hai evryting seems low for mi now

fri nite
came to noe the real truth..
and wasnt able to accept it al..
even til now..hai..
hw m i gg to accept it when it came so sudden..
mayb its jz a trick to lure the imspiration for tis blog entry
or its mayb..
its jz tt i think too muc..
evryting seems so wonderful b4 tt..
bt i didnt noe tt ONLI mi n myself think tt the world is wonderful
ha
reali hard to bliv
tt actualli
im causing sumone's misery at the sametym when im feeling gd
feeling glad
aiya
jz feeel eri glad jiu dui le bah
nv had tis feeling b4
bt til ytd..
the feeling is denied
nt gone
jz denied
cos i was been told tt..
i was rejected the 2nd tym..
haha/sob..
i duno
i reali duno whether i shd luff or cry
cause a 2nd tym is reali hard to bliv
wat actualli happened/
i duno either
i jz noe tt its for sum personal reason
tt is nt supposedto b said to mi..
so all in all..
to readers ot there
or does tis even has a reader
god noes
isnt it all my fault all the while?
nt tryin to act pitiful act kelian..
act act act or act la
mayb all the while was acting
bt i duno hw nt to act
so if im acting to u
pls forgive mi lor
kp refreshing thw blog jz now
i duno y either
i tot when i finally refresh til there's update
u mz b AO le bah
so fina;;y
AO at 545..
hai
i duno its meant to b an avoid or izit reali feeling sian ald..
lyk wat u told mi last tym..
if iots gg to continue for few more mths
i think i will feel sian of it de leh
i tk ur wds for real
but u didnt kp ur wds
u saiod few mths
so i tot at least
i got tt few mths to prove myself
prove myself to b one of the BoA song..
as for the BoA song
hai
i shall leave it to u to decipher bah
clue here: samurai warriors theme song
haha
dun hv to play the game to noe
ujz hv to google it..
ha
aiya anw
watever i said here
might seem last min type de
cos i reali dun hv tym
dun hv tym to write dn all the wds i hv to sae..
too muc ald..
too muc ganxiang to sae
n i dun hv a diary
onli a dumb blog
tt other ppl see liao
wil sae..
"omg~~ NOT ANOTHER LOVESICKO BLOG"
YA
sounds lyk sum lovesicko blog
bt nvm la
its all in ppl's mind
if u ald hv the thinking in the 1st place
no matter hw mani tyms i sae u're worthy..
u wun bliv
cos might b bcos
im nt even worthy
haah
n ya of cos
im nt feeling low confi
or act kelian
all these yrs
i nv achieve anyting tt i shd b proud of..
cos evryting abt mi si so common..
nth special
i dun hv a gd brain
dun hv a gd figure
dun hv a gd personality
im simply a AP freak..
to sungei gedong mates
im AP bah
cos i chose it tis way
last tym
if any1 cud rmb..
AP n jayugi nv link w each other
tryin to search for my own individuality
resulting in a bad search
bt nvm la
if u noe mi
u wud noe wat a person i am..
whether im being myself anot u noe urself..
i dun hv to chg to suit ppl needs
bt when i do chg
i chg willingly..
n most likely
its chgin for gd le
its nth bad
being flexible bah..
ppl wil lyk to hv their ways of cos
so there mz b sumbody to gv in isnt it..
hai..
k la
all the nagging start le..
shall cont tis sad entry nx week..
bt if tings gona b different aft tis..
i wun cont liao..
bt if its stil the same answer
hai
den i think i better cont
to clear my bhb de behviour..
cya agn dear bloggie..