cun watch the show..

hai..

y gt so mani ppl liddat?

even MI with a ndp pass tts supposedly can go anywhere(except the rooftop)..cudnt gt passs sumtyms..

wats the use of the pass..

more imptly..

wats the use of the tix??

discouragin more n more ppl wantin to attend th ndp over the years liao..

stil gt such incidents..

hmm..

nx tym train the marshallers hw to tell directios too..

cos even im nt the marshaller,civilians wil cum askin mi for directios..

hw to gt to citylink?

hw to gt to SRC??

hw to gt to raffles city???

wah reali duno wat the marshallers r doin man..

at least the police r doin their jobs..

they dun anyhw stop u w/o gvin u the reason..

hai..

i felt tt i hv reali wasted ppl's time..

n spoilt the feelin of gg to the ndp nw..

cos im too stubborn w my ways..

ya too stubborn..

aaaarhhhhh..

WHY!!??

tot i was in luck when i gt the tix..

bt din noe its jz a blessin in disguise tt pissed ppl off..

waliao..

reali is duno wat to sae..

does gd tings owaz cum w sth bad in the end?

*wondering*

so evryone shd jz start to pray hard aft u gt sth gd happenin in ur life..

it might b a curse or the bad omen for all u noe..

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SOC

my SOC needs a faster timing..

shit man..

does gym trainin hlp??

dun tink so..

bt stil hv to go..

compulsory..

hv to win sum ppl in the timin noe?

cun jz pass w a borderline timing..

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绝对 Superstar

sumtyms i wonder whether is fake anot?

hw can sum1 who gt so mani supporters lyk derrick ho b kicked out when his forums r filled w 600 plus pgs worth of comments.. mostly good ones..

the other stars hv lyk 100 plus n they gt into w/o sweat!!

IS TIS SUM FRAUD?!

they jz boot derrick out so tt fans out there will cont to vote n vote n vote..

den they jz bring him baq at the revival round..

pls lor..

its damn cheatin n lame..

n its oso unfair to the other contestants..

imagine they train so hard for their song..

with such underhand methods behind..

they dun gt any of the phonecall money for all u noe..

mediacorp gts em..

so they jz play ard lor..

need more cash man..

beda boot sum popular guy out..

ya agree tt production of the whole show needs money..

nt he stars make overs cost money too..

n oso nt to mention..

hiring gay judges lyk anthony png needs money..

he's a gay..

yes he IS..

sum1 told mi..

u can see de ma..

gv gals veri veri low score while guys gt veri high scores..

kelly poon was lucki tt her voice was excellent..

tts y gv too low score oso mk em feel qt guai lan..

bt anw..

i dun tink anthony attempts to conceal his own sexuality issues..

so mayb he's gay(happy) to b gay ba..

i hv nth against him of cos..

n nt to mention i dun support any superstars in mking..

veri neutral 2wds ALL..

jz dun find tt its right for mediacorp to cheat the xmm n xdd fan base..

they spend their pocket money to vote for a fake idol??

omg~

they mz b sad tt they can spend their money on other more worthwhile stuff lyk buyin clothes..(o0ps! nt referin to any1)

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SK-2 facial

walan aa..

the facial treatment cleanser is lyk damn ex la..

skin specialist tels mi to do sth do my dry face..

so i tot..

shit man..

all the facial foam i use liao wil hv pimple leh..

den was tinkin mayb SK-2 wun la..

bt when went to chk..

omg!!...cost a bomb..

suan le..

jz wash with water..

no pimples..

bt face luk dry..

who cares..

nt sum sg leh..

no nd AS..

sumore in NS..

haha..

stop bein VAIN!!

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Last words

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRH..

food is callin mi ald..

sian sian sian..

eat so muc stil canot fat??

hlp mi man..

i wan the fats on daniel's tummy..

missin you..

gota gt baq to my James n the Giant Peach!!..

Rare EntrY

2005-07-17T17:12:00.000+08:00

-5.13pm-
woot~wat m i doin at hme at tis hr? shdnt i b out there sumwhere shoppin or mayb jz walk walk ard the town area lyk wat most ppl wud do on most of the wkends? ha~duno..jz happen to read sum of my earlier blogs n found myself bloggin "funnily" izit the wd to use? nt too sure bt i smiled when i read back~a blog is a blog..we shdnt reali exploit it..for example..steal music fr the blogs..pictures..wallpapers or other stuff tts been embeded la..hard to find webhost for song files nwadays..the best i have seen nw is probably the one im using nw..geocities..at least the bandwidth provided is REASONABLY large..type so few wds..ald spend mi 5 mins..haha cun imagine hw long i type the prev entry..i tink took lyk THREE hours..ya..my typin speed sux..cos i cun type w my eyes off the keyboard..nv reali learn hw to do tt..no money in the past..cun even afford a COMPUTER..a lesson on typin? ha~hai..actualli dun nd to type veri fast most of the tym..mayb in msn messenger..there's a need..bt depends too..if ppl dun reply fast enuf..u dun nd to type VERI fast too..my speed is more den enuf i guess..(infer..inferi..infer..bt nt too muc)..WoW..listenin to yi lu xiang bei while bloggin gt a special feelin..erm is the feelin a sense of satisfaction or jz feelin glad tt a nice song is played? nt too sure..bt any1 can feel free to try..

-5.25pm-
2 person called..one anonymous while the other one is junhao..the anonymous caller called the wrong num..omg~lucki i gt free incomin..else waste money on anonymous caller..hmm..qt a waste la..although its on sundaY off-peaks..junhao called askin mi hw to mk the computer detect the Ipod..hmm its qt ez la..plug in n out, in n out aft the comp detects lor..if nt jz restart the whole comp..hai..i been lyk listed "the onli ipod mini user".. sange had ipod mini too..nt onli mi la..so mayb sum of the troubleshootin sange might noe beda den mi..anw..sth weird abt junhao callin..im online..he's online too..y he dun wana msg mi..weird sia..bt anw im free..veri veri free..i wondered.."wat m i waitin for at hme?".."i tot i was gg to gt a haircut 2dae?".."i tot i was gg to gt my Initial D movie OST 2dae?".."i tot..i tot.."hai..evryting is jz using my mind n brain..is there sth tt we can do w/o tinkin so muc..(i shd use too muc)..hey evrybody's out there hvin fun..hmm evrybody??im tinkin too muc..self denial mi..tinkin tt nt EVRYBODY's out there..sumtyms..its jz nt right to deceive urself..

-5.33pm-

tk the final gulp of VODAVODA..finalli i manage to fin the VODA 1.5 litre..bought ytd at the marketplace at the Raffles City basement..ya aft NDP show..mi was in my uniform..w sange..damn paisae..cos was qt sweaty in the uniform n we were wanderin ard Raffles City..i purposely went there to find the VODAVODA..damn lame..my dear buddy told mi tt VODA x2 is damn expensive..when he saw the price he was lyk WAH!!! fr then on,im veri interested in tis so-called expensive spring water..i saw at cheers outside amk mrt..bought a smaller bottle..VODA 0.5 litre..was veri cheap..$1.50 if i din rmb wrongly..i was stil wonderin whether they produced pirated copies of the VODA x2..hmm bt anw was kindda thirsty..y so cheap y so cheap? i was tinkin thruout the journey to padang..tts y..i feel tt pl shd nt hv too high hopes..cos the higher their hopes..the harder they fall..jz lyk mi..tinkin tt the VODA x2 was a veri ex spring water..mayb 5 bucks for 0.5 litre? i stil will buy..cos there mz b a reason for tt price..bt its onli $1.50..hmm nvm la..at least the bottle is nice..the bottle attracted alot of my attn..1st saw it was the JUE DUI SUPERSTAR sponsor..evrytym i watch oso gt show the water..the design is damn nice..the class n evryting..mayb bcos the bottle is transparent n white..haha sry im a "white' lover..the actual price actualli cos my appreciation for it to go dn..mayb the company can try to mk the price higher..more ppl wil appreciate it more =) at least i will..ok back to my budyy~im gg to kill him when im baq in camp..cheated my feelings..sae the bottle is curvy one..bt i saw none of the mineral/spring water has curvy design lor..the most ex is lyk 2 dollar..omg~..i tot its gg to b lyk 6/7 bucks..disappointment nw n then..when can the disappointment stop..anw i bought 0.5 litre n 1.5 litre de bottle..jz for collection..i noe its lame..bt the water is qt nice la..taste exactly the same as the water in my hse..one ting its different is tt my hse de water taste weird overnite bt VODA x2..NEVER!! tts y we call it "WATER for LIFE!!"..im gg to gt more of these water..mayb collect 99 such bottles..who noes..im lame as usual..

-5.52pm-
baq fr a toilet brk.. as usual wif my grandma naggin n naggin n naggin at mi to eat my dinner..aaaarrrhhh..sumtyms reali feel qt fed up..y do we owaz hv to let ppl nag us to eat..nag us to bathe..nag us to do tings..my dad will owaz sae tis when sum1 nags "u scared they dun eat meh? i tel u la..they will eat when they hungri..as evrybody needs food to survive" ok wat he said was supposed to b in chinese bt most ppl duno hw to encode the page to read chinese characters..so i jz mk it eng la..nt a veri accurate translation..to encode the page..simply VIEW -> CHARACTER ENCODING -> UNICODE (UTF-8)..ok baq to my dad..im damn pissed w him when he said tis..as though he's veri knowledgeable..evryone noes tt human survive on food n water..bt DO YOU REALLY HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT TO MAKE OTHERS KNOW TT YOU ARE SUCH A REALISTIC PERSON??omg~..cun imagine hw the genes is passed dn..i hope i dun gt such genes..AT LEAST im nt a realistic person nw..i onli live on dreams..while HE..lives on wat he tink is right..ok generation gap mayb..hmm mayb nt cos jz lesss den 25 yrs of age difference..ok mayb is jz mi..anw i admit i cun communicate well..at least to ppl tt are nt my age..nw has been using less n less spaces to mk mani mani lines of sentences..i prefer to squeeze it into 1 whole chunk nw..cos its owaz nt necessary to understd tings to completely..there shd owaz b space for ppl to tink..so if u happen to miss a few sentences..u start to tink..a DEAD mind stops tinkin =) ytd alex told mi tt mi n daniel r reali a great match..if we were to b of diff gender..mayb he can b my life tym partner ye shuo bu ding..i was lyk "REALI??!!" y cannot b TONG ZHI?? gays r too common a wd to use ..we shd all use TONG ZHI for homosexuality..ok i noe it sounds cheena..bt i duno the tamil for GAY..erm..indians more prone to homosexuality fr my experience..o0ps..no offence..its true to an extent..try to notice when u're on the east west line 2wds boon lay on wkend nites..BE SHOCKED!!haha..

-6.08pm-
daniel n i..hmm onli "attached our feelings" to each other more deeply when we're in 46..in signal institute..we're jz lyk strangers..hi bye frens..nth muc..and now..daniel ald attached to stephanie (sob~)..whenever i tok abt her..he dun wish to elaborate muc..n whenever i ask him go out aft fri bkout..he wun go..i dun hate him for tt..i noe its owaz gd to gv sum1 the freedom he deserve..if u reali luv a person..u mz learn to let go..o0ps..does tis sound gay..ok its gay..alot of restrictions..i cun possibly use a GAL to bring across the point..so all i can sae to daniel is SORRY~ haha..used YOU!..bt anw..he's nv angry..although most of the tym i acted gay w him..he owaz tries his bez to pei he la..so qt fun when we're reali bored n nth to do..owaz shares my DDL w him..n he appreciates alot..nt evryone appreciates DDL u noe? hardly came across those zhi yin tt wil listen to DDL..daniel is definitely one of em..he's short n fat..w the face of andy lau when he's nt wearin specs..evrydae..w/o fail..i wud try my veri best to tel him tt he's short by inferin fr normal conversations..he owaz brks out in a laugh instead of a dulan face..i owaz tel him "u noe i hv tis female ren who's abit taller den u..she's onli 18 end of tis yr..u shd b ashamed lor"instead of pissed..he ask who's the person..n of cos..he'll nv noe.."mayb when one day u're taller den her, i tel u=)"he eats little..nv finish his plate b4..nv go for canteen brks..bt stil he's weighin at ard 70+..qt heavy for his height..i owaz tel him to eat more eat more..he nv listens..ok then hope he gt thinner by eatin less..NOMB anw..mayb stephanie lyks him to b fat ba..ok nw..tis is a reason for luv..hmm so i been wonderin lately..hw izit poss to find luv tt has no reason..i luv u n tts it..no more..true luv dun nd reasons..ok tis..im stil researchin on it..cos no matter hw..i stil see the slightest reason to fall in luv..hw slight is the reason?ok they fell in luv bcos they KNEW each other..its the slightest reason le..if any1 can tel mi a slighter one..feel free =) ok i tink its tym to stop these sweet nothings to DEAR daniel..i scared i'll b gay one dae..yucks~die alex..for spoutin nonsensical horoscope theory!! Aries will gv up eventualli ok?

-6.28pm-
time for dinner..veri hungri..been eatin little whenever im at hme..duno y..mayb gt tings to b busy wif so rather skip meals..dun nd to eat so muc oso..i hv unlimited reserves in my huge tummy..tink can last few daes w/o food..n nt feelin hungri..bloggin twice durin wkend for mi is reali over-estab..dun reali noe wat estab means bt alot ppl lyk to use..i onli noe it has similar meanin lyk entitlemt or sth liddat..nt sure whether i'll b baq for more..bt if im nt baq..sum1 has to feel happi for mi..cos i finalli gt sth to spend my tym on..no more rottin at hme..im nt veri bored..jz feel veri..hmm sian..o0ps..wats the diff?? for u to find out =)

just my day

2005-07-15T19:15:00.000+08:00

-5.30am-
i woke up suddenly.. to find out tt it was jz a dream*heng*.. a reali bad one..sumtyms ,its jz bad to hv dreams,cos gd dreams eventualli wil turn bad as the dream drags n drags n drags..sumting abt dreams tt we cun ctrl (or shd i jz sae.. we cun ctrl wat happen in our dreams?)
when we reali wana gt out of "there" badly.. we jz cudnt.. sumhw everyting seem so real..the people the dialogues..freakin EVRYTING IS REAL b4 u wake up..do u noe hw scary it is?? i bet evryone does noe..cos evrybody had bad dreams b4..
*chk my hp, no reply, kindda glad as i din mk ppl wait, kindda sad as there's no reply of cos*

-5.45am-
able to slap myself more awake to find out tt the dream is jz a dream..there's no nd to b afraid of it anymore..15mins is neither long nor short..it depends on hw traumatised u r..baq to slp agn for the brkfast at 6.30am..
*chk my hp, no reply.. expected..*

-6.00am-
~wo yi lu xiang bei, ying gai you ni de ji jie~ok my hp rang w the melodious yi lu xiang bei tone..
it was a gd tone w a nt so gd caller..JAMES(he's nice bt nt veri nice to call mi when im tryin to slp of cos)

James: wb ar..u slpin nw?rmb the store u tk baq?when u gg to return to us?

mi: erm..i duno eh..mz ask PS leh..cos he sae he wil return u 1..im nt reali sure hw he's gg to return la..u noe his num?

James: HUH?? ok lor..i need it for NDP leh!! i call him ltr den..

mi: orh~ ok lor.. ask him la..he veri dua kang 1..most of the tym sae liao duno gt do anot..bt i tink he can gv an ans la (a rough ans,dun reali rmb wat i said)

James: ok bye bye..

mi: ok bye..(im owaz the last to hang up no matter who's on the line,no matter hw slpi i m la,used to it!!)
*no nd to purposely chk my hp cos jz rcv a call,can c whether gt reply anot*

-6.30am-
din gt to slp at all..nt bcos of the trauma of the bad dream..bt its more of the "stil left less den 1 hr..slp for wat?"..so all the while i jz nua in my bed until the "1st light" is ON.. ya evry morning..
sum1 will definitely switch on the light to blind evryone except mi..haha mi gt a pillow on my head OWAZ!!
*ok stil the same old "date n time" screensaver

-7.00am-
baq fr brkfast.. brkfast sux as usual..ya baq to slp AGN..normal routine for most signallers in our bunk..cos mayb bunk i/c(mi) nv reali ensure the area cleanin or toilet cleanin or wat shit la..toilet cleaned n dirtied by indians fr MTL..nt reali a pleasant experience..so i tink jz go baq to slp n wait for the real 1st light at ard 8.00am..
*ok the screensaver*

-8.ooam-
open my eyes abit..ok most of the em were stil aslp..sum awake..oso doin nth at all..hai..ok i gt baq to slp agn..slp is impt..bt of cos.. nt as impt for NSF..more for the students outside studyin..
*the screensaver*

-10.45am-(nt too sure)
wake up agn..to see tt sum of the ppl ald gone to the office..clerks lan lan hv to go..sum went to do sum video clips..while mi..the bunk i/c agn..gota b in charge of the bunk of cos..(excuses??!!)..so i went baq to slp agn..i dun hold any appointment except for bunk i/c so0o0o0..its logical nt to hv any ting to do..so slp slp slp..
*screensaver!!*

-11.15am-
seems lyk onli 15 mins bt i slp lyk qt long leh..eh?hven 11.30am yet ar?ok lor slp for 15 mins more lor..oso nth to do..slp baq..
*SCREENSAVER*

-11.33am-
aaarrrhh late for lunch..by 3 mins..daniel waitin for mi outside bunk while i quickly gt chg n gogogo..i wun wan a long queue at the cookhse..a long queue for sucky food..no way man!!
*nearly 4gt to tk my hp along..ok i admit..when i tk..i peeped at the screensaver agn*

-11.40am-ard tis tym la
reached the cookhse..nt too bad de lunch..nasi lemak w sum chicken n luncheon..when u see luncheon in SFI food..trust mi..its the best u can gt la!

-11.55am-
fin lunch fast..ya i eat tings no swallow..faster den those who came b4 mi..gota b the 1st to use the I-net rm..no matter wat..victor is duty personnel..ok let's hope he lemme 1st n dun chase mi out too earli..hmm..sign in sign in..where's the bk? where's the bk? ok im nt the 1st siht~bt anw no nd to b the 1st oso..gt enuf comps available..or shd i sae no nd to rush cos there's no nd to sign in anw.. nt on msn either..i stil purposely choose a msn installed comp..comp no.4..ytd nite install til so tedious..if dun install gota use the 2pid (web)messenger agn..install new msn stil nd a IE6.0 (for those who duno) n the I-net dun hv IE 6.0 installed..wtf~..ok la..anw ytd nite oso nth to do..my buddy on duty ytd so i kinda bluf him i was doin maintenance on comp no.4 n dun disturb mi..haha..bt anw its for evryone's gd n of cos..supposed to b for my own gd la..
*scared i missed my hp vibration, tk out agn to chk..ok i din missed any vibrations..there's NO vibrations*

-12.14pm-
reached I-net..des gt sth to tel the platoon..abt sum 2pid essays we gota write..ok des tryin to mai4 guan1 zi3 nw..which i tink most of the ppl ald qt bu shuang as sum hven go for lunch yet..qt dulan liao..kp askin him to sae out fast..bt he sae wait til 12.30pm(assumed time for the whole platoon to be here, which i tink the WHOLE platoon wun b here, when ah poh is stil in bunk cleanin himself aft the haircut) n nw both zhiliang n des is tryin to push the responsibility to tel the bad news to the platoon..ok watever it is..we all want to noe wat is happenin n no one is tellin..finalli..des said sth abt writin essay based on L.I.V.E..
L-learnin
I-image
V-aa 4gt liao..o0ps
E-experience
LIVE on our unit..as in hw to link these to our unit..
aiya..i oso dun nd to do mk mi so jing zhang..gg to bk out soon liao so i luckily siam the whole ting..bt i dun mind writin since i gt so muc to sae evrytym durin the commanders' appraisal/appraissal..use the comp awhile needa sign out ald..ask vic hw cum so fast? he showed mi the sign-in bk..ok well time's up..

vic: lang fei qing chun agn?!

mi: lang fei ge lan la..u gt see i use msn meh?

vic: haha(owaz tis kinda laugh) ltr den sign in agn lor..

mi: see hw!
*chk my hp time..i dun wear watch..so hv to tk out my hp..nt on purpose..bt obviously will noe whether there's any msgs..ok, none*

-12.35pm-
i tink ard tis tym online try agn.. cos jz nw mayb too earli liao..ok try on comp no.8 which oso hv msn..bt older version..ok signd in..nt online..qt sian..jz go n remove my bulk mails fr gmail, yahoo mail..sum frenster blog updates by frens in my yahoo mail..del n sign out..ok nth liao..sign out at ard 12.50pm..cos gota prep for bk out for medical appointment..cun afford to be late else will hv to wait damn long to see the doc..
*ok stil a nono, i was too harsh on my wds last nite..sry*

-1.00pm-
stil in bunk packin my stuff..damn..tink gg to b damn late liao..stil gt so muc tings to pack..uniforms hv to squeeze..walan aa..reali sian..

-1.15pm-
finalli squeezed evryting in!!*squeezed my hp into my pocket, nearly 4gt to bring out agn..ok gt chk bt of cos no reply still..*

-1.30pm-
reached the gate liao..shit sia..shd hv reached at 1.20pm cos its the bkout timin for the medical appt..10 mins late..duno can stil reach novena in tym anot..walked all the way to the bloody hell FAR bus stop..damn humid cos it was jz aft the rain..sweat abit..bt wait damn long for the bus..i tink ard 20 mins for the bloody bus to reach..in the end when was in the bus, kana block by sum1 cos he neead pay cash n was diggin at his wallet for coins..i went in by the left side..ok my fault i tink..cos left side is for coins n right side for ezlink..nx tym i beda rmb..else gona gt stuck at the entrance for no reason agn..luks qt cock la..

-2.10pm-
nearly doze off while i was on the bus journey to cck mrt..bt of cos i didnt..hw to doze off agn when i ald slept lyk so mani tyms in camp..enuf slp..i hope no more halfway doze off durin msn chats anymore..wun wan it to happen agn..reached finalli n was runnin all the way to catch the arrivin mrt gg to marina bay..suddenly notice sumting..i seem to stop my own breathin when i sprint..haha..i tink so..cos when i entered the train fianlli..i was pantin away..n still tryin to hold it baq to stop evrybody fr lukin at mi..i tink holdin breath is one way to run fast for short distance..i jz dash in the train..din reali noe izit the correct way..if i kana the jurong east 1, ha im suay..lucki was the correct one when the nx stop is yew tee..ok nw..jz pray tt i can reach novena b4 3.20pm..
*chk my hp..scared i missed sum vibration while i was runnin to catch the train..sounds lame when im chkin my hp lyk so mani tyms..bt its jz a subconscious rxn 2dae*

-3.00pm-
reached NSC aft a long walk thru TTSH fr novena mrt..took a queue num n i din reali gt to wait long..the doc is Dr Tan Wee Ping..4gt is who liao..bt stil doesnt mk a diff..

Dr Tan: hi hw's evryting?

mi: huh? pardon?

Dr Tan: hw's evryting?

mi: huh?wat?(blur at wat she mean)

Dr Tan: ok hw's ur skin?

mi: ooohh..ok la..been rather itchy these few daes..might b due to hot weather..(tryin to b my own doc)

Dr Tan: ok lemme see the areas..

*lift up my jeans showin the rashes..

Dr Tan puts HER hand on the leg..baq n forth tryin to see whether the skin is dry..

Dr Tan: ok ur skin is dry..i tink i gv u sum moisturiser..

puts her hand on my forearm..baq n forth agn..

ur skin reali is dry..see ur hand oso dry..

*erm im convinced tt my skin IS DRY ald..wat else she wans mi to noe?*

Dr Tan: hey u noe wat?we happen to hv the same name..

mi: *tinking wee ping n weibin gt same meh?*oh izit? haha..

Dr Tan: lemme see ur leg agn to cfm if its eczema n nt fungi infection..

mi: *feelin qt awkward n paisae* (lift up the jeans showin onli the feet..)

Dr Tan: hmm..i tink its eczema..so u jz nd to apply the cream..*while she sayin all these..she's movin the hand baq n forth agn..*

*i wonder..she dun nd a glove to handle my skin??is she reali TT sure tt it wun spread??*
*her bzness..NOMB anw*

Dr Tan: ok nw if u DUN MIND.. i wud lyk to see u agn in 2 mth tym?

mi: ok..*although i VERI mind her hands, can i choose another doc i wonder?*

out i go..i duno hw shd i feel..m i over-sensitive or wat?she can touch liddat ar?duno? ald passed..in her early twenties..felt damn uncomfortable w her hands baq n forth..hope she dun do it AGN!! pls..im gg to chg doc if she do it nx tym..

-3.40pm-
as usual..i owaz walk pass california cbd n buy a dessert at FOOD JUNCTION nearby..eat qt fast n went off cos its gg to rain liao..

-3.50pm-
train arrive aft 3 mins wait..to amk station..when reach bishan..i was lyk WTF~RAIN so heavy..damnit..wil dover there b rainin as well tk out my hp..decide nt to snd as im afraid the test might start early..ok of cos no reply..b4 i decide nt to snd..

-4.08pm-ard tis tym reach amk i tink
waited damn long for 269/265..kns..2dae wait bus lyk damn long leh..normalli is veri fast 1..duno y..mayb rainin so the drivers dun intend to drive out of the bus interchg..

while on the bus, was lukin out of the window..agn..i lyk to do tis..tinkin to myself..finalli i brk off fr my jail..so called jail bcos:-
ppl who do wrong tings (lyk murder n robbery) goes to jail..
i oso did a wrong ting (4gt to tk part in sum star-search contest lyk "jue dui superstar" b4 i enlist into army)..i noe veri bhb..bt wat i tryin to mean is tt sum ppl reali is bcos wana skipped the hard way out n joined the star searches contest..anw they needa fin their liabilty for the nation no matter wat..bt superstars tend to hv more privileges lyk gg to MDC(music drama company) to hv their NS..ok..nt bein bias here bt its nt reali TT bad to b a superstar..mayb aft NS..its more suitable cos a superstar nt onli aims to attract XMM..its aim to attract the public la..so the act cute face when u're 18/19 erm..qt weird..xmm luvs to see sylvester sim tis type of superstar 1..no doubt he wun gt fame for long if he onli attract tis group of xmm who wil eventualli grow up to b mature young LADIES few yrs dn the road..i owas very boliao tink alot when im free..bt oso nt anyhw tink 1 la..gt logic de tinkin is gd for the mind..

~hp finalli vibrates w ylxb sms tone

xiaoq: hey u bring baq my cd player hme ar?

i was qt sian diao when see his sms..2 reasons..it was nt the sms i was waiting for..i din tk his cd player hm lor..

mi: left it under ur pillow w ur FIR cd inside..

-lazy to note the tym-
reached hm..was rainin lyk mad..shit man hw m i gg to reach hme w tis kindda rain? erm ltr gvin 2nd thoughts.."y nt?i dun fear the rain anw..i owaz chiong rain in camp..wats there to b afraid of?" o0ps i guess my tinkin chg once i din wear the army uniform..cos normalli i jz chiong when i wear the uniform..haha..
1st ting reach hme is to on my comp..ok nt online..chk mail chk evryting..finalli sit dn n start to blog guaily..

-6.13pm-
hp vibrate..tis tym who??
ok is joo..
joo: "2nite's western.lol"
ok evry fri nite is western 1..without fail..its so unfair when they gt western when we bkout..hai..suan le..i rather go hme eat..cont to blog blog blog..all the way til nw..9.17pm..showin the show "DESTINY" gt joanne peh..bt sadly..her role is a "evil" role la.so qt sad..when mn hv to act a "evil" role..lyk the jing zhong ren oso fann acted "evily" ha wat a wd to use..cun tink of any liao..gt more space to fa zhan i guess..den the show wun b dull..all in all..the shows snd out the "beauty can kill" msg..

ok online ald..
qt long ago..bt i duno whether to sae anyting anot..afraid tt im too irri or wat..aaaarrhh..stress stress..nvm jz try to msgin aft i publish tis freakin long post..hope 4gvness is given =) bt i noe chances r low..hai

最终我希望答案是--------“败给了命运”

2005-07-09T01:46:00.000+08:00

最近有个朋友告诉我：

朋：“你知道吗？”

我：“我不知道！”

朋：“牧羊座的你是不会放弃做任何事的！”

我：“是吗？哈哈ok lor..”

朋：“真的，我研究那么多年星座学不会错”

我：“那我一定证明给你看你是错的！”

~啊！自己slap自己的嘴巴，难道这真的是牧羊们的命运吗？~

~潜意识中 (subconsciously) 我已证明了他是对的~

若打败了命运，就是说------>我放弃了

若败给了命运，也就是说---->我没放弃

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很久很久以前......

有个很失败的人

“他”没有目标没有理想

对自己要走的路还是不清楚

每次有人问“他”：

“以后大学读哪里？”

“他”都没有一次答得出来

虽然“他”没有理想

但梦想 “他” 倒有一个

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~两年前~

*在一个夜黑风高的晚上 *(added for flavour)

“他” 找到了一个梦想

梦想离“他”并不远

~几步就到了

但“他”连那几步也懒得走

那时的“他”并不知道

不论是谁都可以有梦想

梦想能不能实现也是另外一回事

“他”都不敢接近那看起来很近，其实却很远的梦想

只是在一旁默默的做着“他”的大头梦

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~两年后~

~也就是几天前~

一向热爱洗澡的“他”拿着毛巾

坐在椅上

凌晨12点

在想一个问题：

“我真的有资格提 “梦想” 两个字吗？”

“一个什么也没有的人”

“一天到晚还在做梦”

“可能真的不实际”

就在“他”快想不通的时候--->也就是差点就干脆不洗澡的时候

“他”抓住星座学家来问

“他”：“半残的人没有资格提梦想 hor？”

朋：“哇！讲到自己半残？外面那些真的残废人士是什么？”

“他”：“ My ‘半残’ is 比普通人还多病痛的 ‘半残’ ，可以吗？”

朋：“ 不管是谁，人类都是因为梦想而活 ”

~这时，一匹 “有奶 ” 的公牛从旁干扰对话~

奶牛：“你都可以等一个人等两年，他妈的你连一点点东西你都要放弃？”

这时的奶牛还是第一次搞不清楚 “他 ” 指的 “梦想 ” 是什么

不知不觉

大家还以为“他”在说学业问题

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

这样也好

至少“他”得到了答案

也不需要向他们交待什么

免得问东问西

夜不长梦却很多

过后“他”便去洗澡

睡觉前，也不忘拿手机出来按两下才睡

反正每晚 “他 ” 都是最迟睡的

到底有谁知道

他的想法

没有人吧？

“他”告诉我

“他”是多么的想败给命运

也就是说“他”多么的不想放弃

一向什么都想赢的“他”宁愿输掉

但是“他”知道

有些梦想让命运不得不在“他”面前低头

也就是命运被打败了

命运根本都没有生命力

所以往往都会不战而败

若命运不战而败--->“他”放弃了

故事的确讲得很乱

因为是故意的

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

我想

没有人看得懂

因为没有人能够了解那位“半残”的“他”的想法

花两个钟头

打一堆没有人看得懂的垃圾

早知道就用吃马铃薯的语言来打

比较快又多

很费神

也是时间 z Z Z 了

早安

希望您最终的答案是希望“他”败给了命运

因为“他”告诉过我

这次“他”输一次给命运

“他”都甘愿

Faded

2005-07-03T16:52:00.000+08:00

http://www.kymcn.com/movie/被风吹过的夏天-kymcn.ram

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Uniform
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2pid S*F Day parade..

arhhh..

mz b 1st july..

uniform faded means nt smartest liao meh?

sianx..

nt evrybody wil kp dirty clothes unwashed de lehx..

kaox..

wash clothes more den color fade..

haix..wat to do..

tis is wat we call LL suck thumb..

ppl sae wat means wat liao..

anw oso gt sum REWARDS for fadin uniform la..

zero day 5 nite de staff parade..

yoohoo~

at least i gt to bk out on fri..

mayb sth gd is waiin for mi on fri..

pray pray jayugi~

heex..

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Escapers of the 2pid uniform chk
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haix..

tokin abt tis mks mi feel dumb..

as well as garang..

the day itself..

i knew tt volunteerin my services to bao bao n the line team entitle mi to a getaway fr the uniform inspection

all along i tot mayb its jz a mini inspection la..

so the uniform fadin shdnt b an issue lor

haix..little did i expect it to b a large scale 1..

ha~..

regreted nt gg to hlp the ald enuf manpower de lineteam shift their PA system..

haix..

suan le..

mayb sth gd is gg to happen on tt day n i din EARN it..

so heaven's mkin mi pay for it lor..

5 nites of staff parade..

hmm..

WORTH IT~~~~~!

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Unfair Treatment
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Daisy de uniform is more faded den mine..

den daisy kana boots nia..

wahliao aa..

even daisy tinks im suay..

omg~..

i jz yi xiao er guo..

nth muc i can sae oso..

jz mk sure tt i wun mk the same mistake agn bah..

UNDERESTIMATION kills~~~

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Bk Out
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its the moment im waitin for..

haha..

its nt a normal bk out daY..

i kp tellin Daniel..

"wo yi ding yao 1730 dao gate"

"i mz reach the gate at 530 pm"

guess wat?

i didnt mk it..

i reached the gate abt 540pm..

WHY??

arrrrhhh..

was sms-ing on the way..

hahax..

Serve mi ryt~~!!!

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Cab / Train
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arrrhhhh..

dillemma agn..

cab or train..

fr cck to reach PS..

duno hw long..

nv tk b4..

den its lyk onli left 45 mins onli..

bus journey to cck was freakin long..

sit til my butt hurts too..

finalli decided..

train..

i dun wana puke in a cab for tt lo0o0o0ng journey..

haha, ya a since young motion sickness tingy..

damn irri n sianx..

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DDL
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DDL aka Da Dao Li..

nt invented by mi..

bt its spoken by mi..

yes its nt news tt both jayugi n LWB luv to tok DDL..

bt its definitely news when the inventor of the phrase 4gt wat it means overnite..

omg~..

suan le..

shdnt harp on minor tingx liddat..

haha..

i dun lyk to harp on tingx..

jz tt when im boliaox..

den gt harp..

whaha..

cos nth to do mahx..

so harp on lame tingx to mk the person rmb wat she did is kindda funny n lame lor..

bt if the person canot accept..

den beda STOP b4 she slaps n kills..

ok STOPPED~

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wat happens if my hp drops
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finalli reached PS..

im late of cos..

its hard for LWB to b early for watever tingx..

so he's late..

climb to the top of PS..

luk dn..

hmm wat a sight..

lyk black ants crawlin below tt lvl..

there's tis secret recipe shop at duno which floor..

bt its the mid floor of the buildin..

i reach out the hand holdin my hp..

"if i drop den hw?"

"wil i b able to gt baq anot"

ha~..

damn lame..

i mz hv waited til i sianx den i wud tink of such tingx..

too boliao is liddat

ha~..

b4 i attempt to drop the hp..

sum1 pats mi on my arm..

(~to b continued~)

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do u reali hate mi?
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wahkao..

my bro wore my shirt..

aft i sae i dun wana let him wear..

suan le..

its too late..

shd hv locked up the clothes earlier..

sumtyms i tink to myself..

do we reali hv grudges against each others..

hmm i dun tink so on MY side..

bt on HIS side..

i seriously tink he gt a prob!!

rmb tt dae my cousin de bdae party..

wasnt able to go due to ndp..

sianx..

my cousin ask my mum..

y wb lyk so pop w gals 1 huh?

when i heard fr my mum..

i nearly puke out my dinner..

wthell??

is my cousin jkin or wat?

where did she infer fr..

i wonder..

den my bro told mi it was the frenster testimonials..

ooooo..

n guess wat my bro sae to my cousin..

"aiya he bhb owaz type testi for ppl den ppl write baq to him lor"

i was lyk "wtf~"

i din writre testi for duno hw lo0o0o0ong liao..

last tym i wrote is lyk last yr..

hmm except one which i recently wrote for XJ(unaccepted)

haix..

y own bro oso sae til liddat..

dun understd..

duno la..

i dun bother anw..

as long i din..

means i din..

who cares wat others sae..

jz feelin tt i might one day b stabbed by my own bro..

nt backstab..

bt real knife stab..

haix..

watever..

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wat happens if i drop my hp (cont)
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sum1 pats mi on my arm..

it was qt a shockin pat on my arms..

i nearly fell dn the 7th flr..

heng ar..

i noe who tap on mi la obviously is XJ..

n she claims tt i cudnt recognise her..

ya ryt..

as if..

dun u rmb tt missin sum1 for nearly two yrs wil mk u hard to 4gt hw the person luk lyk..

seems tt im right abt the 1 ear in 1 ear out tingy lor..

haix..

disappointed n sad case..

bt nvm la..

wat to expect nw?

i dun deserve to expect more, do i?

ID agn of cos..

bt tis tym round its a more challengin seat..
the veri front row!!

yea..

last two tyms were lyk 2nd n 3rd row n im complainin..

the 3rd tym is 1st..

hohoho wat can i sae..

when's the 4th tym ,XJ??

waitin for u to tel mi..

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Readin Charlie n the Choc Fact
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Roald Dahl books..

suitable for children..

den wat is a big 20 yr old guy lyk mi doin w the bk??

haha.

read lor..

i tink im missin out alot durin my childhood..

tink its the mentality last tym..

kan bu kai..

owaz tinks tt studies r the utmost impt ting..

until i finalli encounter failures..

den i find out tt once u cun recover fr a failure..

evryting else doesnt matter anymore le..

tis is true enuf..

dun nd for examples le..

hmm..

*long sigh....................

watch w mi k?

dun care..

i "booked" liao =P

bt its stil qt long la..

hope sum1 rmbs..

shd b ard august la..

hope can bu hui my childhood loss..

im readin the bk..

heex..

hope can fin in tym

神, 也是人, 只不过它做了一些, 人做不到的事

2005-06-27T18:35:00.000+08:00

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DotA Noob
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yes yes.. im a DotA noob..

no doubt..

too lo0o0ng nv play..

haix..

why why why??

i tink even if i played a thousand games..

i stil AM a noob..

d'uh..

sianx sianx sianx sianx..

w the negative aura spreadin n spreADIN..

im gttin more n more -ve..

NO.. nt gttin -ve..

bt gttin closer to TRUTH..

I AM A NOOB~~!!..

pls save mi fr noobiness..

SUM1..??

pleeeeeeeaaaaaaaasssssssseeee

HA~..

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GO (a.k.a wei2 qi2)
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hmm..

wei qi..

im oso a noob at tis..

die!! evry game oso noob..

die die die..

tink i beda conc on XJ rather den playin noob games..

so sianx when u kp losin n losin over the same game..

feelin sad..

cos u noe u'll nv ever improve..

unless u dig ur head into the game n play play play..

i DUN WAN..

time-wasting..

arhhhhhhhhh

Wei Qi de interest cums fr Hikaru No Go de comic..

Qi Ling Wang (棋灵王)

uh-oh..

im into COMICS agn..

ehhhh...or shd i sae..

all along readin comic was my interest..

haix..

hw i wish i can b Hikaru

aka 进藤光

aka 阿光

aka 光仔

hohoho..

b a professional chess player n dun nd to attend sch..

eh? isnt tis wat XJ longed for..

hmm can tk note..

i dun lyk sch anymore..

cos sch dun lyk mi any more..

so bobian..

haix..

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My Questionable Personality
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hmm tink my personality qt questionable..

cos i dun tink tt my wds r trusted anymore..

HOW??

i duno..

it seems tt evry little wds i've said..

do not hold a place in ppl's heart..

especially XJ..

XJ nv fails to "luk" at mi in disbliv..

cos evryting i said..

was treated fake..

arrrhhhh..

i rather it being treated as rubbish..

at least rubbish has a place to go eventualli..

where?

to the recyclin centre..

den being used agn..

when wds r treated fake..

they r almost of NON-EXISTENCE..

gt wat i mean??

non existing wds, OF COS, dun hold a place anywhere..

wat m i crappin nw..??

haha..

til nw i stil hven carry out operation secret..

no wonder no one trust mi...

especialli XJ..

cos been tellin XJ tt i gg for "ops sec"

n in the end..

i end up chattin chattin away..

w/o notin the tym..

2dae was qt futile..

no XJ..

so i tink i shd hv tym for the operation..

WAIT..

doesnt mean i wish tt XJ wasnt ard..

jz tt sumtyms..

BCA n other proj stuffs r more impt..

o0opxY..

so nw..

who's XJ btw??

d'uh

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Haircut Day
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TMD..

haircut AGN..

when wil i grow my hair long?

HUH?

jz a S*F parade n wan us to cut hair..

haix..

might as well botak..

waste money..

10 dollar for a nt so pro haircut..

waste my money..

arrrrhhhh..

a little bit more expensive de haircut??

i tink less den 3 weeks needa cut agn..

wat has S*F gota offer??

HUH??

haircut is NOT free btw..

suan le..

tink i shdnt comlain so muc since EVRYBODY tinks tt S8F de soldiers all SLACKERS..

o0o0px..

soldiers??

hmm so TT is the meanin of S*F..

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Initial D
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神, 也是人, 只不过它做了一些, 人做不到的事.

haha..

wat a phrase?!

pls..

do watch ID movie..

cos its damn freakin funnie..

w such movies..

who needs comedies??

u dun nd a comedy-labelled movie to mk u laugh..

personally watched twice..

sianx..

watch til pok gai..

was suggestin to my fren whether we shd go watch ID at GV grand Gold class..

hahax..

SET..

NX PAY DAY~

hehe..

wats wrong w the media nowadays..

i can feel tt they dun rate movies the way they shd..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
JaY movie--->1 star to 2 star

others---> ok lahx.. cos they gt veteran actors even the worst we oso gv THREE stars lor..
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WTF??

pls b more fair when u rate..

if u gg to rate young actors lowly..

den u're reali a shame to the media..

pls..

where can there b room of improvemt when ppl owaz bring u down..

n btw..

initial D dun deserve a lower grade den mr n mrs smith..

even nt for a jay fan or initial d fan..

the show is stil considered VERI gd..

enuf said abt the movie..

damn pissed when pl bring a movie dn liddat..

mayb ppl wil start to lyk ID aft watchin the show..

ha~..

Doctors n Aunties

2005-06-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

~Dr. Lin Weibin~

wah tis name sounds cool..

when wil i gt such a name lehx..

haix..
i tink i'll nv gt de lehx..

bt anw 2dae gt ppl call mi den wana find Dr. LWB..

hahax..

funnie sia..

i oso duno wana sae wat..

1stly the name is correct..

bt the status a bit wrong lehx..

ha~..

nvm lahx..

anw i jz sae wrong num lorx..

call another tym den i jz sae the operson move out liao..

im nt a doctor..

so no nd to entertain him bahx

hahax..

doctor doctor..

越叫越爽 yue jiao yue shuang..

bt is 暗爽 an shuang lahx..

it'll NEVER happen..

HA~

~Auntie~ Stop lukin~

hahax..

nowadaes..

i encounter so mani ppl lyk to peep into other ppl de privacy..

haix..

mayb is reali nth to do bahx..

or mayb is jz an accident lorx..

im on a secret mission too..

guess wat??

its oso concernin privacy issues..

omg~..

its lyk slappin my own mouth sia..

bt who cares..

no matter wat!

im unveiling the TRUTH..

~the truth behind the truth~

hmm..

supposedly is gg to find out todae 1..

bt im damn poor in my tym mgmt..

sum1 gota teach mi hw..

no truth behind any truth 2dae..

nx week the truth will b out..

yea~..

~Another truth Behind A LIE~

ARRRRHHH........!

Victor!!

u gg dn liao..

shit u sia..

din u tel mi tt u wun kpo my stuff..

omg~..

bluff mi..

ytd den noe the truth..

bt nvm lahx..

hope shaunie gvs gd advice..

lolx..

ya GD indeed lorx..

dun even noe wat he said..

tink im dead..

DEADMEAT liao..

sob~..

mz b sth lyk

"jin jin, u too young le.. dun care abt him..! tel him go die.."

haix..

sad dae..

rather sad week..

dun wish to sae muc oso..

jz noe tt stil my cindy aft 12mn..

haha.. lame~

~TiMe Is PrEcioUs~

2005-06-13T19:55:00.000+08:00

~BLoGgIe~

hahax..

who saes i dun hv tym to do my blog??

HUH HUH HUH??

purposely bk outis to do blog lorx..

den can link the pink chocholate to my blog mahx..

so ez de logic dun nd to sae bahx..

"nvm hw ppl tink.. as long as i tink wat i am can ald ©"

tis phrase copyrighted de..

so mz put a © to indicate..

else prep to b slapped in ur dreams or nitemare by the ald dead cinderella..

she might go find u aft 12 midnite..

YES aft her last dance w her prince lorx..

den she'll go find u..

BOO~!

anyhw, im gg to write a cinderella story soon..

(o0o0px hw cum i use the wd "anyhw"?? i oso duno wat it means.. bt dimsum lyk to use lehx.. duno y?)

WHAHAHAHA..

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~new clothing~ (for the poor..)

yea im the poor..

do i hv tym to go buy anot??

hv to multi task..

aarrrhh..

chat on msn

plus eat my chicken rice dinner

plus dl gundam seed

plus upload "matchstick heaven" into the blog

wah so mani..

den bloody ripway dun lemme upload cos i upload more den 10 mb de files..

cos i tryin to trail n error til i upload the song more den two tyms..

aaaaaaarrrrhhh hlp mi....

nx week den can do agn le..

buy clothes duno lai de ji mahx..

c wat tym the msn chat ends lorx..

tink is i too lor sor liao..

hahax..

anyhw(o0o0px agn).. if no tym buy den dun buy le..

hehex..

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"if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha"

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha

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wah such hurtin remarks..

tink onli wil cum out fr ur mouth (agn, using HER MOUTH is kindda a rude sentence lahx)..

ok lahx..

i dun mind lahx..

dun depress bcos of tis..

depression aura dun anyhw spread wor..

else ltr i kana liao in Army wil kil myself de..

haix..

ok tink tts it for 2nite..

omg~ bkin in at ard 10 plus..

damn..

y the bk out seem so short..

haix haix haix..

last bt nt least..

"if u come amkss i tink we wont noe each other ald...... haha"

HAIX

ToOk Off To ReSt..

2005-06-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

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~ N-D-P-® ~
(National Day Parade Rehearsal)

Explanation of initials for NON-ARMY personnel..hehe..

abit gey zuah (redundant) bt nvm lahx..

sianx..

damn hot..

perspirin ALL the way..

piggy-baq my wife (man-pack)..

abit heavy..

den hv to follow dimsum walk thru most of the vehicle "waves" to chk the comms..

most of em, well, din even tune to the correct freq..

damn..

waste my strength piggy baq..

nvm..

at least gt train strength lorx..

1st tym went OUT for NDP rehearsals..

last tym is stay in camp do comms..

bt nw.. i feel tt go Tuas is beda den doin OPS RM...

yea.. bt qt shag if evrytym hv to offer piggy-baq..

nx week stil gt 1 more at TUAS..

gg PADANG So0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0n......

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~The Smith's AGAIN~

last entry wrote abt the corked up "b4-movie experience"

4gt to comment abt of cos i noe the title is nt ..D'uh~

wah tis show is damn nice n chim..

until i oso duno wat the story abt..

tot is Brad assassin n A.J is C.I.A..

hahax.. den in the end xiaoQ tel mi is both assassins competin w each other for business..

ok shan't b a spoiler here..

so i jz reveal the trailer gt sae de part enuf liao..

i din watch trailer mahx..

so the story lyk qt new to mi..

bt anw..

its 1 of the BEST movie seen tis yr..

n i mean ENGLISH film..

well for CHINESE film..

needless to sae..

its gona b INITIAL D liao la..

no nd fight..

ald won..

even b4 its shown..

hahax..

paisae..

diehard JaY fan here so abit biased..

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~PiNkChOcS AGAIN~

hmm... reali can link ar??

askin nt bcos i scared who will read my blog or wat lahx..

i nt so hum4 de lehx..

hahax..

i nd to ask den link mahx..

duno u mind anot..

bt anw.. i link liao lahx..

n btw i link ur blog bt ppl readin ur blog wun gt to read mine..

yes its a ONE-way tingy..

alot ppl lyk misunderstd liao..

even xiaoQ oso mistken..

xiaoQ saw ppl de blog gt link to my bloggie den sae is i put my bloggie on ppl blog myself..

omg~.. i onli can do TT if i hv the person acct lahx..

so all in all..

its one way lahx..

linkin blog is easY..

jz needa chg the template part..

luk for the google-news link..

den chg it to other ppl de bloggie addie..

tada~!

DONE !

noe hw to link n dun link mi u noe the CONSEQUENCES lorx..

few TIGHT SLAPS..

more den enuf..

heex..

hope u stil doin fine in sch..

seek hlp when in doubt..

in deeper doubt..

ask MI MI MI..

lyk to learn new stuf..

yea..

nitex to U..

n mi too..

yawnx..

tiring daY..

A NeW BloG Is BorneD/BornT (watever the spellin is la)

2005-06-11T20:50:00.000+08:00

~PiNkChOcS (purposely omitted SUM wds to mk it sound tastier.. hmm YuMmY) ~

yeah~.. Finalli sum1 decides to cr8 her own blog for ppl to PeEKaBoO..

hmm.. can i link? or mayb nt lahx..

since i ald noe the addie..

link oso no use..

hahax..

anw lemme noe whether i can link IF u happen to pass by here..

or r u too bz w ur own blog le??

hmm.. tts shd b the spirit..

nt lyk mi..

sumtyms dun even to update..

too bz w my comp..

gvin mi so0o0o0 muc probx..

RAM probx..

connection prox..

aiya..u name it..

i GT it..

hahax..

tink i dl too mani Anime liao..

nt naruto den is Initial D..if nt.. Gundam Seed..

wah lyk so mani anime episodes to watch hor??

bt i dun wach em..

too lazy n bz..

watch 1 episode tks roughly abt 30 mins..

incl the startin song n the endin song..

bt normalli i skipped those..

so mainly is 25 mins per episode..

4 episodes--->1 DotA game..

omg~..

shd i invest my tym in DotA or wat??

~dillemma~.. speliin sux here..no tym to chk liao.. gota bk in soon.. damn..

tink i beda plan wat to do over the NEXT wkend carefully lohx..

else wil b wastin my tym away away n away..

hmm..

bt nth can b foresee de lahx..

who noes..

nx week..

msn might hv my "chat-worthy" "FREN"..

den i wud rather msn-ing her whole wkend lohx..

ya tis is prioritise "activity"

else ltr nv prioritise wil kana *slap*..

tt tym ald try to "heyx" abit ltr liao..

den kana scold..

wun dare try agn..

hohoho..

arrrrrrghhh~

nx wkend..

nx seven or so daes..

reali hard to pass..

DAMN~

~ACCT~

tis wd doesnt mean ACCOUNT..

it means the bloody "ADVANCED CLOSE COMBAT TRAINING"

aiya..

duno is advanced or wat shit lahx..

who cares wat the "A" stds for..

as long ppl noe its painful can le..

ya.. painful..

kana slammed by instructor 1 tym i ald neck gg to brk..

til nw stil gt ache..

sianx..

lucki gt my revenge aft slammin lyk 15 or so of my platoon mates..

yea..

evry throw is hard bt safe..

wun breach the safety..

bt i throw ppl nv breach safety..

KNN.. si da niu throw mi liao release his hand..

damn.. head knock agnst the hard grass patch..

nearly concussed (agn, the spellin oso 4gt liao)

wakao.. daniel.. nx tym grab properly lohx..

nw stil pain sia..

bt duno izit solely ur fault..

wanted to throw ALEX hard..

bt KNN.. he grabbed my hand so tight tt i nearly went dn w him..

wtf~.. ALEX tryin to play cheat here..

bt nvm..

eventualli he was thrown w force by the rest of the platoon mates..

bt stil he din 4gt to grab the throwers' hand tightly..

wah reali sianx.. when i c him..

canot lemme slam him properly MEHX??

wun die lahx..

jz pain..

"PAIN IS TEMPORARY, DEATH IS A RELEASE"

whaha.. saw tis on the carplate of one of the cars in camp..

APT indeed~!

~The Smith's~

b4 tokin abt the show..

shall tok abt wat happen to mi b4 the show..

kai sae watch movie at CATHAY..

hmm CATHAY..

sounds foreign to mi..

WHERE huh??

duno.. ask bro..

he sae CINELEISURE..

o0o0pX!

i go CINELEISURE so mani tyms din notice tt its actualli CATHAY de cinema..

whahaha reali is damn paisae..

nx tym i shall open eyes bigger n observe tingx ard mi..

mayb is last tym i reali is the "XTREME FOLLOWER" type..

follower as in im nv the LEADER..

i jz follow frens..

they go where i go where..

dun even bother to mk decisions..

hahax..

nw im eating the "BACK FRUITS" 后果..

hahax..

ya back fruits..

tis is wat my mum owaz sae..

when she tries hard to speak eng..

she CREATES funnie wds...

such as tis lorx..

ya kindda cute in a way..

eekx... mum cute??

sounds funnie.. bt true..

those who hv seen her b4..

hahax.. shd noe la..

den when i reach somerset..

realise i actualli duno hw to walk to CINELEISURE..

whahahaha..

okok.. call mi orchard NOOB..

watever names u can tink of..

reali is funnie lorx..

i felt myself funnie too..

nt the 1st few tyms i went orchard..

bt i stil din noe hw to walk there..

amazingly..

i jz went there recently..

hmm..

any1 can tel mi symptoms (argh spellin agn.. izit lyk tis ? ) of AMNESIA??

amnesia cfm spelled correctly..

bt symptoms..

hmm duno lehx..

old liao memory failin..

hope those happy memories stay...

sad memories??

nt mani actualli..

so hopefully they stay as well..

FAKE-KO agn??

hahax.. watever u sae/feel..

HAIXXX... sigh.. SIGH...

gota bk in agn..

bkin in earlier n earlier..

aft ATEC gt welfair? privileges?? (izit double "L" ? )

MY HEAD AR..!!

bk in earlier n earlier is worse den b4 ATEC..

TMD..

sianx liao la..

anime hvn dl n watch fin mz bk in liao..

ltr den sms my bro n tel him cont my "legacy" lahx..

PS: ( if u tink it stds for plt sgt, pls *toot* off.. i HATE him.. NO WHY!!)

if u stil nd hlp w ur new-born "baby"

feel free to ask mi lorx..

dun sae its botherin mi..

if u DUN ask mi..

IT WILL BE BOTHERIN MI..

ARGH.. feel lyk dyin

2005-06-06T18:12:00.000+08:00

~Uni dun wan mi~

din gt into any of em..
my own fault.. cun blame any1.. haix..

~Photos for ben ben, bear bear n chong bdae~

hey heyx.. sae cheezeeeeeeeeeee
des luks TALL.. hahax

canot born on same dae bt mz die on same dae.. DIE~!

ben ben tinkin: "who's eyeing my PIZZA~?

did xiao joo do it.. omg~.. din wait for mi..

zhiliang, joo n qupid

ben ben, umbearlla n chong

des tryin to b the cut cake expert.. at least i gt the chocolatey one.. thx~

my half blood brother at the top end.. hahax

bdae boyssss agn

~FAKE-KO~

been called fake-ko lyk duno hw mani tyms 2dae..

sianx..

relai duno wats so fake sia..

sae de tingx no one blivs..

ok lahx..

at least SUMBODY dun..

hahax..

nvm lahx..

stil small.. dun understd..

whaha..

hey u 1st de sia..

den kana scold for nt heying 1st..

sianx..

nx tym the action mz fast fast liao..

2dae is lyk so0o0o0o0 freakin free..

chat on msn..

ok onli 1 lo0o0o0ong chat..

n i was accused of tokin to other gals as well..

omg~

honestly wasnt doin tt ok..

guyx gt lahx..

hahax..

~ob-SCENE~

army truck (prob a 5-tonner) slowin dn in front of NP bus tops to luk at gals there..

wtf~..

damn sick w such ppl..

DRIVERS most prob..

cos PASSENGERS oso see nth fr inside..

WHY??!!! mz gv army boys tis type of -ve impression..

omg~..

shd charge tt bloody driver..

for gg there purposely..

NP wat date open i oso duno..

ask liao dun wan sae..

i was askin so mani ppl..

guess asked wrong ppl bahx..

bt anw.. its over le..

no pt brooding..

brood more sad more..

noe i wana go n din tel mi..

sianx..

PURPOSELY DE..

ARGH!!

went novena sq last fri..

saw the person i dun wish to see..

bt nvm left shortly aft tt..

bought dessert fr food jxn over there..

den there was tis auntie suddenly in front of mi when im queuein up..

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auntie : bo bo cha cha yi wan..

vendor : erm.. *luks at mi*

jayugi gvs the go ahead nod..

vendor : nahx.. auntie.. ni de.. damn fast..

damn fast.. less den 15 secs.. tink she gv the auntie the overnite 1..
whahax..

vendor : hen mei you li mao hor? (no manners ryt?) cut queue..

jayugi : *qt paisae.. er bu yong jin lahx lao ren bu yong jin lahx (nvm lahx.. old ppl so nvm lorx..)

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haix..

old ppl shd b respected..

bt did they abuse their rights..

cut queue small case lahx..

anw nt rushin for tym too..

bt if more ppl were to encounter such incidents agn..

they'll hv bad impressions for em lorx..

so shd try to b more erm.. gd..

duno wats "good"

so aiya.. nvm.. jz continue cuttin queues..

ha~

~MSN~

shd i hate it or luv it..

duno lehx..

kp gvin probs..

either is deliver the msg slow or BESt still..

nv deliver at all..

mk mi sound lyk a cockanathan sumtyms in conversations..

cun even hv a proper cinversation sia..

so in the end..

the party nt gttin the replies will dl n offline lorx..

sry..

tink is my comp fault..

sianx..
when m i gttin those RAMS???

512MB / 1 GB ?

cun mk up my mind..

wait til payday den can decide beda..

cos richer den i tink wil cfm buy the more EX 1 whaha..

yea tis is hw i spend..

tingx to buy < $550 = DEAL~! ( lyk wat Stanley saes ) aft tt jz mark out a grass patch outside my hse.. den eat for the rest of the mth.. whaha.. nt a bad idea.. since i lyk to MEH so muc.. can go bcum a goat.. ha~.. nt funnie at all.. no sch means no joke ideas fr classmates.. den the whole person lyk bcum nt so funnie anymore.. nt lyk last tym de jayugi.. nw de is so.... boring person.. dun lyk to joke alot.. evryting oso sianx.. when can i revert baq.. t the oldself.. where i can joke abt evryting i said.. evryting ppl said.. or did i experience sth lyk : " IF U TINK TT ANNOYIN PPL MKS U HAPPI DEN GO AHEAD.."

sth liddat..

dun wish to rmb anymore..

haix..

or mayb

"Do u tink tt evryting is a JOKE?"

too jokey reali is nt too gd..

~下一站天王 (next stop KING)~

damn sianx..

kp overshootin mrt stations..

tt tym go watch Madagascar w Miz they all den supposedly is at PS Dhoby Ghaut..

den duno wat i doin stop at City Hall..

wtf~..

den in the end late..

went to bdae celeb at California Pizza Kitchen..

supposedly is at the Forum..

den in the end i tk train til Somerset..

wtf~..

1 stop overshot..

damn..

late agn..

omg~..

reali can sae is xia yi zhan tian wang sia..

evrytym oso 1 stop over..

hahax..

~ReCoGnItIoN~

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Interviewer : hw do u mk urself recognise SUMONE..

Interviewee (most prob is ARSE-->JaYuGi) : erm.. missin her evry moments..

Interviewer : sry mister.. can u dun b so fake, fake-ko.. NEXT PLS...

Interviewee (JaYuGi) : NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...
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hahax..

meant to b a JOKE..

nt funnie ryt??

cos it happened in real life

I KNEW IT !

SEE..

no one's laughin..

NS mks mi so boring..

note : nt bored bt BORING..

my england standard stil there lorx..

sigh~ another lame n slack dae passed..

interestin site

2005-06-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

crush.com

INTERESTIN...

paisae.. prev link was wrong.. tias 1 is the correct 1..

came across tis site fr my fren's blog n lyk to share w ppl over here..

hmm duno is true anot bt i find it 90% true lorx..

hmm veri accurate la..

try it =)

LiFe DURIN ATEC stage 2

2005-05-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

++++++++++++++
Day 1 - 16 05 2005
++++++++++++++

moved out fr saigang camp @ 1400h..

tis tym is aft waitin for lyk FOUR freakin hours den we start to move..

INEFFICIENT, YES!

no doubt..

we cun gt recon 1..

i hope we gt it though..

den wil hv our "carrot"=5 daes off..

weather freakin HOT!!..

had to std under the SUN for damn long..

doin sentry duty for a REDUNDANT purpose--> GUARD THE BCS BAGS.. WTF~

OBVIOUSLY!! nobody wil steal em..

omg~.. can yak b MORE flexible??

or he's jz out to tekan mi..

ha~ watever the reason..

i stil gota do it..

BECAUSE IM A MAN..
as in im nt a COMMANDER..

UNDERSTD??

A MAN HAS TO OBEY his COMMANDER.. (SUMTYMS)..

WELL TING GT BEDA AFT td CAME..

HE TOOK OVER THE SENTRY..

DID HE?

I 4GT..

bt he's SUPPOSED to tk over lahx..

anw i was perspirin all the way..

despite the idiot-proof method pEi taught mi..

FANNING~!!!

ya fannin w a pc of paper..

wil hlp abit bt still..

the weather is too hot for mi to stop perspirin..

<ONCE START CUN STOP> is the 口诀 for fannin myself..

night falls fast.. nw waitin for movin out fr the conc area @ ONE am..

wtf~..

tokin abt flexibility here..

ONE am wake up nx dae gt strength mehx??

duno..

pity those combat teams..

bt anw if tts wat they wan..

we gv lorx..

as long as they dun regret..

ha~..

when i was in my BV206..

a thought came to my mind..

31st may bu jiu shi ndp off-in-lieu lorx..

hmm.. oso 1st dae of NP classes..

GOOD!

i shall mk a 2pid 1st move..

go NP n c whether pEi there anot..

den mayb aft tt can redeem my aptril treat..

slim chances of findin her bti've lost far too mani chances 2 yrs baq..

cun afford another..

will fate has eyes to see n heart to feel..

no idea at all..

will i see her tt dae??

do i WISH to see her tt dae..

no idea too..

nt too despo..

************************************

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Day 2 - 17 05 2005
++++++++++++++

s|anx wat ym nia..

i ald wake up liao..

eh? actualli din slp at all..

so there's no nd to wake up..

HAHAX..

movin out at 1 am..

duno gg where bt anw oso hv to follow..

no purpose journey..

RAINED the whole dae..

tis means the cbt teams have to suffer agnn..

in the rain..

while im in the vehicle..

no beda..

rain dripped thru the holes in the freakin old vehicle n most of my stuff were wet n slimy mixed
w mud..

i CUN go out of the vehicle at all..

shit!!..

as usual..

TD wasnt mannin his comms..

n i've do his job..

damn sianx n irritatin when i've to double as 85S..

omg~..

when will TD stop gvin mi probs..

lyk nt in the mood to ans the comms..

wat the hell..

as if im in the mood..

haix..

benn veri dulan w the MO n snr medic liao..

hope my hatred for em doesnt fill my heart..

else i reali will burst out in anger..

bth...

is ntthe siongness tt mk mi bth..

is the mental stress when wkin under em..

imaginin aft hvin a bad fall open wound n stil hv to go out n tolerate for 3-4 daes b4 gttin it
treated??

hard to tolerate bt i choose tis way cos its the onli way..

no one will pity weakilings..

tts for sure..

most of em pretend to care bt deep dn "u're WEAK"

well for sum..

yes..

they do care..

bt there's a limit to hw far they can hlp..

there's an incident when the MO came over to mi..

MO : hey wb hw's ur leg?

mi : okay lahx.. nt tt pain nw bt is qt itchy.. scared it worsen aft few daes..

MO :hmm... mz tk care ok? bt there's a cure lahx.. u noe wat izit?

mi :*curious n ignorant* WAT??

MO : aft ord lorx..sure will heal 1..

mi :* fuk* oic.. hahax (gvin the nt funnie laugh)

such sarcastic comments can kp to urself CHRIS..

i dun nd such comments at TIS pt in tym..

hw to survive such commanders for few more daes..

gg mad soon..

dun wish to see him most of the tym..

knee gvin mi probs n more painful..

ARGGGGGGGGHHHHH..

where on earth did the pain came fr??

tink its infected sia..

shit man..

hope tmr it heals more..

ya w/o medicine see can heal anot..

ha~..

jz pray pray pray..

tmr hopefully is the last dae le..

bt its jz wishful tinkin..

hahax..

will onli end on thurs i tink..

n a late 1..

2 more daes n im out..

quick quick quick..

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Day 3 - 18 05 2005
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no mood to write anymore..

cos TD is nt mannin his comms at all..

n i kana rush to do tingx tt r nt impt..

sianx..

yak tel mi comms S4..

den walk away..

wat the hell??!!!

den i duno call him for wat..

in the end..

"nth further"

lame ryt??

ask mi to call den nv sae wat ting..

shit~!

pc of shit..

arghhh..

tmr ...

hmm tmr n im out..

wun see yak n chris fr tmr onwds..

YEA~..

dun wish to see their face at all..

shame to the army medical corp..

hw can they do tt to their patients..

do they owaz tink tt patients in the army r to b taken lightly??

haix..

they r humans too..

can they at least show sum concern for the sick??

nt EVRYBODY who reported sick is geng..

well..

actualli to my blif..

none is geng..

jz the degree of severity of each person..

light injuries shd oso b gven care ryt???????????????

lucki vehicle brkdn halfway..

tts y less mvmt..

bt more of the craps fr em..

yak : hey wb.. cum eat ICE CREAM!!

mi : (*fuk* im here for outfield nt for picnic) errr... no thx u all go ahead..

yak : cum eat.. gt alot..

mi : i dun wan.. gv alex since he lyk it so muc..

yak : ok (sensin my dulanness w him for the veri 1st tym..)

nearly evrydae..

they eating fresh rations..

sardines..

instant noodles..

evryting tt is commercialise..

wat the hell..

n they kp offerin mi..

I DUN WAN>>

im wearin green hello?

n im outfield ATEC..

siaox..

needa mk til lyk picnic mehx..

ha~..

TD, aft eatin my share of ice cream, saes tt im godlyk..

hahax..

ya..

不食人间烟火。。

true enuf..

i dun wan to behave slack..

cbt teams out there sufferin..

duno wat they eatin bt definitely nt lyk em eatin fresh evrydae..

kua zhang bt true..

evrybody might b eatin tis way bt i jz bu shuang yak n chris behving liddat when they wayang in front of higher ranks..

omg~..

FAKE-KO~~~

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Day 4 - 19 05 2005
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yuhooo..

last dae lohx..

wat tym wil reach camp..

nt sure at the start..

n ppl might nw wonder..

hw cum i gt tym to write durin out field..

well..

its durin my slpin hrs den i write lorx..

反正 onli gv us 1 hr slp might as well stay awake n write sth to kill tym..

no pt slpin for an hour..

phew..

jz gt a news tt we gg baq soon bcos sndin a NO DUFF casualty to camp..

so we'll lyk go baq half an hour earlier den the rest..

ha~..

n guess wat..

no duff casualty is onli a small cut on the finger..

compared to the bigger wound on TD's n my knees??

omg~..

if they're jz using the small cut patient as an excuse to go baq early.. might as well tel mi..

i b their no duff lorx..

reali bth their slackin style..

reali is flawless mi..

bt anw..

i oso gt to go baq early..

n mayb go baq camp n let ppl sae i slack lorx..

cun hlp de lahx..

ppl owaz sae wat came to their minds..

few ppl wil actualli put emselves in ur shoes n feel for u..

ha~..

half an hr earlier onli n slackers, we are..

o0opxY..

speakin lyk yoda..

even though i hven watch starwars 3 yet..

hahax..

aiya dun care le lahx..

sae watever they wan n jz pray tt they finalli understd tt MO Signallers r nt tt gd life for mi..

AT LEAST..

for TD..??

WELL . . . . . . . . . . .

LiFe BEFORE ATEC stage 2

2005-05-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

guess wat?

its atec stage 2..

aft tis..

(hopefully) there wud b resting for mi!

hven reali been restin well since the dae i entered the Army..

its either mental or physical stress..

anytym..anywhere..

when there's no exercise, i can rest in bunk..

but cun do anyting cos canot slp canot play.. EVRYTING oso canot..

ya..

can stone lahx..

tts ALL..

haix..

my feet is reali bu ting hua..

kp gvin mi probs..

tts y most of the tym is on excuse / status..

well..

commanders seem to CARE n might excuse u for SOME saigang..

ppl often luk at u with you se de yan jing bcos of ur :handicap"..

izit reali wrong to report sick?

haix duno..

nw i hear of report sick i oso pa4 pa4 le..

mayb report sick durin veri veri slack tyms den ppl wun sae u geng lorx..

(aft atec?)

ha~.. c hw..

2dae den i noe TD gt a veri bad fall wound on his left knee..

hmmmmmm...

he watch ID too muc i tink..

drift w his bicycle..

hahax..

if tis is the case den guess he cun replace mi do dismount role le bahx..

bt SUAY SUAY i oso fell dn 2dae..

shit man..

it has been so0o0o0o0o0o0 lo0o0o0ng since my last fall..

2dae suay suay kana tis fall is reali veri suay..

HA~

bleedin wound..

abrasion i tink..

bt i wun b serious if i gt it treated b4 gg off for ATEC..

bt well..

if i go treat the wound..

ppl will sae "GENG"

freakin hell..

wat to do?

b4 exercise fall dn is i suay lorx.

tink wait til atec over den treat it bahx..

ha~

damn PAINFUL!!

ARGHHHHHHH!!..

bt its nt as bad as TD's..

bt either way..

i've told TD tt NONE of us gg to do dismount w tis kinda wound!!??

so no worries for mi n him..

open wounds cun possibly gt contact w SWAMPS!!!

who noes tis tym wat kinda terrain we r walkin..

beda nt risk..

i wun wana gt soil disease(melloisis, izit spelled liddat? cun b bothered to chk) for tis..

well our DEAR medicl officer chris saes no dismount cfm plus CHOP so i guess it shd b fine for mi
n TD..

hmm...

bt TT doesnt stop my feet fr rottin away..away.. n away..

Tkin a luk at life in a diff way

2005-05-02T16:18:00.000+08:00

~LiFe's LiDDaT~

hmm..

"hven been bloggin for long.."

hahax..

most ppl owaz start w tis phrase..

ya i guess it occurs to most ppl bahx..

happen to cum across my BOSS's blog..

o0opx..

actualli nt "happen to cum across" lahx..

is ppl gimme de..

lol..

learn qt alot of tingx fr there..

there's reali alot of tingx in tis world tt is stil unknown to mi..

at least i hven experience it b4 bahx..

"Betrayal.."

real bad..

i wudnt even dare tink hw will i react if i were him..

haix..

at least he's able to zhen zuo n cont w his life..

its a veri painful BUT yet meaningful experience for him..

mayb nw..

he wun trust ppl easily..

jz lyk SUM1..

who dun trust..

at all..

WHY??

haix..

"y do SUM ppl OWAZ tink tt the rest of the world is nt SINCERE at all.."

the world is veri simple..

at least i tink tis way..

n i stil do nw..

there's reali NO need to mk it more complicated..

~made U pissed agn~

haix..

yes its mi agn..

n its duno the hw mani tyms i made U pissed..

argh..

i dun tink b4 i speak bahx..

tts y pissed ppl off..

haix..

din noe tt actualli ppl is all the while tolerating my way of speech..

guess i've to revert to my old ways le bahx..

less wds...

more wk..(ok lahx.. most of the tym is no wk lahx)

less wds den ppl wun go n converse w mi den no conflicts at all..

HW ideal is TT?

den jz live life normalli n dun tink too muc lorx..

mayb life'll b beda tis way..

ya..

i tink so..

nvm shall try it out..

reali sry fr wat i've said..(will U b visitin here?)

aiya oso dun care so muc liao lahx..

if gt den gd lorx..

den if dun hv is i suay lorx..

hope u've read the HOTmail too..

=)

~wkend blues~

1st: i pissed ppl off..

2nd: i TINK i've made sina n the rest disappointed

3rd: rejected ~Jas~ steamboat gtherg

haix..

when will i b less LAZY ? ?

do i reali hv to slap myself hard for mkin ppl life miserable?

sianx..

duno wat to do..

if i dun hv to bk in early 2dae..

i tink i can go for a movie treat by sina..(o0opxY?! shd b a treat ryt? lolx)

haix 2bad hv to bk in at 8+ to settle india crates.. wtf?!

i din go India n i stil hv to settle the crates in the containers..

eat in to my off-in-lieu too...

FISH~..

beda mk sure they compensate half dae off for the WHOLE platoon..

bt anw EVRYbody is gg baq so i guess i shdnt complain too muc bahx..

*slap*

->sina:

paisae..

cun mk it for the movie..

disappoint u guyx..

bt rest assured..

i owe u a treat..

bt duno when i'd b free..

sad~..

sae lyk nv sae..

hahax..

u din reply so i duno u gt rcv anot lahx..

~woot JaY~

woohoo..

jz saw the tv special of sum music awards presentation..

JaY gt so mani awards..

reali is 吊。。

(ok the diao3 by ryt gt a 尸 on top bt my chi prog dun hv the wd..)

sad..

hahax..

i kp sayin "sad"..

bt i reali feel sad lahx..

so mani tingx tt i din achieve..

WOW..

it reali dates baq to lo0o0ong lo0o0ong ago..

studies sux..

$$ nt enuf (been spendin all my life w/o any savings)..

relationship..

hmm...

a BIG "HAIX"

real sucky..

let ppl dn bcos i was too stubborn..

too stubborn w the thought tt there's realli TRUE LUV..

hmm..

yes i stil bliv in it nw..

mayb until sum saints/sages cum n tel mi to go die n stop dreamin..

izit worth tinkin abt the person tt u noe u cun luv?

hmm duno..

20 yrs of life on earth n i stil tink its worth the wait..

~InItIaL D~

Yeah~

Initial D : the Movie is gg to b out SOON..

31 MAY..

tts wat jolin (msn fren) told mi..

hope she's ryt..

cause been waitin for damn lo0ong liao..

last yr til nw kp hearin it'll b out 2005 bt duno when..

hoho..

gt movie means gt OST..

gt OST means gt JaY songs..

WooT~..

mz b NICE songs..

ya his songs r mostly nice..

hope he writes more such songs..

~>Anti-JaY fans:

thx for noticin his talents..

n all the while been so mindful of his music n singin style..

lolx..

hope u all cont to "support" him..

=)

~NaRuTo~

shiok..

hven been watchin naruto for qt lo0o0ong..

一次过 watch le 25 episodes..

fr 51 to 75..

lolx..

bt damnit!!

climax jz started at 75 n it ended...

argh hven dl the 76-100 episodes..

shall ask my bro do it over the wkend n i can watch nx wkend..

YEAH~

Gaara..

Sasuke..

Naruto..

Hmm..

tingx gg to gt exciting!!

TV reali veri nice to watch..

jz found out..

no wonder pEi lyks to watch SO0O0O0 muc..

娱乐百分百 showin 许玮纶..

wah pretty..

last tym she small tym is so ugly..

as said by herself..

den her mother cried..

wtf~..

gt such mother?

haix..

luks matters mehx?

haiyo~ duno lahx..

bt anw nw is pretty liao..

so i guess iouter appearances r reali fake lahx..

who noes wat u'll luk lyk in future??

n most imptly !!

who cares?

is tis entry lo0o0ong enuf??

whaha..

tink is qt lo0ong liao..

no tym to cont anw..

Last Wds for the DaY:

~>Boss-- u're doin GREAT.. kp it up..

~>pEi-- reali sry for wat i've said.. seekin forgiveness nw..

~>sina n jas--paisae paisae.. nx tym treat u baq!?

~i SAW U~

2005-04-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

~FoR YoU~

since long i hv "CONTACT"ed U le..

erm wats "contact"?

i oso duno ur definition of tis wd..

same ting for the wd "CHANCE"..

u dun gv mi a definition at all..

duno is ur webmessenger rcv reply abit slow or wat..

cos hv to wait damn lo0ong for u to reply..

mayb u stil hv ur other frens to reply to bahx..

hahax..

duno la..

hmm..

tis thurs 21st apr..

i finalli saw u at the cafe..

cos gt ALOT of tyms i go there i onli c TT person in his TRUCKER cap..

n a veri veri frenly malay guy there..

hahax..

n yes i mean ALOT of tyms..

den fr den onwds.

i tot shd b at other branches le bahx..

bt so qiao tt dae gt a medical appt on tt dae den walk past gt c U lahx..

i scared u c mi..

cos u ald sae if wana mit den mit properly liao mahx..

once agn..

hv to sae its jz a coincidence lahx..

dun mind k?

sry shortie o0opxY..

n ya..

y i lyk owaz nv c u there de lehx..

weird~!

unless u're cookin inside bahx..

hahax..

SORRIE~

its a sincere SORRIE..

i hope u can feel it..

n btw u no nd to sae sry to mi..

u din cause the troubles caused..

its mi..

n ya..

for watever reasons ..

u're NOT req'd to sae sry to any ting??

k? =)

i wasted an opportunity to tel u the above stuffs in REAL tym..

well tts my own fault..

hmm..

..

..

hahax..

so mani dots...

creatin suspense for wat im gg to sae below..

saw u on 210405..

WAT A DAY!!

dun u rmb wat dae it is??

its exactly 4 mths u're there..

if im nt wrong u started wk there at 211204..

ur 4th mth there..

hehex..

paydaY liao..

no wonder so special go wk on TT dae..

hmm..

so fast ald gg to reach May soon..

sch reopens for u soon too..

n ya..

WHERE"S MY APRIL TREAT??

humph~..

bt nvm lahx..

i oso nv gv U a reason to treat MI..

n btw y the treat?

i dun rmb u owe mi lehx..

so i tink jz 4gt it bahx..

unless u rmb hw u owe mi 1 bahx..

haix..

dun tink wil c u agn at the cafe anymore bahx..

cos my medical appt is lyk in May/June period..

sianx..

by den u ald stop wk le i guess..

or u'll stil b gg baq??

nt sure..

bt anw hv to c when i'll b free to drop by there agn if im free..

went in to eat b4..

hmm atmosphere is nice..

great music there..

food wise..

erm..

nt reali TT nice for TT price bahx..

n ya the choc mud cake i lyk alot lehx..

i owaz da bao fr there..

b4 i bk in on sun..

din c mi??

hahax..

well i din c u too..

the malay guy there is damn funnie..

hmm duno gt hw mani malay guy lahx..

bt gt 1 is damn polite de lahx..

i was coughin non-stop while eatin my lunch there..

den as i cough... i luk ard to c whether im coughin too loud disturbin the rest of the customer..

hahax..

den the malay guy tot i was hintin to him for MORE water..

den he came refill the glass although it was onli lyk 3/4 left..

haiyo~..

do i reali luk TT fierce as a customer..

omg~..

onli ting tt mks mi luk "fierce" is mayb i was in my uniform bahx..

bobian bkout for medical appt mz wear uniform..

well if u noe who tis malay guy im referin to..

can tel him relac abit when serving customer lahx..

no nd gan jiong lahx..

on the other hand..

there was tis guy wearin a trucker cap in the cafe..

u shd noe who he is bahx..

n btw i ald who HE is lahx..

gt name tag de mahx..

im smartie rmb?

qt rude lahx..

duno y lehx..

i buy cake nia den luk at his name tag as he walked past mi..

gv mi a weird stare n walk off..

tsk~..

n i dun tink he noes who i m at TT pt in tym lahx..

so i guess he's doin it to sum other customers as well bahx..

anw its NOMB lahx..

can tel him to tk care of his job liao..

wkin in the service line reali require alot of politeness bahx..

if so bu gan yuan wk den tink its beda to quit lorx..

------------Start of the SLOW story------------

HE msg mi nt to fan U..

YOU tel mi nt to bother abt HIM..

well i heed ur advice..

HE msg mi nt to fan YOU agn..

well i bohue him n cont "fanning" U..

now..

U tel mi we shdnt contact for a period of tym cos too mani tings happen beyond ctrl..

hmm i oso listen lorx..

since u sae its for EVRYBODY"S GD..

so i guess if i "contact" U w/o HIM noeing..

shd b alritee bahx..

bt hw cum can feel u dun feel lyk tokin liao..

hmm..

nt tryin to HINT at anyting..

bt jz to let U noe hw LOST i AM nw..

do u feel lost too aft wat i've said??

hmm.. no??

haix nvm..

--------End of the SLOW story----------

tot u sae HE will listen to u de mahx??

den u can jz tel him to stop buggin mi mahx..

u shd noe wat i mean lahx..

bt anw..

who cares wat he can do to mi??

if u're worryin abt tis..

i gg to LOL le lorx..

there r tings im capable of tt he doesnt even can do k??

so u can dun nd to wori abt mi if u EVER did..

~HaIrCuT~

OMG~

gona gt a haircut 2dae liao..

n which means tt i gona face the GAY hairdressers agn..

argh~..

haix nvm lahx..

no tym to choose where to gt my haircut liao..

Peaceful DaY.. bt im nt glad at all..

2005-04-17T20:34:00.000+08:00

hmm..

2dae is reali a peaceful dae for mi..

no DoTA w my frens n no go out..

sianx..

nobody in msn to chat to..

mayb is i too sianx to chat liao..

damn the FTX~

hai mi kana FOOROT AGN..

ARGH~!

is so SIANX to kana FOOTROT bcos wil b on status lyk abt 2-3 weeks..

haix.. den commanders wil kbkb ALOT..

even u din hear..

u noe they r toking abt U..

frens too..

u FOOTROT they oso FOOTROT..

bt they dun report sick..

cos they can heal faster..

I CUN..

skin prob causing all tis..

arrrrrrrrrgh..

hated ECZEMA ALOT nw..

to shengjie : its nt ECZEMIA wor..

whahahax..

SIANX..

dun feel lyk continuing le..

i type de BY right is FOUR tyms more den tis..

bt duno accidentalli press wat shit den left tis nia..

haixxxxxxxxxxxx..

gota bk in..

RMB :

stil my cinderella aft 12 midniteX

con't....

2005-04-03T02:02:00.000+08:00

o0opx .. hahax..
supposed to cont ytd..
bt anw nw is ald 03042005 2 am le lahx..
so i was late..
argh..
2lazy to cont sia..
hahax..

the dinner at fish & co..
hmm.. nt tt bad lahx.
budden is qt filling le lehx..
was insisting on paying for my own food actualli..
bt joo roger n gang kp sayin wana treat..
WAH~~..
so gd..
bt i stil feel abit weird lahx..
hahax..
of cos de mahx..
the last tym ppl treat mi is when.........
hmm.... tinking hard..
aha! pri sch tt tym lorx..
aft tt i've been tellin myself tt no matter wat oso mz treat ppl liao..
cos i find tt treatin ppl is happier den ppl treating mi..
i qt bian tai de..
spend $ is lyk running tap..
once start..
mz turn qt a few more tyms to close the tap..
hahax..
tts y my mum owaz sae..
"haiyo~mei you qian le hai luan luan mai dong xi?"
haix.. bt i dun listen to her de lahx..
spend = happi = gd life..
yea~
m i bluffing myself?
hahx..
duno lehx..
tink so bahx..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
april's fool i went for haircut..
sth happened..
her's wat happened:

[hairdresser = hair
mi = mi]

hair : haiyo~ wei she me ni de pi fu na me hao de? yong le she me yang de si lian shuang? huh?
(ur skin gd lehx.. use wat facial foam?)

mi : *laugh.. hahax.. yong shui er yi
(use water nia)

hair : WOW~! zhe yang de hua na xie da gong si bu shi shao zhuan ni hen duo qian?
(wah liddat means the big companies nv profit alot fr u lorx)

mi: acc laugh.. yalorx..

mi : my limbs veri allergic to dirty stuff de..
so the legx n hands nt veri nice to luk at

hair : canot b lahx..
mz b u bluff mi de..

hair: nvm lahx..
u wun b lyk by a gal..
cos ur complexion is the veri gd type lorx..
den gals will envy/jealous mahx..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

wah lyk all hairdresser is gay de lahx..
so i rush hm damn fast..
dewen tel mi to join church when i dun wan..
he mz b disappointed bahx..
paisae paisae..

supposed to go Qing's hse budden she last min den ask mi..
den i dun wan go liao..
rather go out w my dear campfrens..

the dae aft april fool..

2005-04-02T17:26:00.000+08:00

~2nd APRIL 2005 (birthday)~

i reali hate the dae aft april's fool..
cos its my bdae..
ARGH~!
older by a yr liao lorx..
haix..
nvm lahx..
shall sing myself a song..

hapi bd to U.. hapi bd to U.. hapi bd to U~

HAPPI BD TO U..
yeah~!
lame..
hahax..
nt funnie..

haix was intending to treat pei to lunch bt she sae she noes wat we guyx r tinkin n tellin mi nt to act decent..
wat the..
ha~i tot i was decent.. bt ppl actualli tot i was acting it out..
sianx..
bt nvm lahx..
aft tt she sae she jkin onli den i oso listen lorx..
wat can i do..
bt tis typo tingx once said liao is qt depressing lahx..
haix..
tis hv to happen on tis dae..
who tel mi so kpo go ask ppl out for lunch HORX..
my fault lorx..
nx tym i tink i beda b more careful when i said tingx i guess..

wat a dae 2dae..
hahax..
went to collect the jay concert foto fr UnUsUal productions lorx..
den took 2 cabbie den reach the place..
omg~the 1st driver din noe where it is..
actualli i oso duno so tk cab mahx..
whahahaa..

joo was kind enuf ask mi out for dinner..
haix..
bt so sianx liao lehx..
i ask de ppl dun wan go den i no mood liao sia..
hahax..
den i tried askin lian go..
cos pei sae ask other gals mahx..
ok lahx..
actualli is jz trying to c wats lian rxn mahx..
so ask the same qns..
wah~she sae ok lehx..
bt too bad lahx..
cos ald miting joo..
hahax..
nx tym bahx..
paisae..
hw cum gt 2 diff rxn de?
i oso dun understd..
sama sama lehx..
nv c lian for so long oso mahx..
no diff lorx..
haix..
lyk wat mel sae bahx..
"cos diff ppl hv diff opinion on diff tingx.."
whahaha use her wds..
yalorx..
lyk to use other ppl wds lehx..
cos i lack wisdom mahx..
so canot chu kou cheng zhang lorx..
wds of wisdom -i lyk..
the jay chou foto nt bad lahx.. below is the pic lorx..

argh..
shd hv ask earlier den des so mayb pei will agree ..
or will she??
hahax..
i tink too muc le bahx..
tink even if i ask 1st she oso wil sae NO firmly..
tts wat i admire lorx..
tink wat den sae wat..
liddat den gd mahx..
FRANK..
hahax..

sina been askin mi for my blog addy liao lehx..
haax.
bt wun gv her.. lol cos i noe hers liao so no pt "trading"
she 2kpo liao lahx..
hahax..
tink i wun c her any sooner cos wun b gg chc for qt a lo0o0o0ong while..
hv to do alot of stuff lahx..
damn..
chiw soon hwa comin baq den gt inspection soon..
bkout i tink is K.O on bed lorx..
hahax..
haix..
gg to b late for joo's dinner..
argh..
cont ltr at nite..

2daes gd fri.. happi fri to all..~! =)

2005-03-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

it has benn so0o0o0o0 lo0o0o0o0ng since i came here..
haix..
ya past few weeks dun feel lyk blogging anymore..
cos gt tingx cun settle..
so stressed..
no one to seek hlp fr..
backstabber=====>ONE..
hlpers who can reali hlp===>ZERO..
hw muc do i nd to pay for tt rumour spreaded by tt bloody hell nonsensical backstabber======>PRICELESS..

wthell~
im so0o0o0o0 mei you ren yuan -i guess
even ppl whom i dun noe spread bad wds abt mi..
been trying reali hard to b a damn gd guy for the past nineteen yrs..
ya i noe.. gg to 20 soon bt jz let mi feel happi for writing "19" lahx hor~!
no temper, no airs, frenly enuf to mk frens tt r reali true frens..
bt in the end.. wat do i gt..
NOTHING!!
nth tt benefits mi..
WHY??
haix..
guess its reali hard to play the role of mr gd guy..
shd i cont to b liddat??
or shd i improve more on the "gdness"..
who can tel mi??
i hope sum1 tel mi..
seriously i tink im nt gd enuf..
tts y ppl trust wds which seems so untrue..
haix bt wat can i do..??
can ctrl ppl de feelingx..
hw they feel is nt within MY ctrl either..
tink tingx shd stop as tym goes by..
ya tym heals -i guess..

~treasure hunt~
yeah went for tis treasure hunt which mel invited mi to..
noe qt a lot of new frens..
was qt happi for 2dae cos can chat w new ppl new faces n share new thoughts..
onli bad ting is tt im jz too paisae to interact more..
hahax..
ya im liddat de..
nt veri well at socialising w ppl..
haix..
mz learn more liao..
n i hate it..
when mel saes sth lyk:"we'll b miting up for lunch w PEI, ju n shir in april"
wthell..
mz mel kp emphasising PEI..
argh~!
n kp sayin im jing zhang..
WHERE GT??
i din lorx..
i behave the same n as normal as the prev expression b4 u sae PEI k?
dun try to trick mi..
u tried too mani tyms le lahx..
until go hm liao stil wana sae agn..
haix..
dun kp sayin lahx..
i wun jing zhang anw..
no matter hw hard mel tries..
was qt surprised when i saw new faces in mel CG..
tot ju n shir were same CG as her..
well..
i guess they do chg CG often bahx..
so was oso qt disappointed tt i din c shir n ju..
argh..
miz their loud laughs n screams..
hahax..
bt anw.. there r owaz replacemt for those loud laughs..lol..
sina,xueting,meifeng n jiexin(if i din rmb her name wrongly)..
they laugh lyk nobody's business in food courts..
hahax..
i dun ind actualli..
jz feel tt y can they b so carefree n laugh their hearts out so happily..
wish tt im em..
haix..
duno since when..
i nv laugh the way they laugh le..
miz those laughters i once hv..

jiexin was qt the same character as pei..
mayb im acting smart bt she's reali qt erm.. hw to sae.. protective of her own privacy..
erm mayb TOO protective..
she told mi she hv a kor tt teaches her pool de curl ball..
den ask mi noe hw to do it anot cos she wana learn..
her kor according to her is same age as mi lahx..
den i casually asked "NS nw ar?"
ha~ guess wat??
she kindda gimme the luk tt tels mi "y u wana noe?"
hahax..relac relac..
im jz casually asking lahx..
no offense de..

sumtyms its reali hard to pick up conversation..
tts y i dun initiate conversation..
hahax..
cos i noe sumting liddat wud happen..
den wud b qt awkward lahx i can sae..
furthermore the conversation was initiated by her n i was sunhw "dao-ed"..
hahax.. nvm lahx.. mayb my mouth duno when to sae the correct ting at the correct tym..
nx tym wun ask ppl whether in NS anot liao..
so mani complications tt i nv tot of..
bt on the whole i tink she can b a gr8 fren..
4 thumbs UP for her (hands plus feet)lol..

as for xueting..
tink she's qt a cheerful gal..
hahax..owaz "playing" w poor deqiang who owaz kana bullied n cun complain..
she so tall for her age lorx..
sec 2 nia n is alot taller den mel..
hahax..
mel..
tink u shd grow taller liao..
meifeng left shortly aft the dinner..
so din reali tok to her more.
bt her joke is damn funnie..
the ah lian n ah beng joke..
will try to recall n reproduce here when im free-er..
hahax..
sina was a chatty 1..
hahax..
she toks abt anyting under the sun..
hahax..
n she laughs loud too..
was tken aback few tyms when she suddenly let out her laughter..
hahax..
bt nvm lahx..
its gd to laugh..
kp it up..
was so funnie when she intro mi her 105th bf---philbert---..
wah~ 105th lehx..
until jiexin told mi sina was tokin cork den i finalli wake up..
den came along 101th bf---rayner---..
wahahaa..
so funnie..
they mz b the best of fren tts y can crack such jokes..
sum1 told mi b4..
relationship shd tk seriously..
nt gd to joke ard..
hahax..
bt anw.. i tink its true to sum extent onli lahx..
if reali is gd frens den both dun mind..
jz sae sae for fun no harm de lahx..
hahax..
young teens shd b gven their own space to play..
nt owaz "stuck" in the traditional tinking..
damn shag aft the treasure hunt..
actualli is hunting for ans lahx..
nt treasure..

sun dae stil gt a service at indoor stadium..
hv to wake up damn early to queue..
argh!
bt nvm..
once in a while..
if ppl can do it..
i bliv i oso can..
easter service..
hahax..
any1 happen to pass by tis blog mz go n watch the easter drama wor..
i luv watchin christians drama..
cos its interesting..
ya i noe im nt christian..
bt i jz lyk it lahx..
n btw..
i dun tink will convert too..
hmm..
cos i hv too lil trust in myself to trust another person or another ting..(whichever is correct lahx)
pardon mi if i said sth wrong.. =)

~luvs playing dota~
duno y ?
luvs playing dota jiu dui le..
may jz b a trend tt wear off soon bt who cares?
lyk den play lorx..
dun nd ppl to sae de mahx..
o0opx sounds familiar..
hahax..

~E*R*C~
argh hate tis name..
n the person too..
threatens mi..
damn.
u tink i scared..
sry..
u're disappointed..
im nt in the mood to b scared nw..
hope u cum kill mi soon..
so i wun b stressed anymore..
UNDERSTD??
wondering whether shd let u read tis..
bt i tink dun lahx..
dun feel lyk letting u noe wat im lyk..
bish~
haix..
waiting for ur reply bt u chi2 chi2 nv reply mi..
damn sad lorx..
y u dun reply mi liao..
mz at least lemme noe wat u gg to do to mi mahx..
dun kp mi in suspense lehx..
ha~!
i hate liars lyk u..
threateners lyk u..
n most imptly ppl who tok big lyk u..
beda dun lemme hear another lie fr u..
unless i noe its white lie..
else..
u suffer in her hands tts ur business..
if can i hope u suffer in MY hands..
ha~..
mayb i cun win u..
so er..4gt it..
treat it as i din sae anyting lorx..
mz b waiting for mi to sae tis ryt?
drwam on..
reali miz ur msg.. SERIOUS im dead SERIOUS.
i lyk to kpo alot of tingx..
i lyk to noe wat ppl wana sae abt mi..
as long as they dun sae false tingx lyk i cheated on a gal b4..
haha~..
who will bliv??
my frens ALL noe my pattern de lorx..
mi cheat gal?
gal cheat mi hai cha bu duo lorx..
dun tink tt evry guyx r the same..
there r sum special breeds tt wil paisae when tok to gals n try to turn away as far as poss.
mayb u duno..
bt im jz tellin u..
pls dun mk ppl ur gf when u noe she's nt..
i hate it when ppl lie..
mk mi feel so remorseful aft sayin all those stuff to ur"gf"..
even apologise for tryin to snatch ur "gf"..
wat the hell..
i feel so digusted..
actualli gt cheated by a guy who i duno..
lyk wat my fren had told mi..
sum ppl jz cun put tingx dn..
ya i agree u n mi cun put tingx dn easily..
bt at least i dun fake to b ppl's bf..
i respect ppl's decision..
jz tt mayb i bu gan yuan accept bt at least will show out tt i dun mind mahx..
can u do the same anot?
do u tink faking hlps..
it onli mks tingx worse..
lyk ryt nw..
if u reali wan her baq..
behv more lyk an adult..
dun PM ppl n sae those threatening wds..
PLS..
we hv to grow up..
i dun tink i've grown up either..
stil as childish bt nt as bad as u..
wish u luck lahx..
dun sae dun hv..
bt pls dun do those tingx to other guyx agn..
PLS..
i tolong u..
cos u might end up in trouble one fine dae..
gv u tis advice cos u're stil her fren..
bt anw it cums free =)
so try to appreciate free advice..
argh!..
majority is abt u..
siaox liao..
tink im turning gay le..
blog abt a guy for 90 over percent of my blog..
o0opx..
sry too tou ru tt i 4gt to stop..

~laine's blog~
wow! nice letters u hv..
big small big..
irregular de..
mi noe hw to mk bt tink its qt mafan to chg sum wds n leave sum wds as it is lorx..
bt on the whole was a gd idea..
1 bad ting is ur blog kana flame liao..
so sad..
hao hao de blog gv ppl flame til liddat..
read ur earlier entries.
if u cont the way u used to blog..
mayb wud b beda..
heyxheyx..
jz a suggestion..
dun start another flaming session at my blog wor..
up to u lahx..
diff ppl hv their own diff blogworld..

~my hp inbox~
for the past week..
i appear pissed..
sry to all who cares..
bt im reali pissed..
i dislyk ppl reading my inbox..
esp when it contains msgs tts nt meant for u..
bt pian pian u hv to peep.
WHERE"S MY PRIVACY??
summore is read my unread msg lorx..
tts intolerable..
sry dun cure..
hope u noe..
tst y im pissed..
im tryin to find a reason to 4gv n 4gt bt i cun..
gving mi excuses lyk it was too noisy n had to press read doesnt hlp at all..
(1) u cud hv leave it on my bed
(2) pass the hp to mi as im jz outside.. u noe it cos u all "chase" mi outside when i was reading comic..
pls...... either of tis wks beda den pressing read lorx..
although its jz a gd nitex msg bt i treasure its value bcos of the snder..
hope u understd y?
if u read it b4 i do..
i'll feel tt the value drops n even wil tink its nt worth reading anymore..
dun tink onli u stressed..
i oso stressed..
u tink its fun gtting pissed off..??
try urself lorx..
u noe hw sad it can b..
aiya enuf said lahx..
tink u understd by nw lahx..
sry i dun hv the mood for 4gvness cos i stil gt stuff unsettled..
bt anw u dun nd my 4gvness wat..
lyk u said..
frens no nd to hv so mani..
jz a few will do..
u noe the effect of ur wd liao ryt?
i tink frens is the more the beda..
bt if reali zhong se qing you den i tink its nt worth it lahx..

k gota slp..
else panda eyes deepen den i luk lyk zombie..
ya nw ald luk lyk..
jz dun wish to worsen it..
gd nitex to all..

tmr is O ' levels results lohx

2005-02-27T20:43:00.000+08:00

(= o'lvls =)

tmr is release of the GCE 'O' Levels result lohx..
was qt excited abt tis..
hahax..
although i lo0o0o0o0ng lo0o0o00ong ago tken liao..
bt stil..
hahax.
nvm..
my bro is tkin his results tmr too..
hope tt evryting will b fine.. =)
u too~ Cindy~!

(= MSN Messenger =)
haix..
recently i was qt pissed w msn messenger sia..
kp gvin ppl prombs..
icluding myself too..
was unable to login to msnmsgr ytd nite n felt weird..
although i seldom chat online nw..
bt the feeling is stil weird lahx..
nw i FINALLI can understd hw it is lyk to hv computer prombs sia..
damn pissed n hlpless de..
lucky went to install Norton n evryting was fine aft tt..
thx Mr "Handsome" *puke~*
tink nx tym can hlp cindy solve her prombs too (if she allows)
hahax..
serious..

--My Date w A Vampire III--
was hlpin howie burn his 10 discs of MDWAV III..
tedious sia..
took the whole aftnn lehx..
haix..
bt nvm lahx..
its a nice drama anw..
so jz share lorx..
hahax..
i din reali hv tym watchin ALL the episodes..
budden at least i've watch 1st 2 episodes le lahx..
nice show~
tink i've to watch fin my Naruto 1st den MDWAV III lorx..
haix..
hope i can fin burnin b4 bk in lorx..
hahax..
PRAY HARD~~

~Vdae til nw~
i hven been "tokin" to cindy for lyk FOURTEEN daes (on msnmsgr) le..
hmm..
2 weeks..
can sae lo0ong can sae sho0o0ort..
cos ald is ard 2 yrs nv tok..
hahax..
mixed feelingx..
cindy owaz tinks tt im 2dependent on msnmsgr le bahx..
i guess..
bt i noe im nt lahx..
spent my Vdae well..
w my platoon mates of cos..
evrybody jz treat it lyk any other daes..
mi tried..
it works..
cos i dun reali noe hw to treat it lyk sum special dae..
hahax..
watever..
o0opx~!

~IPPT~
damn pissed w my "fav" platoon sergeant..
thx for ur motivation..
u've "motivated" mi to gt GOLD for IPPT..
by tellin mi to do YOUR specific trainin even though i've told u tt i DUN WAN to go for GOLD..
thx hor..
bt u've discouraged the rest by tellin em to OTOT (own tym own target) do their own trainin when they WAN to go for GOLD..
wat the fish~
illogical reasonin..
bt anw..
u're the COMMANDER mahx..
gt went thru SISPEC de lehx..
so we LAN LAN "TRUST" ur "ORDERS" lorx..
i MZ oso "thank" u for mkin us do GYM aft we've done our tedious IPPT..
its a SHAGNESS tt u can NEVER EVER hv de lahx..
poor tingx sia..
nvm lahx..
i noe u hv our WELFARE @ HEART de lahx..
ya @ heart ONLI..
pui~!

++ Howl's moving castle ++
my mei tel mi tt tis movie vvvvvvvvvvv.nicey..
romantic..
touching..
hmm..
i hven watch so i duno..
bt i cfm is veri nicey de lahx..
cos is my mei recommend de mahx..
hahax..
she lyk howl so0o0o0 muc..
tt she told mi she's gg hm to find his pic sia..
wow~ reali fa1 hua1 chi1 liao..
if u wana watch one more tym den i treat u watch lorx..
deal~?
watch one more tym wun die de ryt?
since u sae it so0o nicey..

bk in soon..
YEAH~
hope tt evrybody tkin results tmr wil gt REAL GREAT results..
especially u cindy..
gd luck~!
dun b nervous~
cry it out (whether its tears of joy or sorrows)
wil feel beda..
its a way to relieve stress..

CNY!!

2005-02-13T00:43:00.000+08:00

~O lvls~
no matter wad ur results r..
pls dun hurt urself k??
live for others rmb??
jz tk it as it is..
but im veri confident tt u'll b able to mk it thru..
Trust urself for once k?

~Uni application~
haix..
tok abt tis feel damn sianx..
ppl do once can liao but i mz do twice..
duno whether the passwd n application num is use baq old 1 or will gv new 1..
ask blandyy initially but blandyy kp saying she duno..
in the end gv mi tis enquiry email to ask lorx..
although din hlp muc..
but thx blandyy!!
u're the 1st to render ur hlp..
im truly grateful..
treat u MORE chairoies nx tym lorx.. n cheer up k? its nt the end of the World!! but on ur side..
i tink tingx r picking up le lahx.. anw mz balance studies too..
heex..
gd luck!

my lian mei mei finally comes online 2dae lorx..
she's the 2nd person to hlp lorx..
actualli is the 3rd but TWF din reali hlp lorx..
hahax..
sorisori..
nvm lahx..
lian mei mei b the 3rd lorx..
at least lian mei mei tel mi which category im in lorx..
blandyy evryting oso duno..

oh ya..
adrie oso gt hlp mi too..
o0opx!
4gt u le..
sori MY lian mei mei..
u're the 4th liao..
wah..
ranking lower n lower sia..

hahax..
but anw thx to all who hv hlped in jayugi's DREAM to enter the University lorx..
ya!
jz a DREAM..
so duno it'll come true anot? u once told mi tt DREAMS DUN come true..
u REALI sure abt tis nw?
hahax..
depends on ur belief whether DREAMS come true anot lorx..
u MZ oso DO ur BEST to go Uni k?
IF i gt in n dun c U in four yrs tym den i'll come out le..
serious k?
so u MZ MZ MZ wk hard..
no matter u go poly or jc..
u cun possibly tel mi to go in myself n u urself dun go in ryt?
unfair lorx..

yes i bliv EVRYBODY has their study capabilities..
but if a person lyk mi can gt in..
i dun find any reasons why u cun..
so nv ever gv up..
K ??

~Best of Soul~
yoohoox!!
finally gt acopy of the BoA album..
best of the best man..
hahax..
dvd quality de MV mks ppl watch mani tyms oso wun feel sianx..
its the perfect edition sumore so mz quickly grab a copy b4 it runs out..

wanted to hlp u gt the Last copy budden another toopid gal tk liao..
sianx..
ald gv her the cold stare but she stil dare to go the cashier there n pay lorx..
i no choice mahx..
dun tel mi to *slap her lorx?
hahax..

~Constantine~

wow tis movie is under-rated lorx..
shd b NC-16 or M18 lorx..
so violent..
but anw is a nice movi..
zhi hui piao jia (worth the price of the tix)
those who nv watch beda catch it fast b4 its too late..
but aft watching..
too mani qns were brought to mind :
who's mammon?
was "the sacrifice"?
wads "constantine"?
suicide = gg to Hell?

wah so mani qns i ask blandyy den blandyy dun wan tel mi..
so sad de lorx..
but anw i hope she tels mi soon lorx..
b4 i 4gt wad i wana ask her..

Keanu Reeves damn COOL sia..
but the lead actress erm.. erm.. erm.. nt bad lahx..
hahax..
dun reali hv the Matrix feeling..
budden there was 1 timestop scene tt resembles the Matrix lorx..

sumhw remind mi of Crusade..
hahax..
y the person holding the Spear of Destiny is a Malay??
o0opx!!
was it on purpose?
hahax..
2 choices were given to Mankind in the movie..
Lucifer or Mammon?
~duh?
wads the diff?
i asked myself?
haix..
even in movies..
Man r given tough choices..
hahax..

~Silly Act~

aft watch fin Constantine i went j8 buy sth tts unnecessary..
hahax..
a forehead protector..
whaha..
dessie shd noe wad it is lahx..

den oso duno wad i was tinking when i was on my way out of the MRT station lorx..
i scanned my ez-link on my left n tried to exit on the right!!
hahax..
ya i noe its nt funnie..
its L_A_M_E..
i tink too muc liao lahx..
tts y so blur..
hahax..
happened to noe tt u oso gt same experience too..
damn paisae de ryt?
but lyk wad i've said..
at least u gt ur frenx to tel u is ling4 wai4 yi4 bian1 lorx..

mi lehx?
can onli rush out b4 the "doors" closes..
so BIG de guy do tis type of paisae de tingx..
haix..
sad case liao..

~CNY~

wah tis yr de CNY i damn pissed sia..
i went to my mother side relative de hse den bai nian..
shake hands w ALL the ppl in the hse..
gt 1 gal shake my hands liao den exclaimed ~GOSH~..
damn! wad she mean?
hand too big ar?
i sianx half aft she gosh lorx..
waliao~ same age as mi oso mz gimme sum face de lehx..
dun recognise mi oso dun nd exclaim so LOUD de ryt?
yalorx..
almost nobody recognises mi..
damn sad..
cos less ang bao mahx..
if ppl nv "spot" U..
hahax..
especially my small aunt lorx..
she's the kua zhang type..
kp asking my mum : li gor hai bin wai ar? *cantonese lahx*
(tis is who?)

wah den my mum tel her liao she oso dun bliv lorx..
so kua zhang mehx?
onli 1 yr nia lehx..
rxn no nd SO0o0 BIG bahx??

but in the end she bliv liao lahx..
hahax..
i've a weird feeling over there lorx..
used to play, tok cork w my cousins..
but when i saw em tt dae..
hahax..
i tok nth n dae oso tok nth..
no conversation at ALL lorx..
haix..
guess its natural bahx..
nw grow up liao will feel awkward de lahx..
canot blame any1..
can onli blame TIME lorx..

2nd dae my aunt (father side) came to my hse..
hahax..
ya 1 more ang bao lorx..
YEAH~
but tis tym qt okie le lahx..
cos i din wear any new clothes or wear contacts or watever mahx..
so i tink they manage to recognise mi lorx..
den tok more..
play cards (i play few rounds den nv play liao cos watching Naruto mahx)
lose ard $7.50 den i nv play liao..

damn sianx when u're nt online lorx..
i guess i jz hv to wait wait wait..
wait til my cousins go hm den is ard 8+pm liao lorx..

den wait for another 3 hrs u finalli online..
YEAH~
i noe i wun wait in vain de lorx..
chat chat chat..
tok cork tok cork tok cork..
1 hr passed..

mum sat dn beside mi..
asked : ni yao wan dao ji dian?
WALIAO! mum im nt playing k?
wad a misunderstding!!
jz bcos i've been using the com for the whole dae den she tink im playing..
wah seh..
i nt so playful de lorx, Mum!
aiya..
but i oso duno hw to explain to mum cos promise u liao..
u sae de mahx..
scared mum gt the wrong idea if nth wks out..
haix..
jing tui liang nan..
wana tok but mum kp sitting beside mi saying if i gt heart den will OFF the com n let her go slp..
if nt she'll stay up w mi thru the nite..
wah kaox!!
wad a choice im given lorx..
i where will ren xin let her stay up?
mum stil gotta wake up 6am nx dae lorx..
sianx..
den i LAN LAN hv to sae gd bye to U liao..
sori..
CNY period i dun wana scold mum lorx..
gv her sum face..
if nt CNY i tink i die die oso wun OFF de..
i told mum : "u'll regret de lorx.."

tink she oso qt scared liao so nw i use com she oso dun sae anyting le..
hahax..
mum is liddat de lahx..
OWAZ behv lyk a kid de lorx..
haix..
dnside of hving a YOUNG mum..
evryting oso mz gv in to her..
else she gts emotional..
hahax..
nvm lahx..
few yrs ltr tink she'll oso "grow up" bahx..
hahax..

mum lyks to c my ang gu kueh face so all she hv to do is to sit beside mi when im toking to U lorx..
she abit siaox liao lahx..
but i dun blame mum for acting cute lahx..
its her character lehx..
cun chg de lorx..
i shd feel lucki to hv such a mum, i guess!!

~optician~

tt toopid optician intro mi sum hse brand de contacts..
damn lorx!
i use le cun tk out lorx..
i insists on buying Acuvue den he kp gving mi the hse brand saying its the SAME!!
waliao..
REALI hv a HARD tym tking out those lenses lorx..
U shd noe ryt?
lucki tt tym gt ur hlp..
else i ald in hospital hving sum eye operation de tingy liao..
thx!

haix..
but wad can i do..
buy liao mz wear fin lorx..
else waste $..
mz save $ liao..
den i can buy the unnecessary tingx lyk u said..
hahax..
the toopid optician beda dun lemme c him elsewhere..
if lemme c him agn i SURE *SLAP him HARD HARD til can c the HANDPRINT lorx..
n i'll mk sure the HANDPRINT is THERE lorx..
**Jayugi's bloodline limit..**
WHAHAHAHAHA!!
combination of TWO inside joke lahx..

~Last wds for the dae~

No matter hw mani tyms..
u ask mi whether i feel sianx when i OWAZ tok to u..
my ans will owaz b a "NO" !
i dun mind if u wish to ask agn the nx tym but i can tel u tt the ans will OWAZ b a "NO" lorx..
wads ur ans??
u ans mi a "NO" too..
hmm..
im glad..
hope the nx tym i ask u it'll b the same "NO" n nt the reluctant "NO" k??
NO / YES doesnt reali matter to mi actualli..
if u choose to gimme a "YES" den i oso cun force u mahx..
but if reali sianx den mz reali tel mi lehx..
dun kp saying NO NO NO den in the end stressed up!
i dun wan tis kinda tingx to happen lorx..

i duno whether im behving kinda irri to U lately..
u tel mi NO lehx..
so i guess is jz mi tinking tt im BHB agn..
hmm..
hw to overcome tis..
aiya..
jz dun wan to mk myself BHB lehx..
sianx..
wad to do?
u tel mi im nt BHB but i gt a feeling tt i m lehx..
or r u reali tolerating??
pls lemme noe k?
the nx tym u're online..
cos i dun wish to create unnecessary de stress in u oso..

the 3 interchgable strap de Guess watch mz tel mi hw it luks lyk lehx..
cos i wana buy soon..
dun care is same preference anot lahx..
jz tel mi hw it luks lyk can le lorx..

n most impt..!!
dun ever buy tt watch k?
it DUN suit u de lorx..
cos ur wrist too small liao lahx..
wear liao will weird weird de..
wana buy wait til the june holis when u've more $ lahx..
spend it on ur hair n clothes lahx..
ur hair in a mess liao stil dun wana go do sth abt it mehx?
go dye nice nice den lemme c in mar / apr..
i c wads ur definition of PRETTI on tt dae lorx..
since u sae my definition of PRETTI abit weird..
hahax..

LS ah pek hv to stop liao..
cos too old canot c the com screen for too long..
duno when u'll b online?
tmr??
hahax..
u told mi nt tmr liao budden i'll stil wait de lahx..
dun stop mi fr waiting k?
tts the onli ting i can do..
kekex..
sum1 mz stop LS ah pek fr writing sia..
he has written WAY TOO MUC liao..
tink onli U can stop him lorx..
hahax..

these.. im stil kping..

2005-02-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

these.. im stil kping..
n i hope tt u stil kping TT too..
was qt surprised it was stil w U..
hmm..

all the while..
these were w mi..
nv left my sight as long as im at hm..
when i go out..
onli one of em follws..
hahax..

**********************************

ytd was reali v funnie..
i tot u were at north pt..
hahax..
even went baq to luk for u..
but suddenly realised myself tt it was jz my nick..
ha !!
duno wana laugh or cry..
too drama for mi liao..
hahax..

even attempt to went baq the second tym aft the saving 1 bar battery de issue..
lucki u replied earlier..
else wud hv made a wasted trip..
**"SORRIE"**
owaz heard tis wd fr U..
tink i shd b the 1 saying it bahx..
u did nth den u kp saying sori..
siaox ar U..
since i reali bluff u tt tym..
den i tink i shd b sayin it..
sorrie k??
din mean to lie but in the end i oso felt bad so i reveal the TRUTH myself lorx..
2dae no sign of U..
hahax..
yahorx..
ytd nite ald sae le mahx..
u wun b ard de..
but i stubborn lehx..
rather wait n c lorx..

*********************************

2dae kana scold by my mum..
sianx..
sae i buy clothes spend too muc liao..
yalorx..
i agree oso cos i so poor den stil spend so muc..
but in the end she oso bought mi shirt!!
hahax..
YEAH~~
sumore is more EX den the 1 i buy lorx..
thx mum~! !
lyk the design..
but i dun tink i wud sae thx to u in person bahx..
2close liao..
will feel awkward..
hahax..
but i noe u'll feel the gratitude i hv de lahx horx..

was OWAZ defiant 2wds wad u sae..
u sae right i PURPOSELY wana go left..
hahax..
nvm lahx..
nw gt retribution liao lorx..
so i'll learn liao..

*********************************

bk in dae 2dae..
YEAH~~
**mz act excited abit..
cos...............
CNY coming le mahx..
gt ang bao tk liao lohx..
**19 gg 20 liao stil veri gian3 ang bao horx..**
heex..

ok gg in abt 30 mins tym..
**sounds lyk prison sia..**

thx for ur testi too..
my deaaaaaaar lian mei mei..
no tym to write u frenster msg so write here lorx..
hahax..

cloudy weather turns clear

2005-01-30T17:14:00.000+08:00

hmm..

nw all the misunderstdings more or less settle le bahx..

at least i noe im nt hated lahx..

noe her feelings aft she told mi..

i tink she reali no confidence at all..

but nvm..

cos i'll b there to gv her tt confidence she nd..

and i trust tt i'll b able to do it..

onli ting is whether she can trust mi to do it anot..

***************************

was reali surprised tt she actualli visited here..

cos tt tym she sae over here gt nth muc to c so i assume she wud nv ever come agn liao..

but ytd she told mi 1st ting she did was to visit here..

mayb its reali FATE or mayb jz a COINCIDENCE tt she came..

although was REALI hoping her to visit here EVRYDAE but i din dare to ask so muc out of her

mayb once a week lorx..

cos i oso nt evrydae will hv entry de mahx..

***************************

ytd nite kp copy n paste the tings i wrote n show mi..

hahax..

yalorx..

was reali funnie when i read my own entry..

but wasnt funnie at all when i type..

although use alot hahax budden din isnt reali veri funnie lahx..

**************************

my mum noe its U le lahx..

no nd to hide liao..

nx tym happen to c her mz greet k??

mz b courteous 2wds zhang bei mahx..

but anyway i oso evrytym scold my mum 1 so if u wan scold her jz mk sure u noe hw to mk her happie aft tt lorx..

hahax..

btw u soooooooooooooooo cute i tink she oso wun angry w U if u scold her lahx, HOR HOR HOR??

hahax.. act cute nia.. whahaha!!

*******************************

u sae u dun dare slp alone cos u scared ur hand kana bite by vampire when ur hand is below ur bed??

hahax.. U reali cute sia.. i oso nth to sae liao..

2nite dun tink abt it le k??

my onli solution for u lahx..

u tot is was a looooong 1 ryt??

hahax..

gotcha!!

btw oso gt ur purin dog pei u slp thru the nite mahx..

it will protect u de HOR HOR HOR!!

aiya fake de tings u go bliv real de tings u dun bliv reali BTH sia..

date U reali mz Q-up de ar??

wah!!!!!!!!

no wonder hv to wait til April lorx..

so mani ppl in front of mi sia..

nvm lahx..

as u noe im gd at waiting de mahx..

mafan de nu ren oso mz go out n c hw mafan she is mahx..

hahax..

***************************

u told mi to 4gt evryting den u nv ask urself u can 4gt evryting anot??

seriously is i CUN lahx..

its nt sum sad memories y mz i 4gt??

is YOU tt nd to 4gt the unhappy past u hv..

kp the sweet memories of ur past n move on..

understd??

i nt so ba dao until i nd u to 4gt all ur past de tings (no matter sad /happy de memories)

stil hv to gv ppl sum space for their own tings de mahx

*******************************

so sianx..

sundaY agn..

hv to bk in liao..

actualli dun feel sianx de lorx..

is aft ytd sum1 sae sumting regarding NS den i feel sianx de..

i gt qt positive attitude nw lehx..

dun kp mking mi hate NS k??

dun sae those tings agn k??

Goodie N|tex..

(sae in advance in case my hp no batt 2dae)

nt onli U're xin tong, im xin tong too.. but wad can i do??

2005-01-29T17:50:00.000+08:00

FOREWORD: if u noe its nt for U, pls try nt to comment, if poss, try nt to read oso, thx alot!!

u told mi tt u sae all tt oso will feel xin tong den y did U hv to sae all those tings??

yes, im sad..

wad u said is veri true..

if i can gt over it so easily..

den u cfm is nt the One liao..

its nt as easy as i said lahx

but wad can i do??

im a veri gong person..

duno wads the best way to react..

*act gong de lahx (lyk u owaz sae)

but wadeva lahx..

cun go n cut out ur tongue either..

im too 'far away' to do anyting..

yes, fell in too deep..

no joke at all..

although lyk to joke alot but nt tis tym..

nearly is ONE whole year nv c de person i oso can feel tis way..

can onli sae is reali the One..

i dun feel the same way for the other 3 persons..

although we met each other on the same dae, same yr n same venue..

but they din feel anyting for mi..

n i din feel anyting for em..

at least at tt tym..

u felt sth..

n i felt sth too..

jz tt both of us..

too shy to sae anyting..

nt sure wads ur reason for nt saying but mine is shy..

*act shy de lahx (lyk u owaz sae, hahax)

hahax, mayb is jz act dao..

yes, i'll hv my own life soon..

uni / poly / working..

mayb mit new ppl..

new faces, n evryting is new..

n u tink i might even 4gt U..

*"ur 'The One' might nt b mi lahx" (lyk wad u owaz said)

sumhw..

u feel u're nt The One..

even when i said U're..

been thru so muc..

find tt its reali hard to fall in luv..

yes its hard..

nt easy at all..

its hard to sae the 3 magical wds to the one u dun luv..

yes, tis is more tough..

its nt my mum's misunderstding i noe..

is ur self-confidence i tink..

too low..

yes, veri low..

scared tt tings might nt wk out the way u wan it to b..

scared tt u'll b hurt agn..

scared u might hurt mi..

learning to std up agn aft evry failure is impt..

if a failure lyk mi dun std up aft evry failure..

i tink i'll b 'dead' by nw..

learn to accept n 4gv when u nd to..

u cun hate a person 4eva..

but u can luv a person 4eva..

nt trying to b romantic..

or swt tok or wadeva..

watch so muc drama de U might tink too dramatic liao..

but at tyms..

can apply to reality as well..

mi dun watch muc drama..

so i duno it'll apply to wad extent..

i've to admit i duno U well..

nt well at all..

nt qualified to ask tt qns on 191204..

but din regret doin so..

hv to ask eventualli..

nt bcos of msn tt i asked..

is jz tt tis date is jz 1 dae aft u left tt place..

if i din rmb wrongly..

u left on 18 dec..

u din tel mi y at tt tym

its tt period near xmas

i din leave tt place..

as i wanted to noe hw diff wud it b w/o u ard..

hahax, qt a lame n fake reason ryt??

but u tink i wana stay 1 more week for a miserable pay mehx??

but in the end oso suffer there til xmas tt dae..

left 1 week aft U left..

bliv it anot..

its true..

*"u tink u sae lyk tt i hv to bliv mehx?" (lyk u owaz said)

hmm..

its up to U to bliv lahx..

i stil rmb the gift i rcv..

although its nt fr U alone..

its four person share de gift

but im stil kping it n treasuring it..

cos its the onli ting u gave mi..

tt tym nearly lost it n i felt reali lost..

lucki is i misplaced it onli..

noe mi well de frens shd noe tt i lose de tings i dun search 1..

*"jz buy another 1 can liao lorx.." (lyk wad i owaz said)

sum tings jz cun replaced de lahx..

even its the same model same design..

i oso wun wan de lahx..

cos its nt the ORIGINAL 1 u gv mi..

bliv it anot..

its true..

*"u tink u sae lyk tt i hv to bliv mehx?" (lyk u owaz said)

anyway, its stil up to U to bliv..

so long de entry agn..

hahax..

onli those interested de ppl den will read bahx..

hope u'll b reading tis nw..

i oso dun wan to purposely tel U come n read lahx..

jz c when will b tt fateful dae u'll come n read..

i tink chances oso qt low lahx..

mayb u 4gt the address oso..

hahax..

tis entry is nt boliao den write de..

cos i gt more enjoyable tings to do lahx..

lyk DoTA / CS / go out train my FD lorx..

but i jz wana spend tym on tis..

gt a feeling tt it might b the last few entries liao..

although is jz started n spend ALOT of tym creating it..

tis blog i "gv birth" de..

ending it is too cruel le lahx..

actualli the moment its 'born' ald veri ugly liao..

hahax..

but tink back..

IF i REALI can 4gt the story of cinderella so easily..

i shd hv the courage to end tis blog bahx..

hope tis blog can con't to "run"..

n the same goes for the cinderella story..

haiyo~ its the lor sor ah pek agn..

y i so lor sor de huh??

hahax..

anyting wana tel mi..

msg mi lorx..

if u tink leaving comments veri guai4..

at least let mi noe when U (cinderella) HAPPEN to read tis entry..

thx!!

y doesnt she bliv mi??

2005-01-26T13:21:00.000+08:00

ytd nite..
u ask mi n i sae "dun hv"..
but u din bliv..
haix..

i can onli sae if i hv..
i wun hv said those tings to u n i mean wad i sae..
duno y u asked mi suddenly..
but i hope u'll trust mi..
n i oso hv no reason to lie abt it..

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!
had a Baaaaaaaaaaaaaad flu..
such a HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT weather n stil can kana flu..
sianx..

mz learn to behave more seriously fr nw onwds liao..
been appearing too "jokey"(i tink) for the past 1 yr..
haix..

i asked!

2005-01-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

haix..

so sad..

gt to bk in liao..

wanted to post a proper 1 but was toking to my dear cinderella..

hahax..

nvm i guess i rather tok to her lorx..

made my dae..

ytd ask her alot of qns budden she tinks im jking or nt serious..

duno y?

mks me tink tt being in NS reali mk mi lose out alot..

cun go to my uni le..

i DUN wan to brk my promise but i cun fulfil it either..

reali tink tt sumhw i did nt do anyting to prove myself..

tts y im stil nt accepted by her bahx..

APRIL!!..

the mth tt i'll mit her..

why isst nt nw??

haix..

reali luk 4wd to tt dae..

do i luk lyk im jking??

y evrytym ppl tel mi tt..

duno lahx..
mayb is my face bahx..

a joker face lorx..

aiya..

gg to bk in soon..

else mr handsome will scold mi for being late agn..

jz wan u to noe..

im stil waiting..

nt jking..

nt giving up either..

P6A gtherg n hw my trust was BETRAYED by a monk

2005-01-18T17:08:00.000+08:00

Finally finish the designing part of my blog..
im stil nt v satisfied w it although i spent loooong hours creating it..
haix..
IE seems to b the best browser for blogs bahx..
i guess..
cos the effect im getting w firefox is bad..
no wonder i cun seem to mk the background music play w firefox browser..

last sat was my P6A gtherg..
was a vvv happening experience..
although onli 6 persons went..
but is the best gtherg i've ever had since the last 7/8 yrs..
OoOps.. sounds hurting to my other frens..
ok i shall sae its ONE of the best gtherg bahx..
hahaxx..

suppose to mit at marina bay for steamboat, but too few ppl liao so chg venue to orchard..
sianx, cos recently roamed orchard til feet blistered, but nvm lahx.
once in a while.. so i agree lorx.. heex..
lucki i met ZM at marina n told him tt there's a chg in venue..
else..
i wud b the onli guy there le bahx..
hahaxx.
the rest oso no heart de lehx..
nv tel ZM the chg in venue, ~tsk!

mi n ZM went into the train, was wondering where the rest were, den they called, told us tt they stil at marina..
S##t! 5 secs to door closing, pls std clear, beepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeepbeep..
at the sixth beep manage to rush out..
heng ar!

nx train is waiting on the other side, rushed over n grabbed a seat..
phew! tot gg to wait vvv looong for the nx marina bay train..
while passing thru the "shutter door", saw 2 persons, familiar, r they the ones who called jz nw??
wondering but wasn't confident enuf to chk it out, hahax..
so went all the way to the front of the train..

reached orchard aft a few stops, managed to mit w my pri sch frens alas!
ZM was w mi, n met adrielle, audrey, poh choo, shing yee(by alphabetical order, hahax)..
all the faces, i rmbed! but none rmbed mine..
was kinda sad..~sob sob

sum same sch for 2 yrs liao den stil dun rmb..
wah! canot 4gv sia..
nvm lahx..
lucki i more 4gving den usual on tt dae..

deciding where to eat?
hmm.. mi wasnt choosy n so let em decide where to hv dinner lorx..
"cafe cartel? marche? swensens? wah! all the ex restaurants/cafe! siaox..
nv knew my long lost pri sch frens bi3 wo3 hai2 hui4 hua1 qian2 wor..
hahax.. lucki wasnt swensens cos few wks ago jz spent 50 plus there.. nt a bad experience at swensens but nw is qt a sad experience bahx( dun ask mi y, hmm..)

aft dinner at cartel, we con't staying at our seats, chatting..
i wasnt reali gd at starting conversation, so jz sat there n smile at evry ting they said..
den was reprimanded bcos i jz sat there n smile at the others..
hahax..sori lahx..

2wds the end, desserts were served to our table, and WERE'NT ours..
hahax..
cud hv tken em cos was prepaid de mahx..
ZM kp saying tt we shd tk those desserts but for mi, i realli cun put anyting e;se into my mouth le lahx..
cos the chicken cutlet i ordered is way too oily n er xin le lahx..hahax..
else i wud hv tk the desserts , i tink..

shing yee left, den soon aft tt we left too..
wondering where we shd wander nx..
esplanade lorx, sumbody suggest, wasnt too sure who suggest de lahx..
cos too FULL to tink n observe liao..

journey to esplanade was qt a meaningful 1, saw 1 of my fren fr medical platoon, Benjamin!
hahax..
always see him w guys de lehx..
duno y????

den tk sum fotos at/outside esplanade..
was a funny experience as the fotos always don't show all of us inside..
most of the tym..
i was out of the pic..
den i tried to do sth funnie..
i purposely pushed ZM 2wds Adrielle, WAHAHAHA! YES it was on purpose..
to gt myself inside the pic?
MAYB bahx.. hahax.. i kp pushing him n he din chg his place, guess he doesnt mind bahx..
heeheehee..

den aft tt chg positions to pose for the pics n aft much foto tking, we went off n started our journey hm..
walking fr orchard baq to HOME for most of us is AMK..
walk walk n walk..
reached newton circus..
sat there n i saw lots of prostitutes w man eating there..
was sad n disappointed by wad the world has bcome..
but aft all, i hv to accept the fact tt its still a profession bahx..

a lady vomitted n i kp luking at her..
dunno y?
mayb is wana mk myself puke for seeing so many "incredible" tings at newton circus bahx..
saw an old man. the cleaner over there tking a chicken wing fr a box filled w waste food n started eating it..
eeeek! was disgusted but i felt sad for him too..
mayb i lived a beda life n i din even appreciate mine bahx..
can c the old man's life was sad..

ltr, a man, a so-called superintendant fr the Army(huh? Army??), approach us w 3 pkts of tissue paper n sell us for a dollar..
i sae "no thx" aft his WONDERFUL story of hw the mine blown off his teeth(4 of em) n ribs(6 of them) n 2 daughters at hm ao2 ao2 dai4 bu3..
hmm..hw to bliv such story when he's in a SUIT, selling tissue paper..
and MIND you! HE'S　ＮＴ BEGGING!, so wad is he doing w the tissues? dun understd..
mayb to him, selling tissues at hawker centres, telling ppl hw pitiful he is, isnt called BEGGING bahx..
sori, im nt trying to b MEAN, jz puzzled..

shook my hands, passed mi his tissues n walked off saying gd luck for my NS life..
he said it so sincerely tt i nearly melted n tk out tt dollar to gv him..
but i din lahx, siaox..
donate to a man in SUIT?
i dun even hv 1..
if he were to ask mi for a dollar n din sae those touching stories..
tt dollar wud hv easily come out fr my pocket..
wad a waste for him!

four of us, adrielle+me+pohchoo+ZM(audrey went baq on nite rider svc) were sitting there waiting n waiting..
waiting for wad?
nt too sure..
none of us were sure bahx..
i guess.. hahax..
plates of hokkien mee kp being served at our table..
do we reali luk lyk we were waiting for food??
OOoohMyGod!
1st desserts nw hokkien mee..
we din order anyting mahx, jz sat dn there onli..
chatting..

aft which wanted to con't our journey to North..
then started to walk agn..
i kp gving the slpi luk..
hahax..
cos nv reali slp at all on thurs..
sumore my feet blister started to gv mi the pain..
argggggggh! y mz it happen nw??
it was a precious gtherg since we've nv met for 7/8 yrs..

brk of dawn, reached the 24 hrs Kopitiam Dhoby Ghaut..
saw sum transvestite(eh hw i noe is transvestite, hmm, guess de lahx, cos they go male toilet de mahx) hahax..

was reali hungry lorx, budden alot of tings made mi lose my appetite lorx..
the soft boiled eggs werent even boil in the 1st place..
yolk was mostly transparent, haix..
outside is so cooked tt i cun even brk the eggs properly(but inside still uncooked), made mi lose face in front of gals, haix, diu1 lian3 lehx..

den i saw an ang moh touching a transvestite here n there..
eeeek! dun wish to elaborate liao..
i ask the rest y they dun wan food mehx?
jz wana watch mi eat??
hahax..
den they go order..
they mz b traumatised le lahx..
or 2slpi?? nt too sure too..

adrielle order de eggs..
hmm..
luk alot lyk those shown on the "preview" board de lehx..
ZM order de eggs shares the closest resemblance as the board de lorx..
onli mine is the most toot up eggs.. sianx..

aft brkfast, we walked to PS mrt..
but b4 we left kopitiam gt sum transvestite story which i dun wish to share lahx..
anybody wan can go snoopy blog to read lorx, its too er xin liao..
on the way to PS..
a monk walk 2wds us, gv mi agold shiny card w pic of buddha..
i gladly accept cos i tot was onli for you3 yuan2 ren2 de nahx..
den wanted to walk away aft gtting the card but the monk asked mi to put dn my name so tt he can pray for mi.
same for ZM n the the other 2 gals..
i was the 1st to write.
as i write..
i saw a column w donations..
sianx.. he was asking for donations lahx, chey!..
i gladly tk out $10 fr my wallet, half of wad i hv in the wallet n gv it to him..
was my most generous donations for tt week k?

and guess wad??
he showed mi the prev donors donated at least $30 n asked mi to increase my givings..
siaox.. where gt ppl ask for more de?
smell sth fishy liao, tink was a hoax, but din reali wana tk baq the $ lahx..
gv him lorx.. treat it as lesson learnt lorx..
den the monk oso rush off n disappear in thin air liao lorx, aft he noe he cun gt more$..

onthe way, all of us were discussing abt the monk lahx..
analysing his behaviour..
hahax.. kinda shi4 hou4 kong3 ming2 lahx..
din reali bother abt the $10 liao but ZM kp reminding mi of it..
sianx, i was cheated of more den $ b4 lorx..
wads there to b sad over $10..

can sae im a idiot for gving the monk $10 instead of $1 for the tissue lahx..
i dun mind actualli, been cheated alot of tyms since young lohx..
heex.. a bitter smile..
hahax.. abit of diversion liao..

we boarded the train baq to AMK..
den tk bus hm..
me, adrielle n poh choo same bus as me..
and usually i wud snd gals baq home til i c em SAFE n SOUND den i'll go hm by myself de..
hahax.. but dis tym v.difficult bcos gt 2 gals, den live diff places..
ermm.. was in a dillemma.. reali..
so i asked both of em whether they r ok to go baq by emselves early in the morn?
they sae yes den i fang xin lorx..

lucki we din go baq hm at nite, else i realli dunno wad to do..
snd who hm 1st?
hahax.. anybody gt ans pls tel mi in case i encounter such tings agn.. hahax..

tink my blog too lor sor liao lahx..
2dae is my bk in dae..
argggggggh!.. so sianx..
but nvm lahx..
at least gt sum1 tel mi to hao3 hao1 serve my NS le..
so i shall serve it willingly fr nw onwds..
heex..

First Time

2005-01-18T13:25:00.000+08:00

2dae is my 1st tym writing a blog..
hahax..
sounds funnie..

been waiting n waiting n waiting to write lohx..
but cun find tym to create 1..
tedious man..
creating a blog..
stil cun seem to b able to incl a sound clip into my blg..
sad..

Jayugi

The Furthest Distance

How much is enough?

The uncertain tide

ICT 2 Treats

Sports :)

Response to a template CSO reply

Matters of the Heart

Secret At The Cathay

Where is the LAN?

Transformation of Customer Service over the years

Looking back at ATEC during NSF period

Stress Life

My Favourite Anime

蛤蟆王子

The Highest Peak

A Life Cycle

Just when i thought

Adapted from KUCINTA

Platonic Love

"I JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS"

"I DON'T WANT TO RISK OUR FRIENDSHIP"

"I'VE MET THIS REALLY GREAT GUY"

My Handphone!!!!!!! Nooooooooooooo~

23 Twenty-Three

If memory hasnt fail mi

playing too much games =(

Saturdays =(

FAT PIG STORY

A Weekend Without You

We say "Online jian" de and stil *υм ! υм ! υм !*, now " i dun wan go out becos i dun wan tt little to become deeper ! "

just another continuation of the bhb man!!

hai evryting seems low for mi now

Path of a desperate NSF

1 whole week out of jail

Assured n unavailable

i miss u so (miss tis song fr BMT)

Good Morning *sigh* Starshine *sigh* .. The Earth *sigh* says Hello..*sigh*

Inferiority Complex

complete failure..a rare wkdaY entry

这世界上的确有人，存心想让你难过，但是我想说的是 . . .

Rare EntrY

just my day

最终我希望答案是--------“败给了命运”

Faded

神, 也是人, 只不过它做了一些, 人做不到的事

Doctors n Aunties

~TiMe Is PrEcioUs~

ToOk Off To ReSt..

A NeW BloG Is BorneD/BornT (watever the spellin is la)

ARGH.. feel lyk dyin

interestin site

LiFe DURIN ATEC stage 2

LiFe BEFORE ATEC stage 2

Tkin a luk at life in a diff way

~i SAW U~

Peaceful DaY.. bt im nt glad at all..

con't....

the dae aft april fool..

2daes gd fri.. happi fri to all..~! =)

tmr is O ' levels results lohx

CNY!!

these.. im stil kping..

cloudy weather turns clear

nt onli U're xin tong, im xin tong too.. but wad can i do??

y doesnt she bliv mi??

i asked!

P6A gtherg n hw my trust was BETRAYED by a monk

First Time

We say "Online jian" de and stil υм ! υм ! υм !, now " i dun wan go out becos i dun wan tt little to become deeper ! "

Good Morning sigh Starshine sigh .. The Earth sigh says Hello..sigh