Looking back at ATEC during NSF period

guess wat? Its atec stage 2..aft tis..(hopefully) there wud b resting for mi! Hven reali been restin well since the dae i entered the Army..its either mental or physical stress..anytym..anywhere..

when there's no exercise, i can rest in bunk..but cun do anyting cos canot slp canot play.. EVRYTING oso canot..

ya..can stone lahx..tts ALL..haix..my feet is reali bu ting hua..kp gvin mi probs..tts y most of the tym is on excuse / status..

well..commanders seem to CARE n might excuse u for SOME saigang..ppl often luk at u with you se de yan jing bcos of ur :handicap"..

izit reali wrong to report sick?haix duno..

nw i hear of report sick i oso pa4 pa4 le..mayb report sick durin veri veri slack tyms den ppl wun sae u geng lorx..(aft atec?)ha~.. c hw..

2dae den i noe Alex gt a veri bad fall wound on his left knee..hmmmmmm...he watch ID too muc i tink..drift w his bicycle..

haha..if tis is the case den guess he cun replace mi do dismount role le bah..bt SUAY SUAY i oso fell dn 2dae..

shit man..it has been so0o0o0o0o0o0 lo0o0o0ng since my last fall..2dae suay suay kana tis fall is reali veri suay..

HA~

bleedin wound..abrasion i tink..bt it wun b serious if i gt it treated b4 gg off for ATEC..

bt well..if i go treat the wound..ppl will sae "GENG"freakin hell..wat to do?

b4 exercise fall dn is i suay lor.tink wait til atec over den treat it bah..

damn PAINFUL!!ARGHHHHHHH!!..

bt its nt as bad as Alex's..

bt either way..i've told Alex tt NONE of us gg to do dismount w tis kinda wound!!??

so no worries for mi n him..open wounds cun possibly gt contact w SWAMPS!!!

who noes tis tym wat kinda terrain we r walkin..beda nt risk..

i wun wana gt soil disease(melloisis, izit spelled liddat? cun b bothered to chk) for tis..

well our DEAR medical officer chris saes no dismount cfm plus CHOP so i guess it shd b fine for mi n Alex..

hmm...bt TT doesnt stop my feet fr rottin away..away.. n away..

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Day 1 - 16 05 2005
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moved out fr saigang camp @ 1400h..

tis tym is aft waitin for lyk FOUR freakin hours den we start to move..

INEFFICIENT, YES!no doubt..

we cun gt recon 1 (i hope we gt it though..)

den wil hv our "carrot"=5 daes off..

weather freakin HOT!!..had to std under the SUN for damn long..

doin sentry duty for a REDUNDANT purpose--> GUARD THE BCS BAGS.. WTF~OBVIOUSLY!! nobody wil steal em..

omg~.. can yak b MORE flexible??or he's jz out to tekan mi..ha~ watever the reason..I stil gota do it..


BECAUSE IM A MAN..
as in im nt a COMMANDER..

UNDERSTD??

A MAN HAS TO OBEY his COMMANDER.. (SUMTYMS)..

WELL THINGS GT BEDA AFT ALEX CAME..HE TOOK OVER THE SENTRY..DID HE?I 4GT..bt he's SUPPOSED to tk over lah..

anw i was perspirin all the way despite the idiot-proof method pEi taught mi..FANNING~!!!
ya fannin w a pc of paper..

the weather is too hot for mi to stop perspirin..

<ONCE START CUN STOP> is the 口诀 for fannin myself..

night falls fast.. nw waitin for movin out fr the conc area @ ONE am..wtf~..tokin abt flexibility here..ONE am wake up nx dae gt strength meh??

duno..pity those combat teams..bt anw if tts wat they wan..we gv lor..as long as they dun regret..

ha~..

when i was in my BV206..a thought came to my mind..31st may bu jiu shi ndp off-in-lieu lor..hmm.. oso 1st dae of NP classes..GOOD!

i shall mk a 2pid 1st move..go NP n c whether pEi there anot..

den mayb aft tt can redeem my aptril treat..

slim chances of findin her bt i've lost far too mani chances 2 yrs baq..cun afford another..

will fate has eyes to see n heart to feel..no idea at all..

will i see her tt dae??

do i WISH to see her tt dae..

no idea too..

nt too despo..

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Day 2 - 17 05 2005
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s|anx wat tym nia..i ald wake up liao..eh? actualli din slp at all..so there's no nd to wake up..HAHA..

movin out at 1 am..duno gg where bt anw oso hv to follow..no purpose journey..RAINED the whole dae..tis means the cbt teams have to suffer agnn..in the rain..while im in the vehicle..no beda..rain dripped thru the holes in the freakin old vehicle n most of my stuff were wet n slimy mixed w mud..

i CUN go out of the vehicle at all..shit!!..as usual..TD wasnt mannin his comms..n i've do his job..damn sian n irritatin when i've to double as 85S..omg~..

when will Alex stop gvin mi probs..lyk nt in the mood to ans the comms..wat the hell..as if im in the mood..hai..

been veri dulan w the MO n snr medic liao..hope my hatred for em doesnt fill my heart..else i reali will burst out in anger..

bth...is nt the siongness tt mk mi bth..is the mental stress when wkin under em..imaginin aft hvin a bad fall open wound n stil hv to go out n tolerate for 3-4 daes b4 gttin it treated??

hard to tolerate bt i choose tis way cos its the onli way..no one will pity weakilings..

tts for sure..most of em pretend to care bt deep dn "u're WEAK"


well for sum..yes..they do care..bt there's a limit to hw far they can hlp..

there's an incident when the MO came over to mi..



MO : hey wb hw's ur leg?

mi : okay lahx.. nt tt pain nw bt is qt itchy.. scared it worsen aft few daes..

MO :hmm... mz tk care ok? bt there's a cure lahx.. u noe wat izit?

mi :*curious n ignorant* WAT??

MO : aft ord lorx..sure will heal 1..

mi :* fuk* oic.. hahax (gvin the nt funnie laugh)



such sarcastic comments can kp to urself CHRIS GOH!!!!!!!!..i dun nd such comments at TIS pt in tym..hw to survive such commanders for few more daes..gg mad soon..dun wish to see him most of the tym..

knee gvin mi probs n more painful..ARGGGGGGGGHHHHH..where on earth did the pain came fr??tink its infected sia..shit man..hope tmr it heals more..

ya w/o medicine see can heal anot..ha~..jz pray pray pray..

tmr hopefully is the last dae le..bt its jz wishful tinkin..

haha..will onli end on thurs i tink..n a late 1..2 more daes n im out..quick quick quick..

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Day 3 - 18 05 2005
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no mood to write anymore..cos Alex is nt mannin his comms at all..

n i kana rush to do tings tt r nt impt..sianx..

yak tel mi comms S4..den walk away..wat the hell??!!!den i duno call him for wat..in the end..

"nth further"lame ryt??ask mi to call den nv sae wat ting..

shit~!pc of shit..arghhh..tmr..hmm tmr n im out..

wun see yak n chris GOH fr tmr onwds..YEA~..dun wish to see their face at all..shame to the army medical corp..hw can they do tt to their patients..do they owaz tink tt patients in the army r to b taken lightly??

hai..they r humans too..can they at least show sum concern for the sick??nt EVRYBODY who reported sick is geng..

well..actualli to my blif..none is geng..jz the degree of severity of each person..

light injuries shd oso b gven care ryt???????????????lucki vehicle brkdn halfway..tts y less mvmt..bt more of the craps fr em..


yak : hey wb.. cum eat ICE CREAM!!

mi : (*fuk* im here for outfield nt for picnic) errr... no thx u all go ahead..

yak : cum eat.. gt alot..

mi : i dun wan.. gv alex since he lyk it so muc..

yak : ok (sensin my dulanness w him for the veri 1st tym..)



nearly evrydae..they eating fresh rations..sardines..instant noodles..evryting tt is commercialise..wat the hell..n they kp offerin mi..I DUN WAN>>im wearin green hello?n im outfield ATEC..

siao..needa mk til lyk picnic meh..ha~..Alex, aft eatin my share of ice cream, saes tt im godlyk..haha..ya..

不食人间烟火。。true enuf..i dun wan to behave slack..cbt teams out there sufferin..duno wat they eatin bt definitely nt lyk em eatin fresh evrydae..

kua zhang bt true..evrybody might b eatin tis way bt i jz bu shuang yak n chris behving liddat when they wayang in front of higher ranks..omg~..

FAKE-KO~~~

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Day 4 - 19 05 2005
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yuhooo..last dae lohx..wat tym wil reach camp..nt sure at the start..n ppl might nw wonder..

hw cum i gt tym to write durin out field..well..its durin my slpin hrs den i write lor..反正 onli gv us 1 hr slp might as well stay awake n write sth to kill tym..

no pt slpin for an hour..phew..jz gt a news tt we gg baq soon bcos sndin a NO DUFF casualty to camp..so we'll lyk go baq half an hour earlier den the rest..

ha~..n guess wat..no duff casualty is onli a small cut on the finger..compared to the bigger wound on Alex's n my knees??omg~..

if they're jz using the small cut patient as an excuse to go baq early.. might as well tel mi..i b their no duff lor..reali bth their slackin style..reali is flawless mi..

bt anw..i oso gt to go baq early..n mayb go baq camp n let ppl sae i slack lor..cun hlp de lah..ppl owaz sae wat came to their minds..

few ppl wil actualli put emselves in ur shoes n feel for u..ha~..half an hr earlier onli n slackers, we are..

aiya dun care le lah..sae watever they wan n jz pray tt they finalli understd tt MO Signallers r nt tt gd life for mi..

AT LEAST..

for Alex..??

WELL . . . . . . . . . . .